In the town of Savathi, every child knew the name of the exalted Buddha, and every house was prepared to fill the alms-dish of Gotama’s disciples, the silently begging ones. Near the town was Gotama’s favourite place to stay, the grove of Jetavana, which the rich merchant Anathapindika, an obedient worshipper of the exalted one, had given him and his people for a gift.
在萨瓦梯城，每一个孩子都知道活佛戈塔马的名字，家家户户都随时准备接待戈塔马的弟子，那些默默无语的化缘者，给他们的饭碗装满食物。戈塔马最喜欢住的地方离城不远，叫耶塔瓦纳林苑，富商阿纳塔品迪卡是活佛的一个忠实崇拜者，那是他送给活佛及其门徒的礼物。
“We would like to know, oh charitable one, where the Buddha dwells, the most venerable one, for we are two Samanas from the forest and have come, to see him, the perfected one, and to hear the teachings from his mouth.”
“谢谢你，你真好心。我们很想知道活佛住在哪儿，因为我们是两个来自森林的沙门，想来见他，听他亲口讲经。”
All tales and answers, which the two young ascetics had received in their search for Gotama’s abode, had pointed them towards this area. And arriving at Savathi, in the very first house, before the door of which they stopped to beg, food has been offered to them, and they accepted the food, and Siddhartha asked the woman, who handed them the food:
两年年轻的苦行僧寻找戈塔马的住处，按照别人介绍与回答的指引来到了这个地区。他们到达萨瓦梯之后，在第一家屋门前就停 下来化缘，受一顿款待。他们收下了食物，席特哈尔塔向那个给他们食物的女人：
Quoth the woman: “Here, you have truly come to the right place, you Samanas from the forest. You should know, in Jetavana, in the garden of Anathapindika is where the exalted one dwells. There you pilgrims shall spent the night, for there is enough space for the innumerable, who flock here, to hear the teachings from his mouth.”
那女人说：“来自森林的沙门啊，你们到这儿来算是找对了地方。活佛就住在耶塔瓦纳，住在阿纳塔品迪卡的林苑里。你们这两位朝拜者可以去那儿过夜，因为那里有足够的地方接待大批前来听他讲经的人。”
This made Govinda happy, and full of joy he exclaimed: “Well so, thus we have reached our destination, and our path has come to an end! But tell us, oh mother of the pilgrims, do you know him, the Buddha, have you seen him with your own eyes?”
戈文达很高兴，满怀喜悦地叫道：“真好啊，我们到达了目的地，总算是走到头了！可是，朝拜者的大娘啊，请告诉我们，你认识活佛吗？你亲眼见过他吗？”
Quoth the woman: “Many times I have seen him, the exalted one. On many days, I have seen him, walking through the alleys in silence, wearing his yellow cloak, presenting his alms-dish in silence at the doors of the houses, leaving with a filled dish.”
那女人说：“我见过他好多次。在好多日子里都见到他，目睹他穿着黄僧衣默默地穿街过巷，默默地停在各家各户门前，递上他的碗，又拿着盛满食物的碗离去。”
Delightedly, Govinda listened and wanted to ask and hear much more. But Siddhartha urged him to walk on. They thanked and left and hardly had to ask for directions, for rather many pilgrims and monks as well from Gotama’s community were on their way to the Jetavana. And since they reached it at night, there were constant arrivals, shouts, and talk of those who sought shelter and got it. The two Samanas, accustomed to life in the forest, found quickly and without making any noise a place to stay and rested there until the morning.
戈文达听得入迷，还想再打听许多情况，可是，席特哈尔塔却提醒他继续前行。他们道过谢就走了，几乎用不着再问路，因为有不少朝拜者和戈塔马的弟子都在前往耶塔瓦纳的路上。他们晚上到了那儿，见到不断有一批批找住处的人到达，发出叫嚎声和讲话声。这两个过惯了森林生活的沙门很快就不声不响地找到了栖身之处，一觉睡到了第二天早上。
Siddhartha saw him, and he instantly recognised him, as if a god had pointed him out to him. He saw him, a simple man in a yellow robe, bearing the alms-dish in his hand, walking silently.
