“Quite well for a newborn. The only parents in the world who don’t need sleep, and our child already sleeps through the night.” He chuckled.
“对于婴儿来说睡得相当沉。我想我们是世界上唯一一个爸妈不用睡觉，而孩子却一觉睡到天亮的家庭了。”他自嘲道。
I felt a sharp pang of jealousy over this stranger. He knew her and I did not. It wasn’t fair.
因为这小小的陌生人，我第一次对爱德华产生嫉妒的感觉。他了解她，但我却不。这不公平。
I liked the way he said our child. The words made her more real.
我喜欢他说起我们的宝宝，这些描述让她变得真实多了。
“She has exactly your color eyes — so that didn’t get lost, after all.” He smiled at me. “They’re so beautiful.”
“她眼睛的颜色跟你一模一样——不管怎么说，至少这个遗传下来了。”他冲我笑着：“非常漂亮的眼睛。”
“Yes. She has a heartbeat, though it runs a little bit faster than a human’s. Her temperature is a little bit hotter than usual, too. She sleeps.”
“是的，她有心跳，不过比平常人要快一些，而且体温也要高一些。还有，她会睡觉的。”
“Really?”
“真的吗？”
“How much is she like you? How much like me? Or like I was, anyway.”
“她长得很像你吗？那又有多像我？或者是以前的我，随便啦。”
“She was warm-blooded,” I remembered.
“她的血是热的，”我记起来。
“She’s like nothing else in the world,” he told me, and the sound of an almost religious devotion was there again in his voice.
“她是世界上最独一无二的，”他告诉我，声音里再次充满信徒般虔诚的热爱。
“It seems a fairly even divide.”
“一半一半吧，很公平。”
Thinking of Renesmee brought her to that center-stage place in my strange, new, and roomy but distractible mind. So many questions.
想到蕾妮斯梅，她似乎站在我那奇怪的、全新的而且容易分心的思想舞台的中心。我有那么多的问题想问。
“Tell me about her,” I insisted as he took my hand. Being linked barely slowed us.
“跟我说说它，”我坚持道，看着他他拉起我的手。牵着手走路对我们的速度没什么影响。
“Doesn’t. Speak. Yet.”
“还不会说话。”
“She’s intelligent, shockingly so, and progressing at an immense pace. Though she doesn’t speak — yet — she communicates quite effectively.”
“嗯，她很聪明，惊讶吧。长得特别快，虽然她还不会说话——但她跟我们交流却毫无问题，很有效率。”
“Of course no one would,” he assured me again. “Her diet… well, she prefers to drink blood. Carlisle continues to try to persuade her to drink some baby formula, too, but she doesn’t have much patience with it. Can’t say that I blame her — nasty-smelling stuff, even for human food.”
“当然也没有人对这么做，”他向我保证着：“她的食谱……怎么说呢，她喜欢喝血。但卡莱尔总是想劝她喝点平常的婴儿饮品，不过她对这个没什么耐心。不能怪我不教她——那东西又恶心又臭，即使是在人类的事物里面来算。”
“I think it will be easier for you to… see for yourself. It’s rather difficult to describe.”
“我想你最好……亲眼看看，这很难描述。”
“Her skin seems about as impenetrable as ours. Not that anyone would dream of testing that.”
“她的皮肤跟我们一样无法穿透，肯定没有哪个人想去测试一下。”
“What do you mean, she communicates effectively?” I demanded.
“这是什么意思，有效率的沟通？”我想要知道。
“And the vampire parts?” I asked.
“那吸血鬼的那部份呢？”我问。
I gaped openly at him now. He made it sound like they were having conversations. “Persuade her?”
我吃惊的张大着嘴看着他，怎么听着像他们之间有过谈话一样，“劝她？”
He slowed our pace further, letting me absorb this.
他放慢脚步，让我有更多的时间接受这个事实。
I blinked at him, a little shocked.
我对他眨眨眼，有点惊奇。
I considered that. I knew there was a lot that I needed to see for myself before it would be real. I wasn’t sure how much more I was ready for, so I changed the subject.
我思索着，知道要想确认她是的存在，就有很多东西需要我亲眼去看看。我不知道还有没有更让我吃惊的事等着我，所以就换了个话题。
“Why is Jacob still here?” I asked. “How can he stand it? Why should he?” My ringing voice trembled a little. “Why should he have to suffer more?”
