第十二章: 领会 Some People Just Don’t Grasp The Concept Of “Unwelcome”
I was right on the edge of sleep.
我昏昏欲睡。
And then Seth’s piercing howl broke the early morning quiet.
在这样想着的时候，塞思刺耳的叫声划破了早晨的宁静。
I lurched up from the ground, my front legs pulling toward a sprint before my hind legs were off the ground. I raced toward the place where Seth had frozen, listening with him to the tread of paws running in our direction.
我立刻从地上跳起来，后腿还没完全离地，前腿就已经做出一个凌空腾跃的动作。我快马加鞭赶到Seth那里，他在那里紧张地一动都不敢动。我和他一起屏息凝神地听着朝我们方向接近的脚步声。
The sun had risen behind the clouds an hour ago — the forest was gray now instead of black. Seth’d curled up and passed out around one, and I’d woken him at dawn to trade off. Even after running all night, I was having a hard time making my brain shut up long enough to fall asleep, but Seth’s rhythmic run was helping. One, two-three, four, one, two-three, four — dum dum-dum dum — dull paw thuds against the damp earth, over and over as he made the wide circuit surrounding the Cullens’ land. We were already wearing a trail into the ground. Seth’s thoughts were empty, just a blur of green and gray as the woods flew past him. It was restful. It helped to fill my head with what he saw rather than letting my own images take center stage.
一小时前，太阳从云层后面升了起来——森林现在笼罩在一片灰雾中，不再是漆黑一片。塞思蜷缩着睡了过去，他凌晨一点左右才睡下，所以我会在黄昏时刻叫醒他换班。即使在跑了一整夜后，我的脑袋都无法停止思想，所以辗转难眠，但是塞思颇有节奏的脚步倒是帮了忙。一，二—三，四，一，二—三，四，——咚咚咚当——脚掌踩在潮湿的泥土上产生的单调节奏，在他围着卡伦家领地巡视时，就这样一遍又一遍的播放着。塞思的思想几乎是空白的，能看见的只有他经过时，那些树木倒退所构成的绿色、灰色的斑驳色块，看着让人觉得放松。比起让自己的主观思想占据主导，看着他脑海中的画面，对睡眠更有帮助。
No, you’re not. Turn around before I rip out one of your hamstrings.
不，你不能。转身，回去，不然我踢断你的腿。
Stop whining, Seth. You’re such a baby.
别在叽叽歪歪了，塞思。你这小鬼。
Leah trotted into view, her small gray body weaving through the underbrush.
利亚小跑着出现在我们面前，短小的灰色身躯从矮树丛后窜了出来。
Morning, boys.
早上好啊，男生们。
Right. Ugh! Ugh! Ugh! He whimpered and pawed at the ground, scratching deep furrows in the dirt.
好的，啊！啊！啊！他乌里麻利地嘀咕着，脚不停刨着地面，不一会儿沙土地上就出现了一条深深的沟纹。
Cut the noise, Seth.
收声，塞思。
I stopped when I got to Seth, head thrown back, ready to howl again — this time to complain.
来到塞思身边的时候，他昂起头，准备再次发出嗥叫——不过这次是准备抱怨的。
I growled at her, my ears flattening against my skull. She skipped back a step automatically.
我冲她吼了一声，耳朵紧贴着脑袋。她条件反射地向后小跳了一步。
She huffed a heavy sigh. It’s pretty obvious, isn’t it? I’m joining your crappy little renegade pack. The vampires’ guard dogs. She barked out a low, sarcastic laugh.
她重重地叹了一口气。这很明显，不是吗？我正准备加入你那蹩脚的叛变者组织。吸血鬼的走狗。说到这，她爆发出一阵低低的，自嘲的笑声。
Oh, man! Go away, Leah! Seth groaned.
噢，天啊！离开我们，利亚！塞思拔高分贝叫唤起来。
A shocked whine broke through Seth’s teeth. And then we both snarled as we read deeper into the new thoughts.
塞思从齿缝间发出吃惊的咕噜声。当我们发现我们能读取新来者思想的时候，我们同时咆哮起来。
I took a deep breath, filling my lungs until my sides bulged. Then, when I was sure I wasn’t going to scream, I exhaled in a gust.
我深深吸了口气，纳入尽量多的空气，直到我的肺都快炸了。当我肯定不会尖叫的时候，才把它们统统呼了出去。
Like you could catch me. She grinned and coiled her body for launch. Wanna race, O fearless leader?
别说得好像你能抓到我。她笑了起来，做出跑步预备的姿势。想比赛吗，无畏的领袖？
What do you think you’re doing, Leah?
你知道你在干嘛吗，利亚？
Shut up, Jacob. Oops, I’m sorry — I meant, shut up, most high Alpha.
闭嘴，雅各布。哎呀，对不起……我是说，请不要再说了，至高无上的阿尔法大人。
Of course it is. I’m just pointing out that being unwanted is not a first for me. Not really a motivating factor, if you know what I mean.
当然有关，我只是想说不被需要这种事情对我来已经不是第一次了。这是个不怎么鼓舞人心的事实，如果你知道我是指什么的话。
I’m pretty sure he’d rather they took him out than spend another minute with you.
我很肯定他宁愿被吸血鬼痛打，也不愿意多花一分钟和你待在一起。
I gritted my teeth and tried to get my head straight.
我磨磨牙，试图理清思路。
So this isn’t about Seth at all, is it?
所以跟塞思无关，是吗？
Seth doesn’t want or need your protection. In fact, no one wants you here.
塞思不想，也不需要你的保护。事实上，没人希望你在这儿。
On it! Seth was only too happy to leave. He vanished toward the house.
得令！塞思撒欢着就跑开了，消失在了通往房子的路上。
Seth, go let the Cullens know that it’s just your stupid sister — I thought the words as harshly as possible. I’ll deal with this.
塞思，去通知卡伦他们，这是你那愚蠢的姐姐——这些话在我的脑海中快速闪过。我来处理剩下的。
Oooh, ouch, that’s gonna leave a huge mark. Ha, she barked. Tell me who does want me around, and I’m outta here.
哎呀，该死的，真是句不错的评语。哈，她吠道。告诉我谁会需要我，那我就走。
Why the hell are you here?
你为什么会在这里呢？
You think I’m just going to sit home while my little brother volunteers as a vampire chew toy?
你认为在我弟弟自愿去成为吸血鬼磨牙的玩具的时候，我还能在家坐得住吗？
Leah whined, and she leaned after him, the fur on her shoulders rising. You’re just going to let him run off to the vampires alone?