席特哈尔塔看见了活佛，马上就认出了他，就好像有神灵指点似的。他注视着活佛，一个身穿黄僧衣的朴实无华的人，手里端着化缘碗，静静地走了过去。
“Look here!” Siddhartha said quietly to Govinda. “This one is the Buddha.”
“快看这边！”席特哈尔塔小声招呼戈文达，“这个人就是活佛。”
At sunrise, they saw with astonishment what a large crowd of believers and curious people had spent the night here. On all paths of the marvellous grove, monks walked in yellow robes, under the trees they sat here and there, in deep contemplation-or in a conversation about spiritual matters, the shady gardens looked like a city, full of people, bustling like bees. The majority of the monks went out with their alms-dish, to collect food in town for their lunch, the only meal of the day. The Buddha himself, the enlightened one, was also in the habit of taking this walk to beg in the morning.
到太阳升起时他们才惊奇地发现，在此地过夜的信徒和好奇者竟是好大一群人！在这座美丽林苑的所有小径上，都有穿着黄僧衣的和尚走来走去。他们东一群西一伙地坐在树下潜心修行，或是进行宗教讨论。那些浓荫覆盖的花园看上去就像是一个城市，挤满了像蜜蜂一样麇集的人们。大多数和尚正拿着化缘碗往外走，去城里募集他们每天只吃一顿的午餐。就连活佛本人也通常是早上出去化缘。
Attentively, Govinda looked at the monk in the yellow robe, who seemed to be in no way different from the hundreds of other monks. And soon, Govinda also realized: This is the one. And they followed him and observed him.
戈文达仔细打量这个身穿黄僧衣的和尚，觉得他似乎跟其他千百个和尚毫无区别。但是，戈文达很快也认出来了：此人正是活佛。于是，他们便跟随在他身后，边走边仔细地观察他。
The Buddha went on his way, modestly and deep in his thoughts, his calm face was neither happy nor sad, it seemed to smile quietly and inwardly. With a hidden smile, quiet, calm, somewhat resembling a healthy child, the Buddha walked, wore the robe and placed his feet just as all of his monks did, according to a precise rule. But his face and his walk, his quietly lowered glance, his quietly dangling hand and even every finger of his quietly dangling hand expressed peace, expressed perfection, did not search, did not imitate, breathed softly in an unwhithering calm, in an unwhithering light, an untouchable peace.
活佛谦逊地走着自己的路，陷于沉思之中，他那平静的面容既不快活也不悲伤，似乎在向他们微笑。活佛面带隐隐的笑容，平静、安详，就像一个健康的孩子，从容步行，穿着僧衣，步子和追随他的所有和尚同样，遵循着严格的规矩。他的面容和步子，他的静垂的目光，他的静垂的双手，以及手上的每一根指头，都显示出安宁，显示出完美。他并不追求什么，也不摹仿什么，而是柔和地呼吸，处于一种不容破坏的安宁之中，一种不会衰败的光线之中，一种不容侵害的和平之中。
Thus Gotama walked towards the town, to collect alms, and the two Samanas recognised him solely by the perfection of his calm, by the quietness of his appearance, in which there was no searching, no desire, no imitation, no effort to be seen, only light and peace.
戈塔马就这样朝城里走去，去化缘。这两个沙门单从他那安宁的完美、仪态的觉静就认出了他，那仪态没有追求，没有欲望，没有摹仿，没有烦劳，只有光明与和平。
“Today, we’ll hear the teachings from his mouth.” said Govinda.
“咱们今天可以听他亲口讲经了。”戈文达说。
Siddhartha did not answer. He felt little curiosity for the teachings, he did not believe that they would teach him anything new, but he had, just as Govinda had, heard the contents of this Buddha’s teachings again and again, though these reports only represented second — or third-hand information. But attentively he looked at Gotama’s head, his shoulders, his feet, his quietly dangling hand, and it seemed to him as if every joint of every finger of this hand was of these teachings, spoke of, breathed of, exhaled the fragrant of, glistened of truth. This man, this Buddha was truthful down to the gesture of his last finger. This man was holy. Never before, Siddhartha had venerated a person so much, never before he had loved a person as much as this one.