“为什么雅各布还在这里？”我问：“他怎么可能忍受这一切？他怎么做到的？”我铃铛般的声音微微颤抖着，“为什么他还要忍受这一切？！”
“Jacob isn’t suffering,” he said in a strange new tone. “Though I might be willing to change his condition,” Edward added through his teeth.
“不，雅各布并没有忍受什么，”他语气古怪的说：“我倒是很想改变他现在的情况。”爱德华咬牙切齿的加了一句。
“Edward!” I hissed, yanking him to a stop (and feeling a little thrill of smugness that I was able to do it).
“爱德华！”我嘘了他一句，拽着他停下来（做到这个让我有那么点得意洋洋）。
“Explain what?”
“解释什么？”
“You’ll see exactly how I can say that,” Edward muttered. “I promised him that I would let him explain, but I doubt you’ll see it much differently than I do. Of course, I’m often wrong about your thoughts, aren’t I?” He pursed his lips and eyed me.
“你待会就知道我为什么要这么说了，”爱德华带点神秘的抱怨着：“我答应过他让他自己来解释的，但我很怀疑你的反应跟我会完全不一样。要知道，我经常搞错你的想法，不是吗？”他撅着嘴，撇了下我。
Edward shook his head. “I promised. Though I don’t know if I really owe him anything at all anymore…” His teeth ground together.
爱德华摇摇头，“我答应过他的。现在我不知道是不是已经还清了他的人情……”他磨了磨牙。
“How can you say that? Jacob has given up everything to protect us! What I’ve put him through –!” I cringed at the dim memory of shame and guilt. It seemed odd now that I had needed him so much then. That sense of absence without him near had vanished; it must have been a human weakness.
“你怎么能这么说？雅各布前几天才为了保护我们而放弃了几乎所有东西！天，我让他遭到了什么啊——！”我为脑中可耻又内疚的模糊记忆而辩护道。现在看起来当时我对他的需要，多的有点奇怪。他不在身边而产生的空虚感已经消失了，可能那只是人类身上的弱点。
He stroked my cheek and then smiled gently when my face smoothed out in response, desire momentarily overruling annoyance. “It’s harder than you make it look, I know. I remember.”
他轻抚着我的脸颊，温柔的笑着，让我脸慢慢软化下来，对他的渴望暂时战胜了这些烦人的事。“我知道，这有点困难，我都记得。”
“I know. And so let’s get you home, so that you can see it all for yourself.” His eyes ran over the remains of my dress as he spoke of going home, and he frowned. “Hmm.” After a half second of thought, he unbuttoned his white shirt and held it out for me to put my arms through.
“我明白，所以我们快点回去吧，那样你就可以自己去看看了。”提起回家，他目光扫过我那可怜的裙子，眉毛皱起来了：“嗯……”想了不到半秒，他把自己的白衬衫脱了下来，帮我穿上。
“Edward, I don’t understand.” Frustration and indignation took over my head.
“爱德华，我完全不明白。”挫败和愤怒淹没了我。
“That bad?” He grinned.
“有这么糟糕吗？”他诡异的笑了笑。
I slipped my arms into his sleeves and then buttoned it swiftly over my ragged bodice. Of course, that left him without a shirt, and it was impossible not to find that distracting.
快速的把衣服套在我破破烂烂的裙子上，扣好扣子。现在，他裸着上半身——对我来说是很大的诱惑。
Finding my way to my new home was simpler than walking down Charlie’s street to my old one. Our scent left a clear and easy trail to follow, even running as fast as I could.
找到回家的路一点都不难，甚至比我从查理的办公室走回家都容易。我们一路上留下的气味是最好的指引，我以最快的速度奔跑着。
“I’ll race you,” I said, and then cautioned, “no throwing the game this time!”
“看谁先到家，”我说，然后警告他：“不准放水！”
“I don’t like feeling confused.”
“我不喜欢被蒙在鼓里。”
He dropped my hand and grinned. “On your mark…”
他放开我的手，咧嘴一笑：“谨随您的吩咐……”
Edward had me beat till we hit the river. I took a chance and made my leap early, trying to use my extra strength to win.
当我们到达河岸的时候爱德华超过了我，我只好放手一搏，率先起跳，期望我的力量能帮我获胜。
Edward was beside me in the same second, his hands clamped down hard on the tops of my arms.