利亚不悦地皱皱眉，不放心地在后面跟了几步，肩上的鬣毛都竖了起来。你就让他一个人去吸血鬼那儿？
I listened carefully to the thoughts mixed in with the words. If this was a diversion or a ploy, I had to be alert enough to see through it. But there was nothing. Her declaration was nothing but the truth. Unwilling, almost despairing truth.
我听着她说话的同时，也在留心她脑中的想法。如果这是一种离间或是手段，那么我就要小心绕过陷阱。但是什么都不是，她心口一致。虽然不愿意承认，但是这就是事实。
If I was here on Sam’s errand, you wouldn’t be able to hear me. My allegiance is no longer with him.
如果我是被山姆派过来的话，那么你是听不到我的。我不再为他效忠了。
Did Sam send you?
是山姆把你派过来的吗？
You’re loyal to me now? I asked with deep sarcasm. Uh-huh. Right.
你现在是忠实派了？话语中深藏着讽刺。啊哈。是的。
She bristled, resenting the intrusion. I usually tried to tune Leah out — I’d never tried to make sense of her before.
她被我这样鲁莽的侵入激怒了。我总是对利亚拒之千里——因为从来都搞不懂她到底是怎么想的。
That wasn’t true. There was an edgy kind of excitement in her mind. She was unhappy about this, but she was also riding some weird high. I searched her mind, trying to understand.
这句话不是真的。她的心中有一股抑制不住的兴奋。她确实是不开心，但是同时又莫名地兴奋难耐。我在她的头脑中搜索着，希望能够理解原因。
My choices are limited. I’m working with the options I’ve got. Trust me, I’m not enjoying this any more than you are.
我的选择有限，我只是在仅有的选项中做出抉择。相信我，我不会比你在这件事上好受多少。
We were interrupted by Seth, thinking his explanation at Edward. Leah whined anxiously. Edward’s face, framed in the same window as last night, showed no reaction to the news. It was a blank face, dead.
我们被塞思打断了，他把对爱德华的解释回放给我们看。利亚有些不安地皱起眉头，爱德华的脸，和昨晚一样站在同一个窗口，对于消息不置可否的回应。空白的脸孔，同尸体无异。
But I am committed to this alliance. You aren’t.
我只是在为我们的联盟尽责。而你不是。
And I’m supposed to trust you with that?
我可以相信你说的吗？
Wow, he looks bad, Seth muttered to himself. The vampire showed no reaction to that thought, either. He disappeared into the house. Seth pivoted and headed back out to us. Leah relaxed a little.
哇喔，他看起来很不好，Seth自言自语地咕哝着。那个吸血鬼对于这个想法也完全无动于衷的样子。他走进屋里，消失了。塞思也就转身回来了，利亚多少松了口气。
Thank you, Captain Obvious. That doesn’t matter to me. I’m staying with Seth.
谢谢你的提醒。那对我来说没所谓，我要和塞思在一起。
Leah, you don’t like me. I don’t like you.
利亚，你不喜欢我，而我也不喜欢你。
You don’t like vampires. Don’t you think that’s a little conflict of interest right there?
你不喜欢吸血鬼。你不认为这和你的利益相悖吗？
What’s going on? Leah asked. Catch me up to speed.
发生了什么事？利亚问到。快速地给我过一下。
You don’t like vampires either.
你也不喜欢吸血鬼。
Actually, Mr. Alpha, I am. Because since apparently I have to belong to someone — and don’t think I haven’t tried breaking off on my own, you know yourself how well that doesn’t work — I choose you.
事实上，阿尔法先生，我会。因为既然谁都不需要我——别以为我没有试过逃脱这个怪圈，但是你自己也知道抵抗是无用的——所以，我选择你。
I’ll keep my distance from them. I can run patrols out here, just like Seth.
我会和他们保持距离。我可以在这里巡逻，就像塞思一样。
She stretched her neck, leaning up on her toes, trying to be as tall as me as she stared into my eyes. I will not betray my pack.
她扬起脖子，踮起脚，试图和我在同一水平高度上对视。我是不会背叛自己的团队的。
There’s no point. You’re not staying.
没什么。你也不会留下来。
I wanted to throw my head back and howl, like Seth had before. This isn’t your pack! This isn’t even a pack. This is just me, going off on my own! What is it with you Clearwaters? Why can’t you leave me alone?
我多么想像塞思刚才那样，后仰起脑袋长啸起来。这不是你的团队！这甚至不能称之为团队。这里只有我，别和我扯上关系！你们克里尔沃特家的人到底怎么回事？为什么你就不能留我一个人呢？
Seth, just coming up behind us now, whined; I’d offended him. Great.
塞思，只是跟在后面，抱怨着；我得罪了他。很好。
You haven’t made too much a nuisance of yourself, kid, but if you and Leah are a package deal — if the only way to get rid of her is for you to go home… Well, can you blame me for wanting you gone?
你确实不会成为多大的累赘，孩子，但是如果你和利亚要在一起的话——如果唯一摆脱她的方式就是让你回家……好吧，你会怪我要赶你走吗？
Seth was feeling guilty, too. Jake… You’re not really gonna send me away, are you? Leah’s not so bad. Really. I mean, with her here, we can push the perimeter out farther. And this puts Sam down to seven. There’s no way he’s going to mount an attack that outnumbered. It’s probably a good thing…
塞思也感到了愧疚。杰克……你不会真把我送回家的，是吗？利亚并没有那么坏。真的，我是说，如果能有她在这儿，我们能把守卫圈扩得更大些。而且这样一来，山姆那里就只有七人了。所以他也不会在人数处于劣势的时候发动进攻。这也许是件好事……
I’ve been helpful, haven’t I, Jake?
我能帮上忙，不是吗，杰克？
Ugh, Leah, you ruin everything!
啊，利亚，你把一切都搞砸了！
Yeah, I know, she told him, and the thought was loaded with the heaviness of her despair.
是的，我知道。她对他说，绝望的重量让她的思绪显得格外沉重。
I felt the pain in the three little words, and it was more than I would’ve guessed. I didn’t want to feel that. I didn’t want to feel bad for her. Sure, the pack was rough on her, but she brought it all on herself with the bitterness that tainted her every thought and made being in her head a nightmare.
我掂量出那短短三个字中透出的痛楚，也许比我想象的还要多。我不想体会那些，我不想为她感到难过。确实，狼群的生活对她来说是很苛刻，但是长久以来的痛苦萦绕着她每一次思想，终于在她脑海中腐烂成一个噩梦的温床，这才造就了她今天这种脾气。
Leah wasn’t going anywhere.
利亚哪儿都不会去。
I paced away from her, growling.
我和她保持一段距离，生气地咆哮起来。
Jake, Seth thought. I belong here. I do like vampires. Cullens, anyway. They’re people to me, and I’m going to protect them, ’cause that’s what we’re supposed to do.