席特哈尔塔没答话。他对讲经并不怎么好奇，不相信讲经能教给他新东西。他和戈文达一样，早就多次听说过这位活佛讲经的内容，尽管那都是来自第二手和第三手的报告。他聚精会神地凝视着戈塔马的头、他的肩、他的脚以及他的肃然垂放的手，觉得这只手每根手指的每个关节都有学问，都会说话、呼吸和散发出芳香，都闪耀着趔的光辉。这个人，这位活佛，全身上下直至小手指的姿态都是诚挚的。这个人是圣洁的。席特哈尔塔对他比对任何都尊敬，对他比对任何人都热爱。
But in the evening, when the heat cooled down and everyone in the camp started to bustle about and gathered around, they heard the Buddha teaching. They heard his voice, and it was also perfected, was of perfect calmness, was full of peace. Gotama taught the teachings of suffering, of the origin of suffering, of the way to relieve suffering. Calmly and clearly his quiet speech flowed on. Suffering was life, full of suffering was the world, but salvation from suffering had been found: salvation was obtained by him who would walk the path of the Buddha. With a soft, yet firm voice the exalted one spoke, taught the four main doctrines, taught the eightfold path, patiently he went the usual path of the teachings, of the examples, of the repetitions, brightly and quietly his voice hovered over the listeners, like a light, like a starry sky.
晚上，当炎热已经消退时，林苑里到处都活跃起来，大家聚集到一起听活佛讲经。他们听着活佛的声音，那声音十分完美，显示出完美的平静，充满着和平。戈塔马讲有关烦恼的学问，讲烦恼的起源，讲消除烦恼的途径。他的深沉的演讲平和流畅，清晰明朗。生活就是烦恼，世界充满了烦恼，但是可以找到摆脱烦恼的方法：谁走活佛的路，谁就能得到解脱。
They both followed the Buddha until they reached the town and then returned in silence, for they themselves intended to abstain from on this day. They saw Gotama returning-what he ate could not even have satisfied a bird’s appetite, and they saw him retiring into the shade of the mango-trees.
两个人跟着活佛走到城边，就默默地返回了，因为他们打算这一天戒食。后来，他们看见戈塔马回来，看见他在弟子们围坐的贺圈中用餐 他吃的东西简直连一只鸟儿都喂不饱 他们看见他又回到了芒果树的浓荫下。
Behold, then Govinda, the shy one, also stepped forward and spoke: “I also take my refuge in the exalted one and his teachings,” and he asked to accepted into the community ofhis disciples and was accepted.
瞧，腼腆的戈文达这时也走上去说：“我也愿意信奉您和您的学说。”戈文达请求成为活佛的弟子，结果也被接纳了。
Right afterwards, when the Buddha had retired for the night, Govinda turned to Siddhartha and spoke eagerly: “Siddhartha, it is not my place to scold you. We have both heard theexalted one, be have both perceived the teachings. Govinda has heard the teachings, he has taken refuge in it. But you, my honoured friend, don’t you also want to walk the pathof salvation? Would you want to hesitate, do you want to wait any longer?”
接着，活佛退下去就寝，戈文达转向席特哈尔塔，热诚地说道：“席特哈尔塔，我没有权利责怪你。可是，咱们俩都听了活佛讲经，都听了他的教诲。戈文达听了教诲后已经信奉了活佛。可是你呢，我尊敬的人，难道你就不想走这条获救之路？难道你还犹豫，还要等待？”
When the Buddha-night had already fallen-ended his speech, many a pilgrim stepped forward and asked to accepted into the community, sought refuge in the teachings. And Gotama accepted them by speaking: “You have heard the teachings well, it has come to you well. Thus join us and walk in holiness, to put an end to all suffering.”