爱德华马上来到我身边，紧紧的抓住我的上臂。
“Ha!” I exulted when I heard my feet touch the grass first.
“哈！”我欢呼了一声，发现自己先落地。
Listening for his landing, I heard something I did not expect. Something loud and much too close. A thudding heart.
当他落地时，我听到一个意想不到的来客，伴随着一串低沉的越来越近的心跳声。
“Don’t breathe,” he cautioned me urgently.
“别呼吸。”他紧张的警告我。
“Carefully, Jacob,” Edward said. A snarl from the forest echoed the concern in his voice. “Maybe this isn’t the best way –“
“小心点，雅各布，”爱德华警告，声音在林间回旋：“或许这不是一个好方法——”
I tried not to panic as I froze mid-breath. My eyes were the only things that moved, wheeling instinctively to find the source of the sound.
我僵在地上屏住呼吸，同时想镇静下来，只有眼睛飞快的扫视着四周想找出声音的来源。
Jacob stood at the line where the forest touched the Cullens’ lawn, his arms folded across his body, his jaw clenched tight. Invisible in the woods behind him, I heard now two larger hearts, and the faint crush of bracken under huge, pacing paws.
雅各布站在卡伦家的草地和森林交界的地方，双手交叉，下巴崩的紧紧的。在他身后看不见的树林里，我听见两种沉重的心跳声，和欧洲厥被大脚板踩倒在地上的声音。
“You think it would be better to let her near the baby first?” Jacob interrupted. “It’s safer to see how Bella does with me. I heal fast.”
“那你觉得一下子就让她接近那孩子就是个好办法了？”雅各布粗鲁的打断他的话：“先观察下贝拉是怎么对我，会安全些，再说我自愈能力很强。”
What was with Edward? After all that we’d been through, shouldn’t he have been able to feel some kindness for my best friend? I’d thought — maybe foolishly — that Edward was sort of Jacob’s friend now, too. I must have misread them.
爱德华到底怎么了？经过所有的这些痛苦，他不应该对我最好的朋友友好点吗？我还以为——真是白痴——还以为现在爱德华和雅各布两人应该有某种程度的友谊了。我肯定是误会什么了。
I glanced at his face anxiously; Edward seemed to deliberate for a moment, and then his expression twisted from concern into something else. He shrugged, and there was an undercurrent of hostility in his voice when he said, “It’s your neck, I guess.”
我焦急的望着他，爱德华低头考虑了一会儿，突然表情变得非常古怪像是想到了什么。他耸耸肩，带点恶意的说：“反正到时受伤的是你。”
This was a test? To see if I could not kill Jacob before I tried to not kill Renesmee? I felt sick in the strangest way — it had nothing to do with my stomach, only my mind. Was this Edward’s idea?
这是个考验吗？在我控制自己不去伤害蕾妮斯梅之前，先看看我能不能控制住自己不去伤害雅各布？我觉得这种奇怪的方式让人很恶心——并不是身体上的恶心，而是精神上的。这是爱德华的主意吗？
The growl from the forest was furious this time; Leah, I had no doubt.
森林里马上传出一阵愤怒的咆哮，肯定是利亚。
It didn’t make any sense to me. Even if our friendship had survived…
即使我们的友谊还在，这也完全没有道理……
But what was Jacob doing? Why would he offer himself as a test to protect Renesmee?
但雅各布在做什么？他干嘛要为了蕾妮斯梅来做这个测试？
And as my eyes met Jacob’s now, I thought that maybe it had. He still looked like my best friend. But he wasn’t the one who had changed. What did I look like to him?
当我看到雅各布注视着我的目光，至少我觉得是，我仍然能确定他是我最好的朋友。但改变了的那个并不是他，我在他眼里是什么了？
Then he smiled his familiar smile, the smile of a kindred spirit, and I was sure our friendship was intact. It was just like before, when we were hanging out in his homemade garage, just two friends killing time. Easy and normal.
接着他脸上露出熟悉的微笑，一个家人般的鼓励的笑容，我现在能确定了我们的友谊并没有消失。还跟原来我们偷偷的在他的个人修理厂里捣鼓时一样，只是朋友之间打发时间的方式。简单而平常。
Again, I noticed that the strange need I’d felt for him before I’d changed was completely gone. He was just my friend, the way it was supposed to be.