杰克，塞思想到。我属于这里。我是真的喜欢吸血鬼。还有卡伦家的人。他们对我来说就是人类，而我就是想要保护他们，因为这才是我们应该做的事啊。
Maybe you belong, kid, but your sister doesn’t. And she’s going to go wherever you are —
也许你是属于这里，但是你的姐姐不是。现在她准备你到哪儿她就跟到哪儿——
So don’t lead us, Leah offered.
那么就不要领导我们，利亚提议说。
I stopped short, because I saw something when I said that. Something Leah had been trying not to think.
因为看到了一些东西，我打断了话头。一些利亚不愿意去想的事情。
And to get away from Sam.
顺便还可以离开山姆远远的。
You know I don’t want to lead a pack, Seth.
你知道我不想领导一支队伍，塞思。
I snorted. Sounds perfect to me. Run along home now.
我大吼一声。听起来不错。那现在就给我回去。
Thought this was about Seth, I thought sourly.
还以为你是为了塞思呢，我故意酸溜溜地说。
She flinched. Of course I’m here for Seth.
她向后一个退步。当然，我在这里是为了塞思咯。
Her jaw clenched. I don’t have to explain myself to you. I just have to do what I’m told. I belong to your pack, Jacob. The end.
她紧紧地咬着牙齿。我不需要什么事都和你解释。我只要按照被告知的去做就行了。我属于你的狼群，雅各布。就这样。
Crap. I was never going to get rid of her. As much as she disliked me, as much as she loathed the Cullens, as happy as she’d be to go kill all the vampires right now, as much as it pissed her off to have to protect them instead — none of that was anything compared to what she felt being free of Sam.
该死的。我永远也摆脱不了她了。不管她有多讨厌我，不管她有多厌恶卡伦家族，也许让她现在去咬死那些吸血鬼她乐意至极，而要她去保护他们，她都快恨死自己了——但是这些都及不上她终于从Sam那里解脱出来获得自由的快感。
She loved Sam. Still. And having him wish she would disappear was more pain than she was willing to live with, now that she had a choice. She would have taken any other option. Even if it meant moving in with the Cullens as their lapdog.
她爱山姆，依然还爱着。最痛苦的事并非还要和他生活在一起，而是得知他也希望她能够消失。现在她有了选择，所以她像抓住救命稻草一样地选择了其他的出路。即使这意味着做卡伦家族的看门狗。
Leah didn’t like me, so it wasn’t such a chore having me wish she would disappear.
利亚不喜欢我，真是巴不得她早点消失。
I don’t know if I’d go that far, she thought. She tried to make the words tough, aggressive, but there were big cracks in her show. I’m sure I’d give killing myself a few good tries first.
我不知道我是否能做得到，她还在试图逞强。在那之前我一定会试试看能不能先自我了断。
I snarled for a long, angry minute. I was beginning to feel some sympathy for Sam, despite what he had done to me, to Seth. No wonder he was always ordering the pack around. How else would you ever get anything done?
接下去的一分钟里我能做的只有暴躁的咆哮。我开始有点同情山姆了，除了他对我和塞思做出那样的事情。难怪他要经常命令狼群，不然还能怎么办呢？
No, you look, Jacob. Stop arguing with me, because it’s not going to do any good. I’ll stay out of your way, okay? I’ll do anything you want. Except go back to Sam’s pack and be the pathetic ex-girlfriend he can’t get away from. If you want me to leave — she sat back on her haunches and stared straight into my eyes — you’re going to have to make me.
不，你听着，雅各布。不要再和我争执了，因为这没有一点好处。我会离你远远的，好吗？我可以听你差遣，只要不再回到山姆的队伍中，做一个他甩不掉的可怜前女友。如果你想让我离开——她坐正了身体，直直地看进我的眼里去——命令我。
Look, Leah…
听着，Leah……
Suicide at this point, with you and Seth AWOL and the bloodsuckers forewarned. I’m not sure what they’ll do, but I wouldn’t be wandering the forest alone if I was a leech. It’s open season on vamps now.
今天早上的第一件事就是和长辈们聊一下。我们要一起先碰个头然后制定出计划，我敢说他不会立刻就发动另一轮进攻。没有我和塞思，而吸血鬼们又有了警惕，这种时候攻击无异于自杀。我不知道他们会怎么做，不过如果我是蚂蟥的话就不会在森林里乱走。现在正好是发情的时节。
I sighed.
我叹了口气。
Okay, then, Ms. Do-Anything-I-Want. Why don’t you make yourself useful by telling us what you know? What happened after we left last night?
我好，那么，任意妄为小姐，你为什么不做点有用的事呢？类似于告诉我们一些你知道的事情，我们昨晚离开了后发生了什么？
Seth, are you gonna get mad at me if I kill your sister?
塞思，如果我把你姐姐给杀了，你会恨我吗？
Lots of howling. But you probably heard that part. It was so loud that it took us a while to figure out that we couldn’t hear either of you anymore. Sam was… Words failed her, but we could see it in our head. Both Seth and I cringed. After that, it was clear pretty quick that we were going to have to rethink things. Sam was planning to talk to the other Elders first thing this morning. We were supposed to meet up and figure out a game plan. I could tell he wasn’t going to mount another attack right away, though.
不得了的嚎叫，也许你们也听见了。因为太吵了，以至于我们花了好一会儿才意识到我们再也听不到你们了。山姆他……她词穷了，但是我们还是能在头脑中看见画面。让我和塞思都有些发怵。那之后，我们也认清了我们必须重新思考这件事。山姆正在计划和其他人谈谈。
He pretended to think about it for a minute. Well… yeah, probably.
他假装想了一分钟。好吧……是的，有可能。
You decided to skip the meeting this morning? I asked.
你打算翘掉今天早上的会议？我问她。
Seth, hold off on the sibling stuff for a sec. Go on, Leah.
塞思，家务事先放一边。接着讲下去，利亚。
This was exactly the kind of thing I didn’t want to have to do.
这是我极不情愿发生的事情。
You’ve had as much sleep as I have.
你和我睡得一样少。
So that’s everything. What do we do now? she asked.
那么就这么定了。我们现在做什么？她问我。
Crap! You told Mom? Seth growled.