活佛用柔和而又坚定的声音讲述着，讲授了四项主要原理，讲授了八条途径。他耐心地遵循讲道理、举例并重复的惯常方式，他的声音在听众头顶上洪亮而又平静地回响，好似一道光，好似一片星空。活佛结束讲经时已经夜深了，几个朝拜者走上前去，请求加入这个集体，愿意皈依活佛。戈塔马接纳了他们，说道：“你们都认真地听了我讲经，已经有所收获，那就加入进来吧，进入圣洁之中，彻底结束一切烦恼吧。”
Siddhartha awakened as if he had been asleep, when he heard Govinda’s words. For a long tome, he looked into Govinda’s face. Then he spoke quietly, in a voice without mockery:”Govinda, my friend, now you have taken this step, now you have chosen this path. Always, oh Govinda, you’ve been my friend, you’ve always walked one step behind me. Often Ihave thought: Won’t Govinda for once also take a step by himself, without me, out of his own soul? Behold, now you’ve turned into a man and are choosing your path for yourself. I wish that you would go it up to its end, oh my friend, that you shall find salvation!”
席特哈尔塔听了戈文达的话如梦方醒。他久久地凝视戈文达的脸，然后低声说道，语气中毫无讽刺的意味：“戈文达，我的朋友，现在你迈出了第一步，你选择了这条路。哦，戈文达，你向来都是我的朋友，一直是紧跟着我。我常想：没有我，戈文达会不会有一天也出于自己的意愿而单独迈出一步呢？瞧，现在你成了男子汉，自己选择了自己的道路。但愿你能把这条路走到底，哦，我的朋友！但愿你能获救！”
Siddhartha placed his hand on Govinda’s shoulder: “You failed to hear my good wish for you, oh Govinda. I’m repeating it: I wish that you would go this path up to its end, thatyou shall find salvation!”
席特哈尔塔把手放在戈文达户上说：“你没听清我的祝愿，戈文达。我再重复一遍，但愿你能把这条路走到底！但愿你获救！”
Govinda, not completely understanding it yet, repeated his question in an impatient tone: “Speak up, I beg you, my dear! Tell me, since it could not be any other way, that youalso, my learned friend, will take your refuge with the exalted Buddha!”
戈文达没有完全听明白，于是又用不耐烦的口气重复了他的提问：“你倒是说呀，我求求你，亲爱的朋友！告诉我，怎么就不能是另一种样子，你，我的博学的朋友，也信奉这位可敬的活佛呢？”
In this moment, Govinda realized that his friend had left him, and he started to weep.
这是戈文达才明白，他的朋友要离开他了，便哭起来。
“Siddhartha!” he exclaimed lamentingly.
“席特哈尔塔！”他抱怨地喊道。
Siddhartha kindly spoke to him: “Don’t forget, Govinda, that you are now one of the Samanas of the Buddha! You have renounced your home and your parents, renounced your birthand possessions, renounced your free will, renounced all friendship. This is what the teachings require, this is what the exalted one wants. This is what you wanted foryourself. Tomorrow, oh Govinda, I’ll leave you.”
席特哈尔塔温和地说：“别忘了，戈文达，你现在已经是皈依佛祖的沙门了！你抛弃了故乡和父母，抛弃了出身和财产，抛弃了自己的意志，抛弃了友情。信仰要求这样，活佛要求这样，你自己也愿意这样。明天，哦，戈文达，我就要离开你了。”
For a long time, the friends continued walking in the grove; for a long time, they lay there and found no sleep. And over and over again, Govinda urged his friend, he shouldtell him why he would not want to seek refuge in Gotama’s teachings, what fault he would find in these teachings. But Siddhartha turned him away every time and said: “Becontent, Govinda! Very good are the teachings of the exalted one, how could I find a fault in them?”
这两个朋友又在小树林里溜达了很久，躺下之后也仍然久久未能入眠。戈文达再三追问他的朋友，要他说清楚为什么不愿信奉戈塔马的学说，他在这一学说中到底发现了什么缺陷。但是，席特哈尔塔每次都回答说：“算了吧，戈文达！活佛的教诲出类拔萃，我怎么能发现缺陷呢！”
But Siddhartha walked through the grove, lost in thought.
席特哈尔塔却沉思着漫步走出了林苑。
Very early in the morning, a follower of Buddha, one of his oldest monks, went through the garden and called all those to him who had as novices taken their refuge in theteachings, to dress them up in the yellow robe and to instruct them in the first teachings and duties of their position. Then Govinda broke loose, embraced once again hischildhood friend and left with the novices.
