I was blind, but I was ashamed(羞愧) of it if it was known.
我失明了，但如果被人知道我会感到羞愧。
I refused to use a white stick and hated asking for help.
我拒绝使用盲杖，也讨厌向人求助。
After all, I was a teenage girl, and I couldn’t stand people to look at me and think I was not like them.
毕竟，我是个十几岁的女孩，我无法忍受别人看着我，认为我和他们不一样。
One evening, I got off the bus about halfway home where I had to change buses, and as usual I walked into something.
一天晚上，我在离家一半路程的地方下车换乘另一辆公交车，像往常一样，我又撞到了什么东西上。
“I’m terribly sorry,” I said and stepped forward only to run into it again.
“非常抱歉，”我说着向前迈步，却又再次撞上了它。
When it happened a third time, I realized I had been apologizing to a lamppost(路灯杆).
当这种情况第三次发生时，我才意识到我一直在向一根路灯杆道歉。
This was just one of the stupid things that often happened to me.
这只是经常发生在我身上的愚蠢事情之一。
So I carried on and found the bus stop, which was a request stop, where the bus wouldn’t stop unless passengers wanted to get on or off.
所以我继续前行，找到了那个公交站——那是一个招手即停的站点，除非有乘客上下车，否则公交车不会停靠。
No one else was there and I had to try to guess if the bus had arrived.
当时没有其他人，我只能试着猜测公交车是否已经到站。
Generally in this situation, because I hated showing I was blind by asking for help, I tried to guess at the sound.
通常在这种情况下，因为我讨厌通过求助来暴露自己失明的身份，我会尝试根据声音来判断。
Sometimes I would stop a big truck and stand there feeling stupid as it drew away.
有时我会拦下一辆大卡车，然后站在那里，看着它开走时觉得自己很傻。
In the end, I usually decided to take back my pride and ask someone at the stop for help.
最终，我通常会放下自尊，向车站里的人寻求帮助。
But on this evening no one joined me at the stop.
但那天晚上，没有人来到车站与我同行。
It seemed that everyone had suddenly decided not to travel by bus.
似乎每个人都突然决定不再乘坐公交车了。
Of course I heard plenty of buses pass, or I thought I did.
当然，我听到了很多公交车经过的声音，或者我以为我听到了。
But because I had given up stopping them for fear of making a fool of myself, I let them all go by.
但由于害怕出丑，我已经放弃了拦车的念头，所以任由它们全部驶过。
I stood there alone for half an hour without stopping one.
我独自在那里站了半个小时，却没有拦下一辆车。
Then I gave up.
最后我放弃了。
I decided to walk on to the next stop.
我决定步行前往下一个车站。
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