该死的！你竟然告诉妈妈了？塞思大叫起来。
When we split up for patrols last night, I asked permission to go home, to tell my mother what had happened —
当我们昨晚分头巡逻的时候，我得到了允许回了一次家，告诉了我母亲发生了什么——
So once I was human, I took a minute to think things through. Well, actually, I took all night. I bet the others think I fell asleep. But the whole two-separate-packs, two — separate-pack-minds thing gave me a lot to sift through. In the end, I weighed Seth’s safety and the, er, other benefits against the idea of turning traitor and sniffing vampire stink for who knows how long. You know what I decided. I left a note for my mom. I expect we’ll hear it when Sam finds out…
一旦返回人形，我花了一分钟时间把整件事从头到尾想了一下。好吧，我想了一整晚。我打赌其他人一定以为我睡着了。但是两支独立的狼群，两种独立的思想，给了我许多思考的空间。最后，我权衡了下轻重，塞思的安危还有额……其他的好处，和不知道要闻多久的吸血鬼臭味这两者之间。最后的选择你也看到啦。我给我妈留了一张条。我盼着听到当山姆发现它时的反应……
Leah cocked an ear to the west.
利亚竖起一只耳朵转向西面。
She and Seth both looked at me expectantly.
她和塞思投向我的眼里充满了期待。
Yeah, I expect we will, I agreed.
是啊，我也盼着能听到，我同意说。
I guess we just keep an eye out for now. That’s all we can do. You should probably take a nap, Leah.
我觉得我们现在就保持警惕。这是所有我们能做的。利亚，你应该小睡一会儿。
Sure, sure. I’m going to go check in with the Cullens.
好，好。那我去看看卡伦家的情况。
Seth took off along the new path worn into the damp earth. Leah looked after him thoughtfully.
泥土还带着潮气，塞思选了一条新的路径，就跑开了。利亚若有所思地看着他离去的背影。
Barking out a low chuckle, Leah lunged into the woods after him.
利亚发出一阵低低的坏笑，接着就尾随着他扎进了树丛中。
NO!
不！
I growled uselessly. So much for peace and quiet.
我象征性的咆哮了一下。多么平和，宁静的早晨啊。
Right. That’s going to get old, she grumbled, and then she yawned. Well, whatever. I don’t care.
好吧。那招迟早会无效的，她不满地嘀咕了一下。好吧，不管什么，我都不在乎。
Maybe, I allowed.
也许吧。我挺赞同的。
Leah was trying — for Leah. She kept her jibes to a minimum as she raced around the circuit, but it was impossible not to be aware of her smug mood. I thought of the whole “two’s company” saying. It didn’t really apply, because one was plenty to my mind. But if there had to be three of us, it was hard to think of anyone that I wouldn’t trade her for.
利亚很努力在克制了。她在巡逻的时候刻意不让自己再哼哼唧唧的，但也难掩她洋洋得意的心情。我想了下所谓的“两人组”的说法，这并不成立，因为只一个人就够我烦的了。如果要组个三人组的话，指不定哪天我就想把她给换掉了。
Paul? she suggested.
换保罗？她建议说。
I’ll run the border, Jake. I’m not tired at all. Seth was so glad I hadn’t forced them home, he was all but prancing with excitement.
我可以巡逻边界，杰克。我一点也不累。塞思很高兴我们没有撵他们回去，在那里开心得手舞足蹈的。
Thought you were going to do what you were told?
你好像才说过会按照说的去做的哦？
Maybe a round or two before I crash… Hey Seth, wanna see how many times I can lap you?
在我睡着之前，你能跑多少圈，一圈还是两圈……嗨，塞思，看多快我能追上你？
Yeah, work on that.
好啊，向着目标前进吧。
That will be my goal, then — to be less annoying than Paul.
可能那会是我的目标吧——比保罗不那么烦人一点点。
She laughed to herself, too jittery and hyper to get offended. I wondered how long the buzz from dodging Sam’s pity would last.
她自嘲地笑笑，对于冒犯的言论还是有些神经敏感，看来我对于山姆的同情不知道还会持续多久。
I changed into my other form when I was a few yards from the lawn. I hadn’t been planning to spend much time human here. But I hadn’t been planning to have Leah in my head, either. I pulled on my ragged shorts and started across the lawn.
在距离草坪还有几码的时候，我变换成了人形。我不打算在这儿久留，但是我更没有打算的是让利亚在我的脑袋中。我套上我那件破破烂烂的短衫，然后开始跨过草坪。
The door opened before I got to the steps, and I was surprised to see Carlisle rather than Edward step outside to meet me — his face looked exhausted and defeated. For a second, my heart froze. I faltered to a stop, unable to speak.
还没踏上台阶呢，门就已经开了。出来迎接我的并非爱德华而是卡莱尔，他的脸没有了往日的神采。看到这样的他，我的心跳漏了一拍，畏缩着停下了脚步，什么话也说不出来。
“Are you all right, Jacob?” Carlisle asked.
“你还好吗，雅各布？”卡莱尔在问我。
“Is Bella?” I choked out.
“是贝拉？”我结巴着回答。
And Edward didn’t want to lose any time with her, because he didn’t have much time left. Carlisle didn’t say the words out loud, but he might as well have.
是爱德华不想错过和她在一起的任何时间，因为她没有多少时间了。卡莱尔只是没点明而已，因为对他来说也是这样。
“She’s… much the same as last night. Did I startle you? I’m sorry. Edward said you were coming in your human form, and I came out to greet you, as he didn’t want to leave her. She’s awake.”
“她……和昨晚差不多。我是不是吓到你了？真抱歉。爱德华说你会以人类的姿态过来，所以我就出来迎接你，因为他不想离开她身边，她醒过来了。”
We sat in silence. I could hear the others in the house. Emmett, Alice, and Jasper, speaking in low, serious voices upstairs. Esme humming tunelessly in another room. Rosalie and Edward breathing close by — I couldn’t tell which was which, but I could hear the difference in Bella’s labored panting. I could hear her heart, too. It seemed… uneven.
我默默地坐在那里，能听到屋内的其他人的声音。埃美特，爱丽丝，和贾斯帕在楼上低声而又严肃地交谈着些什么。Esme在另一间房间哼着不成调的歌曲。罗莎莉和爱德华靠得很近的呼吸声，就在她的身旁……——我分辨不出他们的呼吸，但是贝拉粗重的呼吸声尤为清晰。我还能听到她的心跳，有些……心律不齐。
“I didn’t get a chance to thank you last night, Jacob. You don’t know how much I appreciate your… compassion. I know your goal was to protect Bella, but I owe you the safety of the rest of my family as well. Edward told me what you had to do…”
“昨晚的事还没有好好谢谢你呢，雅各布。你不知道我有多么感谢你们的……同情。我知道你的目的是为了保护贝拉，但是我们全家也因此受惠，我欠你一个情。爱德华告诉了我你不得不做出的抉择……”
Moving whisper-quiet as only a vampire could, Carlisle took a seat on the same step, against the other railing.
卡莱尔也坐在了同一级台阶上，悄无声息的动作只有吸血鬼才能做到，靠着另一根柱子。
It had been a while since I’d slept — since before my last patrol. I could really feel that now. I took a step forward, sat down on the porch steps, and slumped against the railing.