第二天清早，活佛的一个弟子，一个年长的和尚，跑遍了林苑各处，把所有新皈依的门徒都叫到他身边，让他们穿上黄僧衣，并且给他们讲解初步的知识，以及与他们的身份相应的职责。戈文达这时又跑回来，再一次拥抱了自己的好友，然后便加入了新和尚的行列。
Then he happened to meet Gotama, the exalted one, and when he greeted him with respect and the Buddha’s glance was so full of kindness and calm, the young man summoned hiscourage and asked the venerable one for the permission to talk to him. Silently the exalted one nodded his approval.
这时，戈塔马刚巧跟他迎面相遇。他满怀敬畏地向活佛问好，见活佛的目光满含仁慈与安详，就鼓起勇气请求活佛跟他谈一谈。活佛默默地点头同意了。
Quoth Siddhartha: “Yesterday, oh exalted one, I had been privileged to hear your wondrous teachings. Together with my friend, I had come from afar, to hear your teachings. Andnow my friend is going to stay with your people, he has taken his refuge with you. But I will again start on my pilgrimage.”
席特哈尔塔说：“活佛，昨天我有幸听了你奇妙的讲演。我和我的朋友从远方赶来，就是要来听你讲经的。如今我的朋友已留在了你身边，皈依了你，而我却要重新开始我的旅程了。”
“Too bold is my speech,” Siddhartha continued, “but I do not want to leave the exalted one without having honestly told him my thoughts. Does it please the venerable one tolisten to me for one moment longer?”
“我的话也许太狂妄，”席特哈尔塔继续说道，“但是，在把我的想法坦诚地告诉活佛之前，我不想离开。活佛，你能不能再劳神听我讲一会儿呢？”
“As you please,” the venerable one spoke politely.
“随你便啊。”活佛彬彬有礼地说。
Silently, the Buddha nodded his approval.
活佛默默地点头同意了。
Quoth Siddhartha: “One thing, oh most venerable one, I have admired in your teachings most of all. Everything in your teachings is perfectly clear, is proven; you are presentingthe world as a perfect chain, a chain which is never and nowhere broken, an eternal chain the links of which are causes and effects. Never before, this has been seen so clearly; never before, this has been presented so irrefutably; truly, the heart of every Brahman has to beat stronger with love, once he has seen the world through your teachingsperfectly connected, without gaps, clear as a crystal, not depending on chance, not depending on gods. Whether it may be good or bad, whether living according to it would besuffering or joy, I do not wish to discuss, possibly this is not essential-but the uniformity of the world, that everything which happens is connected, that the great and thesmall things are all encompassed by the same forces of time, by the same law of causes, of coming into being and of dying, this is what shines brightly out of your exaltedteachings, oh perfected one. But according to your very own teachings, this unity and necessary sequence of all things is nevertheless broken in one place, through a small gap, this world of unity is invaded by something alien, something new, something which had not been there before, and which cannot be demonstrated and cannot be proven: these areyour teachings of overcoming the world, of salvation. But with this small gap, with this small breach, the entire eternal and uniform law of the world is breaking apart againand becomes void. Please forgive me for expressing this objection.”