我已经有好一阵子没有睡眠了——自从我上次一次巡逻之后就再也没合过眼。现在睡意袭来，我脚一软，就瘫坐在了门廊的台阶上，背靠着柱子。
“Don’t mention it,” I muttered. “If you prefer.”
“那个就别提了，”我有些含混其词。“随你。”
It was like fate was out to make me do everything I’d ever sworn I wouldn’t in the course of twenty-four hours. Here I was, hanging around, waiting for her to die.
命运又玩弄了我一把，我推翻了24小时之前发誓绝不会做的事情。坐在这里，无能为力，等着她走向死亡。
I didn’t want to listen anymore. Talking was better than listening.
我再也听不下去了，说话比聆听来得有用。
He was quiet long enough that I looked up. His face was very, very tired. I knew how he felt.
他安静了很长时间直到我抬头看去。他看上去非常、非常的累。我能知道他的感受。
“She’s family to you?” I asked Carlisle. It had caught my notice before, when he’d said I’d helped the rest of his family, too.
“她对你来说也是家庭一份子？”我问卡莱尔。当他说我帮了他全家之后，我就对这点很在意。
“But you’re going to let her die.”
“但是你就眼看着让她死去。”
“Yes. Bella is already a daughter to me. A beloved daughter.”
“是的，贝拉已经是我的女儿了。喜爱得不得了的女儿。”
I wanted to be angry with him, but he was making it hard. It was like he was throwing my own words back at me, just scrambled up. They’d sounded right before, but they couldn’t be right now. Not with Bella dying. Still… I remembered how it felt to be broken on the ground under Sam — to have no choice but be involved in the murder of someone I loved. It wasn’t the same, though. Sam was wrong. And Bella loved things she shouldn’t.
我真的很想对他生气，但是就是没办法。他就好象把我的原话加倍回敬给我。以前这可能是对的，但是现在绝对不是。贝拉就要死了，这怎么还能对呢。我还依稀记得……如何匍伏在山姆面前——参与谋杀某个我爱的人，除此之外别无选择。虽然两者有区别。山姆是错的。而贝拉也爱上了她不该爱的。
“Do you think there’s any chance she’ll make it? I mean, as a vampire and all that. She told me about… about Esme.”
“你认为她还有一线生机吗？我是指，作为一个吸血鬼什么的。她告诉过我关于……关于埃斯米的事。”
“I can imagine what you think of me for that,” he finally said. “But I can’t ignore her will. It wouldn’t be right to make such a choice for her, to force her.”
“我能想象你是怎么想我的，”他终于开口说到。“但是我不能无视她的意愿。替她做出选择或者逼迫她做出选择都是不对的。”
“What is that thing doing to her?” I whispered. “She was so much worse last night. I saw… the tubes and all that. Through the window.”
“那东西对她做了什么？”我低语道。“她的情况似乎更糟了，我看到……那些插管和其它的东西，透过窗户。”
Bella’s heartbeat throbbed and faltered, giving an agonizing emphasis to his words.
贝拉的心脏咚咚跳动得更厉害了，似乎想要强调他的话。
Maybe the planet had started turning backward. Maybe that would explain how everything was the opposite of what it had been yesterday — how I could be hoping for what had once seemed like the very worst thing in the world.
也许地球在倒转，这样就能解释为什么每件事都和昨天发生的相反——我之前怎么能料到事情竟然绝望到这等地步。
“I’d say there’s an even chance at this point,” he answered quietly. “I’ve seen vampire venom work miracles, but there are conditions that even venom cannot overcome. Her heart is working too hard now; if it should fail… there won’t be anything for me to do.”
“如果要我说的话，每个人机会均等，”他平静地回答了我。“我曾亲眼见过吸血鬼的毒液创造奇迹，但也有回天乏术的时候。她的心脏现在还很强健，如果以后失败了，那我什么也做不了了。”
“The fetus isn’t compatible with her body. Too strong, for one thing, but she could probably endure that for a while. The bigger problem is that it won’t allow her to get the sustenance she needs. Her body is rejecting every form of nutrition. I’m trying to feed her intravenously, but she’s just not absorbing it.”
“首先，胎儿强壮的让她无法承受，但目前为止也许她还能坚持。更大的问题是它让她无法吸收任何食物，她的身体排斥任何形式的营养供给，我试着通过静脉注射给她输送营养，但似乎并不能让她改观。”
I felt the same way I had yesterday, when I’d seen the black stains across her stomach — furious, and a little crazy.
我昨天曾有过同样的感觉。当我看到她的肚子上布满黑色的伤痕，我也曾愤怒的发疯。
Everything about her condition is accelerated. I’m watching her — and not just her, but the fetus as well — starve to death by the hour. I can’t stop it and I can’t slow it down. I can’t figure out what it wants.” His weary voice broke at the end.
所有的症状都在加剧。我看着她——不只是她，还有胎儿，正在逐渐饿死。我没办法阻止或者让这一切慢下来，我不明白它到底要什么。他憔悴的声音最终停了下来。
I clenched my hands into fists to control the shaking. I hated the thing that was hurting her. It wasn’t enough for the monster to beat her from the inside out. No, it was starving her, too. Probably just looking for something to sink its teeth into — a throat to suck dry. Since it wasn’t big enough to kill anyone else yet, it settled for sucking Bella’s life from her.
我紧握着拳头努力控制着不让自己颤抖。我痛恨伤害着她的那东西，对那个怪物来说，从里向外的伤害她还不够，它还在饿着她。也许就应该找些东西满足它——一个可以吸干的脖子。从它还没长大到足够伤害别人的时候，它就开始在贝拉的身体里面吸干她的养分的时候。
I could tell them exactly what it wanted: death and blood, blood and death.
我可以告诉他们它到底想要什么：死亡和鲜血，鲜血和死亡。
My skin was all hot and prickly. I breathed slowly in and out, focusing on that to calm myself.
我的皮肤变得灼热起来，我努力放慢呼吸，让自己平静下来。
“I wish I could get a better idea of what exactly it is,” Carlisle murmured. “The fetus is well protected. I haven’t been able to produce an ultrasonic image. I doubt there is any way to get a needle through the amniotic sac, but Rosalie won’t agree to let me try, in any case.”
“我希望能找到更好的办法去搞清楚它到底是什么，”卡莱尔低声道。“但是胎儿被严密的保护着，我没办法采集到超声波图片，也不确定能不能做子宫穿刺。但无论如何，罗莎莉都不让我试一下。”
He chuckled once — even his laugh sounded exhausted. “Okay. How much biology have you taken? Did you study chromosomal pairs?”
他轻笑了一下——连笑声听起来都筋疲力尽。好吧。你懂生物学吗？你学过染色体配对吗？
“Humans do.”
“人类是的。”
“The more I know about the fetus, the better I can estimate what it will be capable of. What I wouldn’t give for even a little amniotic fluid. If I knew even the chromosomal count…”
“我对胎儿知道的越多，就越容易搞清楚它的能力所在。如果能知道它的染色体数目，我不惜用一点羊水。”
“Think so. We have twenty-three, right?”
“我知道。我们有23对染色体，对吗？”
“You’re losing me, Doc. Can you dumb it down?”
“我绝不同意，医生。能别做蠢事吗？”
I blinked. “How many do you have?”
我眨了眨眼。“那你们有多少？”
“A needle?” I mumbled. “What good would that do?”
“针刺？我咕哝着，那样做有什么好处？”
I frowned at my fists for a second. “What does that mean?”
我一下握紧了拳头：“那意味着什么？”
“Twenty-five.”
“25对。”
“I thought it meant that our species were almost completely different. Less related than a lion and a house cat. But this new life — well, it suggests that we’re more genetically compatible than I’d thought.” He sighed sadly. “I didn’t know to warn them.”
“我想那意味着我们这样的物种和人类是完全不一样的，甚至一只狮子或者猫都比我们的构造要更接近人类。但是这个新生命——呃，我想它比我想的要具有更高的遗传兼容能力。”他悲伤的叹了口气，“我不知道该怎么预测它。”
I sighed, too. It had been easy to hate Edward for the same ignorance. I still hated him for it. It was just hard to feel the same way about Carlisle. Maybe because I wasn’t ten shades of jealous in Carlisle’s case.
我也叹了口气。我还是很恨爱德华，同样的无知让我觉得憎恶爱德华更容易些，对卡莱尔却无论如何恨不起来。也许是我并不嫉妒卡莱的原因吧。
“It might help to know what the count was — whether the fetus was closer to us or to her. To know what to expect.” Then he shrugged. “And maybe it wouldn’t help anything. I guess I just wish I had something to study, anything to do.”
“不管胎儿是更像我们还是更像她，搞清楚染色体数目都会让我对它的判断更有帮助。”他耸了耸肩。“也可能没有帮助。我希望我能学到一些任何对此有用的东西。”
Carlisle coughed self-consciously. “You have twenty-four pairs, Jacob.”
卡莱尔不好意思的咳了一下，“你有24对，雅各布。”
“Wonder what my chromosomes are like,” I muttered randomly. I thought of those Olympic steroids tests again. Did they run DNA scans?
“真想知道我的染色体是什么样的，”我无意识的嘟囔着，再次想起我以前想过的关于奥运会兴奋剂检测的事，他们会做DNA检测吗？”
I turned slowly to stare at him, raising my eyebrows.
我慢慢的转过头盯住他，挑起了眉毛。
“S’okay, Doc. You didn’t mean any harm.”
“没关系，医生。你并不是想伤害我。”
He looked embarrassed. “I was… curious. I took the liberty when I was treating you last June.”
他看起来很窘，“我很……好奇，去年六月我对你进行治疗的时候就冒昧的试了一下。”
I thought about it for a second. “I guess that should piss me off. But I don’t really care.”
我想了一会说，“我想也许我该生气的，但我并不是很介意。”
“No, I promise you that I did not mean you any harm. It’s just that… I find your species fascinating. I suppose that the elements of vampiric nature have come to seem commonplace to me over the centuries. Your family’s divergence from humanity is much more interesting. Magical, almost.”
“是的，我向你保证我从未想过要伤害你，只是好奇而已。一个世纪以来，吸血鬼的构造已经开始让我觉得平淡无奇了，这让我更觉得你们族类非常迷人。你们族群从人类的变异显得非常神奇和有趣。”
“I’m sorry. I should have asked.”
“很抱歉，我应该先问问你的。”
“Esme?” Rosalie called. “Can you mind Bella for me?”
“埃斯梅？罗莎莉喊道，你能帮我留心一下贝拉吗？”
Edward shut the door behind her.
爱德华在她身后关上了门。
Then we heard Edward’s voice inside the house, and we both paused to listen.
接着我们听到爱德华的声音在房间里响起，我们停止了交谈留心听着。
Carlisle laughed another weary laugh.
卡莱尔又一次疲惫的笑了。
Carlisle shifted, twisting to look expectantly at the door. Edward was through the door first, with Rosalie right on his heels. His face was, like his voice, no longer dead. He seemed intensely focused. Rosalie looked suspicious.
卡莱尔转过身充满期望的看着门口。爱德华先走出来，罗莎莉紧跟在他右边。他的脸看起来就像他的声音一样，了无生机。他看起来高度专注，罗莎莉则一副疑心重重的样子。
“Carlisle,” he murmured.
“卡莱尔，”他小声道。
“Nothing you need to worry about, love. It will just take a second. Please, Rose?”
你不需要担心，亲爱的。只要一会儿，求你了，罗莎？
“Of course,” she said.
“当然，”她说。
“What is it, Edward?” Bella asked hoarsely.
什么事，爱德华？贝拉嘶哑的问道。
I heard the whisper of wind as Esme flitted down the stairs.
我听到埃斯米掠下楼梯轻柔的风声。
“I’ll be right back, Bella. I want to speak with Carlisle for a moment. Actually, Rosalie, would you mind accompanying me?” Edward sounded different. There was a little life in his dead voice. A spark of something. Not hope exactly, but maybe the desire to hope.
我马上就回来，贝拉。我要和卡莱尔谈一下。事实上，罗莎莉，你介意和我一起吗、爱德华听起来有些不一样。他麻木的腔调里似乎有一点点生机，一些闪光的东西。虽然不像是有希望的样子，但也可能是一点生机。
“Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo,” I mumbled. He was just like Bella with all the magic garbage.
“Bibbidi—Bobbidi—Boo”（貌似无意义的嘟囔），我咕哝着。他的样子就像贝拉一样总是说些神奇的废话。
“Perhaps we’ve been going about this the wrong way. I was listening to you and Jacob just now, and when you were speaking of what the… fetus wants, Jacob had an interesting thought.”
“也许我们都错了。我刚才听到你和雅各布的谈话，当你谈到……胎儿到底想要什么的时候，雅各布有个很有意思的想法。”
“What is it, Edward?”
“怎么了？爱德华？”
Me? What had I thought? Besides my obvious hatred for the thing? At least I wasn’t alone in that. I could tell that Edward had a difficult time using a term as mild as fetus.
我？我想到什么了？除了我对那东西显尔易见的厌恶以外？至少不是我一个人，我敢说在这期间Edward也很难对那个胎儿表示友善。
“We haven’t actually addressed that angle,” Edward went on. “We’ve been trying to get Bella what she needs. And her body is accepting it about as well as one of ours would. Perhaps we should address the needs of the… fetus first. Maybe if we can satisfy it, we’ll be able to help her more effectively.”