席特哈尔塔说：“最最可敬的活佛呀，你的教诲有一点我最钦佩。你所讲的一切都十分清楚，确凿无疑，你把世界当作一圈完美无缺的、永远不会断裂的链子展示给大家，一圈由原因和结果连接而成的永恒的链子。从来没有谁阐释得这么清楚，这么无可辩驳。婆罗门听了你的教诲，把世界看成完美的关联体，没有缺陷，透明得像一块水晶，不依赖于偶然，不从属于神灵，他的心会在身体内跳动得更加实在。这个世界到底是好还是坏，尘世的生活到底是烦恼还是欢乐，这很可能还是悬而未决的，也可能是并不重要的——但是，这个世界的和谐统一，一切事物的相互关联，大大小小的事物都包含在同一潮流之中，都遵循着产生、发展和死亡的同一规律，这些都已经被你的伟大教诲阐明了，活佛。不过，按照你的教诲，万物的这种统一性和连贯性却在一个地方断开了，某种陌生的东西，某种新的东西，某种以前没有的、不能显示和不能证明的东西，通过这个小缝涌入了这个统一的世界。那就是你的关于超越尘世、获得拯救的教诲。由于这个小缝，由于这个小小的断裂，整个永恒和统一的世界法则又破裂和解体了。活佛，但愿你能原谅我冒昧地讲出这番不同的意见。”
“I wish that you, oh exalted one, would not be angry with me,” said the young man. “I have not spoken to you like this to argue with you, to argue about words. You are trulyright, there is little to opinions. But let me say this one more thing: I have not doubted in you for a single moment. I have not doubted for a single moment that you areBuddha, that you have reached the goal, the highest goal towards which so many thousands of Brahmans and sons of Brahmans are on their way. You have found salvation from death. It has come to you in the course of your own search, on your own path, through thoughts, through meditation, through realizations, through enlightenment. It has not come to youby means of teachings! And-thus is my thought, oh exalted one, — nobody will obtain salvation by means of teachings! You will not be able to convey and say to anybody, ohvenerable one, in words and through teachings what has happened to you in the hour of enlightenment! The teachings of the enlightened Buddha contain much, it teaches many tolive righteously, to avoid evil. But there is one thing which these so clear, these so venerable teachings do not contain: they do not contain the mystery of what the exaltedone has experienced for himself, he alone among hundreds of thousands. This is what I have thought and realized, when I have heard the teachings. This is why I am continuing mytravels-not to seek other, better teachings, for I know there are none, but to depart from all teachings and all teachers and to reach my goal by myself or to die. But often, I’ll think of this day, oh exalted one, and of this hour, when my eyes beheld a holy man.”
“噢，活佛，但愿你别生我的气。”年轻人说，“我刚才那么，不是要跟你争论，进行无谓的言词之争。你讲的确实有道理，问题并不在于有各种各样的意见。不过，请让我再说明这一点：我从来就没怀疑过你。我没有怀疑过你是活佛，你达到了目的，那个成千上万婆罗让和婆罗门子弟正在追求的最高目的。你已经摆脱了死亡。这是由于你自己的探索，按照你自己的途径，通过思索，通过潜修，通过认识，通过领悟，然后才获得的，而不是通过讲经达到的！哦，活佛，这就是我的想法——没有谁能通过讲经获得解脱！哦，尊敬的活佛，你无法用话语和讲经来告诉别人，在你大彻大悟的时候发生了什么！大彻大悟的活佛的教诲包含着许多内容，它教会人们正直地生活，不去做坏事。但是，有一点却没有包含在如此清楚、如此可敬的讲经之中：它没有包含活佛本人亲身经历的秘密，在千千万万人当中他一个人经历的秘密。这就是我在听你讲经时想到和认识一牟。这就是我要继续去漫游的原因 倒不是为了去寻求另一种更好的学说，因为我知道并没有那样的学说，而是为了抛开一种学说和老师，独自去实现我的目标，或是死去。但我会常常想到这一天，活佛，想到这一时刻，因为我亲眼见到了一位圣贤。”
Quietly, Gotama had listened to him, unmoved. Now he spoke, the perfected one, with his kind, with his polite and clear voice: “You’ve heard the teachings, oh son of a Brahman, and good for you that you’ve thought about it thus deeply. You’ve found a gap in it, an error. You should think about this further. But be warned, oh seeker of knowledge, of thethicket of opinions and of arguing about words. There is nothing to opinions, they may be beautiful or ugly, smart or foolish, everyone can support them or discard them. But theteachings, you’ve heard from me, are no opinion, and their goal is not to explain the world to those who seek knowledge. They have a different goal; their goal is salvation fromsuffering. This is what Gotama teaches, nothing else.”