“在这方面我们并没有真正的搞清楚，”爱德华继续道。“我们一直试图满足Bella的需要，她的身体也正在接受我们的某些意愿。也许我们应该先搞清楚这个……胎儿的需要，如果我们能满足它，就能更好的帮助她。”
“I’m not following you, Edward,” Carlisle said.
我不是很明白，爱德华。卡莱尔说。
I did? I ran through the conversation, trying to remember what thoughts I’d kept to myself. I remembered at the same time that Carlisle understood.
我猜到了？我仔细回想了一遍我们的谈话和我所有的想法，我和卡莱尔几乎同时明白了。
“Think about it, Carlisle. If that creature is more vampire than human, can’t you guess what it craves — what it’s not getting? Jacob did.”
“想想吧，卡莱尔。如果那个生物更像吸血鬼而不是人类，难道你猜不出它渴望什么吗？它缺什么？Jacob已经猜到了。”
Rosalie hissed under her breath. She wasn’t suspicious anymore. Her revoltingly perfect face was all lit up, her eyes wide with excitement. “Of course,” she muttered. “Carlisle, we have all that type O negative laid aside for Bella. It’s a good idea,” she added, not looking at me.
罗莎莉轻抽了一口气。她不再持疑了，她那张令人讨厌的完美的脸整个亮了起来，她的眼睛因为兴奋而张得大大的。当然，她低声说，卡莱尔，我们为了贝拉准备了很多O型阴性血，这是个好主意。她补充道，没有看我。
“Hmm.” Carlisle put his hand to his chin, lost in thought. “I wonder… And then, what would be the best way to administer…”
“嗯，”卡莱尔用手撑起下巴，陷入沉思中。“我有点不确定……还有，怎样才能做得最好呢……”
“Oh,” he said in a surprised tone. “You think it is… thirsty?”
“噢，”他用极度惊讶的腔调说道，“你认为它是……渴了？”
“Wait a minute,” I whispered. “Just hold on. Are you — are you talking about making Bella drink blood?”
“等一下，”我低声说，“先停一下。你们……你们是在讨论让贝拉喝血吗？”
“It was your idea, dog,” Rosalie said, scowling at me without ever quite looking at me.
“那是你的想法，狗。”罗莎莉说，怒视着我，那样子就像她曾平静的看过我一样。
I ignored her and watched Carlisle. That same ghost of hope that had been in Edward’s face was now in the doctor’s eyes. He pursed his lips, speculating.
我无视她，转而看向卡莱尔。刚刚还投射在爱德华脸上希望之光现在也出现在了医生的眼中。他扁扁嘴，等待我说下去。
Rosalie shook her head. “We don’t have time to be creative. I’d say we should start with the traditional way.”
罗莎莉摇了摇头。我们没有时间创新了，我不得不说我们得循惯例行事了。
“That’s just…” I couldn’t find the right word.
“那有点……”我找不到合适的词了。
“Monstrous?” Edward suggested. “Repulsive?”
“荒诞？”爱德华给我提了词。“令人讨厌的？”
“I plan to ask her what she thinks. I just wanted to run it past Carlisle first.”
“我打算问问她的想法。只是想跟卡莱尔先沟通一下。”
I shook my head angrily. “What are you gonna do, shove a tube down her throat?”
我不爽地摇摇头。“你们打算怎么干，插一根管子到她喉咙里？”
“Pretty much.”
“非常准确。”
Edward’s mouth mashed into a hard line, and I knew I was right again.
爱德华把嘴唇抿成一条线，我知道我又答对了。
“But what if it helps her?” he whispered.
“但是如果这样做能帮到她呢？”他小声提醒我。
Rosalie nodded. “If you tell her it might help the baby, she’ll be willing to do anything. Even if we do have to feed them through a tube.”
罗莎莉点点头。“如果你告诉她如果这对宝宝有益，她什么事都会愿意去做的。即使我们给她插上管子。”
I realized then — when I heard how her voice got all loveydovey as she said the word baby — that Blondie would be in line with anything that helped the little life-sucking monster. Was that what was going on, the mystery factor that was bonding the two of them? Was Rosalie after the kid?
我明白了——就在她拖着甜得发腻的尾音说出“宝宝”的时候，我就明白了——那个金发的是同吸食生命的魔鬼站在同一阵线的。他们之间是不是有什么不可告人的秘密，是不是罗莎莉想要那个孩子？
From the corner of my eye, I saw Edward nod once, absently, not looking in my direction. But I knew he was answering my questions.
我用眼角的余光看到爱德华点了一下头，虽然没有朝着我的方向，但是我知道他在回答我的问题。
Huh. I wouldn’t have thought the ice-cold Barbie would have a maternal side. So much for protecting Bella — Rosalie’d probably jam the tube down Bella’s throat herself.
哈。那个芭比冰雪皇后还有母性的一面倒是我没有想到的。她那么保护她，极有可能会亲自动手把管子塞到Bella的喉咙里。
Carlisle took a deep breath, and then he was on his feet. “We’ll ask Bella.”
卡莱尔深吸一口气，站了起来。“我们来问问贝拉。”
I dragged myself up from the stairs and followed after them as they disappeared into the house. I wasn’t sure why. Just morbid curiosity, maybe. It was like a horror movie.
我吃力地从地上站起来，尾随着他们进了屋子。我不知道原因，某种病态的好奇心吧。就像恐怖电影里的那样。
“Well, we don’t have time to sit around discussing this,” Rosalie said impatiently. “What do you think, Carlisle? Can we try?”
“好了，我们没时间坐在这里讨论了，”罗莎莉失去了耐心。“你怎么看，卡莱尔？我们可以试一下吗？”
Monsters and blood all over the place.
怪物和血到处都是。
Blondie smiled smugly — sure that, if it was up to Bella, she would get her way.
金发妞儿露出狡猾的笑容——当然，如果让贝拉决定的话，她一定会按她想的那样去做。
The others were at her side already, flitting across the room with sudden darting motions. It was creepy to watch. I ambled along at a slow walk.
其他人都在一瞬间从房间的各个角落聚集到她身边来。这个场面看起来有些毛骨悚然，我下意识地放缓了脚步。
Bella lay flat on the hospital bed, her belly a mountain under the sheet. She looked like wax — colorless and sort of see-through. You’d think she was already dead, except for the tiny movement of her chest, her shallow breathing. And then her eyes, following the four of us with exhausted suspicion.
贝拉平躺在那张病床上，床单下，肚子像山一样高高隆起。她看上去像蜡做的一样——没有血色，还有些半透明。如果不是胸口的微微起伏，你可能认为她早就死了。她疲倦地向我们四个人投来疑惑的目光。
Maybe I just couldn’t resist another hit of my dwindling drug supply.
也许还有另一个我无法抗拒的原因就是那就快消耗完毕的毒品供应。
“What’s going on?” Bella demanded in a scratchy whisper. Her waxy hand twitched up — like she was trying to protect her balloon-shaped stomach.
“出什么事了？”贝拉气若游丝的声音却依然那么坚决。她抬起凝脂般的手，做势要去保护那像气球一样鼓胀的肚子。
Blondie laughed with her.
金发妞和她一起笑起来。
“Jacob had an idea that might help you,” Carlisle said. I wished he would leave me out of it. I hadn’t suggested anything. Give the credit to her bloodsucking husband, where it belonged. “It won’t be… pleasant, but –“
“雅各布有个好主意，可能对你有帮助，”卡莱尔说。可我真希望他不要这个时候把我给抬出来，我什么都没建议过。把信任都给她那吸血鬼丈夫好了，他可以的。“这不是件愉快的事情，但是——”
“But it will help the baby,” Rosalie interrupted eagerly. “We’ve thought of a better way to feed him. Maybe.”
“但是这会帮助宝宝，”罗莎莉迫不及待地接过了话题。“我们想到了一个更好的方法来喂饱他，也许。”
Bella’s eyelids fluttered. Then she coughed out a weak chuckle. “Not pleasant?” she whispered. “Gosh, that’ll be such a change.” She eyed the tube stuck into her arm and coughed again.
贝拉心绪不宁地翻翻眼珠。轻咳了一声。“不愉快？”她用微弱的气息说到。“天哪，那还真是个大改变啊。”她目光看向了那些埋进她手臂的管子，又咳嗽了起来。
The girl looked like she only had hours left, and she had to be in pain, but she was making jokes. So Bella.
这个女孩看起来好像只有几小时的生命了，明明那么痛苦，却还有力气开玩笑。不愧是贝拉啊。
Trying to ease the tension, make it better for everyone else.
试图缓和气氛，让每个人都感觉轻松些。
Edward stepped around Rosalie, no humor touching his intense expression. I was glad for that. It helped, just a little bit, that he was suffering worse than me. He took her hand, not the one that was still protecting her swollen belly.
爱德华在罗莎莉周围踱来踱去，紧张得表情里看不到一丝幽默。我很高兴看到他那样。虽然只有一点点，但这多少让我觉得他比我经受了更多的折磨。他握住她的手，另一只没有护在肚子上的手。
She took a shallow, fluttery breath. “How bad?”
她的呼吸变得浅而急促起来。“有多糟？”
She blinked. “Oh. Oh.”
她眨眨眼睛，“噢，噢。”
Well, at least he was giving it to her straight.
很好，起码他很直接地就告诉了她。
“Bella, love, we’re going to ask you to do something monstrous,” he said, using the same adjectives he’d offered me. “Repulsive.”
“贝拉，我的爱人，我们可能会让你做一件听起来很荒诞的事情。”他用了当时那个对我说的形容词。“令人厌恶的。”
Carlisle answered. “We think the fetus might have an appetite closer to ours than to yours. We think it’s thirsty.”
卡莱尔回答了这个问题。“我们认为这个胎儿的胃口更接近我们的而不是你的。我们认为它是渴了。”
“I’ve got to drink it,” she whispered. She nodded slightly — barely enough energy for a little head bob. “I can do that. Practice for the future, right?” Her colorless lips stretched into a faint grin as she looked at Edward. He didn’t smile back.
“我可以喝下去的，”她轻声说到。她的力气只够微微颌首的。“我可以做到的。为将来做准备，对吗？”在她看着爱德华说话时，毫无血色的嘴唇无力地扯出一条向上的弧线。他可没心情用笑容回应。
“Your condition — both of your conditions — are deteriorating rapidly. We don’t have time to waste, to come up with more palatable ways to do this. The fastest way to test the theory –“
“你的病情，你们两个人的身体状况，在急转直下。我们没时间浪费了，与其想些更容易入口的方式，最快速的实践方法就是——”
“So, who’s going to catch me a grizzly bear?” Bella whispered.
“所以，谁来抓一头灰熊给我？”贝拉小声说。
Rosalie started tapping her toe impatiently. The sound was really irritating. I wondered what she would do if I threw her through a wall right now.
爱德华开始不耐烦地跺着脚。这声音听起来就让人恼火。如果现在我把她扔出墙去，不知道她会做何反应。
“What?” Bella asked.
“什么？”贝拉问。
“It will be a more effective test if we don’t cut corners, Bella,” Carlisle said.
“有时候走捷径也不一定会更有效，贝拉，”卡莱尔还在劝她。
“If the fetus is craving blood,” Edward explained, “it’s not craving animal blood.”
“如果胎儿渴望鲜血，”爱德华解释说，“它渴望的一定不是动物的血。”
Carlisle and Edward exchanged a quick glance. Rosalie stopped tapping.
卡莱尔和爱德华迅速交换了一个眼神。罗莎莉也停止了跺脚。
“It won’t make a difference to you, Bella. Don’t think about it,” Rosalie encouraged.
“这对你来说没有分别，贝拉。别想太多了。”罗莎莉继续鼓励她。
Bella’s eyes widened. “Who?” she breathed, and her gaze flickered to me.
贝拉睁大了眼睛。“那是谁的？”她喘着气，飘忽的目光落到了我的身上。
Bella’s hand ran across her stomach.
贝拉抚摸着她的肚子。
“We have blood on hand,” Rosalie told her, talking over me before I’d finished, like I wasn’t there. “For you — just in case. Don’t worry about anything at all. It’s going to be fine. I have a good feeling about this, Bella. I think the baby will be so much better.”
“我们手上有现成的血，”罗莎莉就越过我跟她说，把我当成不存在的。“那是为你准备的——以备不时之需。什么也不需要担心。一切都会好起来的。我总有个不错的感觉，Bella。我认为宝宝会好起来的。”
“Well,” she rasped, barely audible. “I’m starving, so I’ll bet he is, too.” Trying to make another joke. “Let’s go for it. My first vampire act.”
“好了，”她提高了声音宣布，但是仍然轻得几乎听不到。“我也饿了，所以打赌他也一样。”接着又试图幽默了一把。“让我们开始吧，我的吸血鬼处女秀。”
“I’m not here as a donor, Bells,” I grumbled. “‘Sides, it’s human blood that thing’s after, and I don’t think mine applies –“
“我可不是到这里来当个捐献者的，贝拉，”我诺诺的说。“况且，那玩意儿渴求的是人类的血，我不认为我的合适——”
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