戈塔马静静地听他说，一动不动，然后，活佛用他那仁慈、礼貌而又清晰的声音说道：“哦，婆罗门之子，难得你听了我讲经之后作出这么深入的思考。你从中发现了一道裂缝，一个缺陷。但愿你能对此继续思考。可是，好学的人，你要警惕众说纷纭和无谓的争论。问题并不在于有各种各样的意见，它们可以是美的或丑的，可是聪明的或愚蠢的，每个人都可以拥护或抵制它们。你从我这儿听到的道理并不是我的意见，其目的也不是给好学的人解释这个世界。它的目的是另外的东西，是为了摆脱痛苦。这就是戈塔马所讲的内容，岂有它哉！”
“I wish,” the venerable one spoke slowly, “that your thoughts shall not be in error, that you shall reach the goal! But tell me: Have you seen the multitude of my Samanas, mymany brothers, who have taken refuge in the teachings? And do you believe, oh stranger, oh Samana, do you believe that it would be better for them all the abandon the teachingsand to return into the life the world and of desires?”
活佛慢悠悠地说：“但愿你的想法并无差讹，但愿你能达到目的！可是请告诉我，你是否见到了我那一大群信徒，我那许多兄弟，而他们已信奉了我的学说？素不相识的沙门呀，你是否相信抛开学说，回到世俗生活和情欲生活中去，对他们所有人会更好一些？”
“Far is such a thought from my mind,” exclaimed Siddhartha. “I wish that they shall all stay with the teachings, that they shall reach their goal! It is not my place to judgeanother person’s life. Only for myself, for myself alone, I must decide, I must chose, I must refuse. Salvation from the self is what we Samanas search for, oh exalted one. If Imerely were one of your disciples, oh venerable one, I’d fear that it might happen to me that only seemingly, only deceptively my self would be calm and be redeemed, but that intruth it would live on and grow, for then I had replaced my self with the teachings, my duty to follow you, my love for you, and the community of the monks!”
“这样一种想法离我太远了！”席特哈尔塔叫道，“但愿他们全都信奉你的学说，但愿他们都达到自己的目标！我可没有权利对别人的生活作出评判！我仅仅需要对我，对我自己一个人作出判断。我必须选择，我必须取舍。我们沙门寻求自我解脱，活佛。假如我是你的一名弟子，可敬的活佛，那么，我会担心发生这样的情况：我的自我只是表面上虚假地得到安宁的解脱，实际上它却继续存在并且变大，因为那样我就会有学说，有追随者，有我对你的爱，使僧侣集体成为我的自我！”
The Buddha’s eyes quietly looked to the ground; quietly, in perfect equanimity his inscrutable face was smiling.
活佛的眼睛平静地注视着地面，他那玄妙莫测的面孔显现出完美无瑕的恬静。
“You are wise, oh Samana.”, the venerable one spoke.”You know how to talk wisely, my friend. Be aware of too much wisdom!”
“你很聪明，沙门。”活佛说，“你讲话很聪明，我的朋友，只是要当心千万别聪明得过了头！”
With half of a smile, with an unwavering openness and kindness, Gotama looked into the stranger’s eyes and bid him to leave with a hardly noticeable gesture.
戈塔马似笑非笑，怀着不可动摇的清醒和友好注视着这个陌生人的眼睛，然后做了个几乎看不出来的手势，向他告别。
I have never before seen a person glance and smile, sit and walk this way, he thought; truly, I wish to be able to glance and smile, sit and walk this way, too, thus free, thusvenerable, thus concealed, thus open, thus child-like and mysterious. Truly, only a person who has succeeded in reaching the innermost part of his self would glance and walkthis way. Well so, I also will seek to reach the innermost part of my self.
他想，我还从来没见到过有谁能这样看人和微笑，这样端坐和走路呢。我真希望自己也能这样看人和微笑，这样端坐和走路，这样自由自在，这样肃然可敬，这样深沉，这样坦诚，这样单纯又充满神秘。只有进入了自我深处的人，才真正能这样看人和走路。好吧，我也要设法进入自我的内心最深征！
The Buddha turned away, and his glance and half of a smile remained forever etched in Siddhartha’s memory.
活佛走了，他的目光和似笑非笑的表情却永远刻在了席特哈尔塔特哈尔塔的记忆中。
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