同时，我发现以前我对他那种没有道理可言的依赖感消失了，他现在只是一个朋友，一个早就该如此的单纯的朋友。
It still made no sense what he was doing now, though. Was he really so selfless that he would try to protect me — with his own life — from doing something in an uncontrolled split second that I would regret in agony forever? That went way beyond simply tolerating what I had become, or miraculously managing to stay my friend. Jacob was one of the best people I knew, but this seemed like too much to accept from anyone.
但这还是解释不了他现在正做的事。他是个圣人吗？无私到要用自己的生命来阻止我可能的失控下做的绝对会后悔一生的行为？这不仅仅是忍受我变成吸血鬼这种事了，雅各布是我认识的最好的人，但是这种奉献对谁来说都太多了，远远超过我能接受的范围。
His grin widened, and he shuddered slightly. “I gotta say it, Bells. You’re a freak show.”
他的嘴巴咧得更大了，打了个冷颤：“我得先告诉你，贝拉，你现在是个怪物了。”
I grinned back, falling easily into the old pattern. This was a side of him I understood.
我回笑了一下，很容易就接受这种我们习惯了的相处方式，这才是我认识的他。
Edward growled. “Watch yourself, mongrel.”
爱德华咆哮着说：“嘿，嘴巴放干净点，杂种狗。”
“Gee — thanks for the amazing compliment!”
“哇哦，得谢谢你这惊人的称赞。”
“Super-creepy. But it’s not as bad as I thought it would be.”
“让人毛骨悚然，不过倒是比我想象中好些。”
The wind blew from behind me and I quickly filled my lungs with the safe air so I could speak. “No, he’s right. The eyes are really something, aren’t they?”
风从我身后吹过，我飞快的吸了口干净的空气好继续讲话：“不不不，他是对的。看看我的眼睛，的确很恐怖不是吗？”
He rolled his eyes. “You know what I mean. You still look like you — sort of. Maybe it’s not the look so much as… you are Bella. I didn’t think it would feel like you were still here.” He smiled at me again without a trace of bitterness or resentment anywhere in his face. Then he chuckled and said, “Anyway, I guess I’ll get used to the eyes soon enough.”
他翻了个白眼，“你知道我是什么意思，你还是你——一半一半吧。不过可能‘看’起来不是贝拉。我还是不能相信站在我面前的这个美女是你。”他冲着我笑道，脸上没有一丝辛酸和痛苦。然后他俏皮的一笑说：“不管怎么说，我相信我会很快习惯你这双眼睛的。”
The strangest look crossed his face, erasing the smile. It was almost… guilty? Then his eyes shifted to Edward.
他的脸上露出非常可疑的神情，代替了原来的笑容。几乎就像……在心虚一样？然后他把目光望向爱德华。
“Maybe I’m hoping she’ll get irritated and rip your head off,” Edward suggested.
“我可能只是想让她生你的气，然后亲手把你的脖子掐断。”爱德华暗示道。
“You will?” I asked, confused. It was wonderful that we were still friends, but it wasn’t like we’d be spending much time together.
“你真的愿意？”我疑惑的问。当然我们还是朋友这很好，但现在的情况就像我们原来并没有相处很久。
“Thanks,” he said. “I didn’t know if you’d be able to keep it from her, promise or not. Usually, you just give her everything she wants.”
“谢了，”他说：“我不知道你能不能保守住秘密，不管有没有约定过。通常，你都会听她的。”
I was glad they didn’t listen to him but only followed after him a little more slowly.
我很高兴的看到他们并不打算乖乖听话，只是放慢了点脚步。
“I’ll explain later,” Jacob said self-consciously — like he didn’t really plan on it. Then he changed the subject. “First, let’s get this show on the road.” His grin was a challenge now as he started slowly forward.
“我等下会解释的，”雅各布不自觉的说了一句——但他似乎并没有准备好。果然，他换了个话题。“首先，让我们把舞台移到马路上。”他朝前方踱过去，露出挑衅的笑容。
“C’mon, Bells. Do your worst.”
“攻击吧，贝儿，用尽全力。”
“What’s going on? Are you two keeping secrets from me?” I demanded, incredulous.
“怎么了？你们真的隐瞒了我什么吗？”我满是怀疑的质问着。
“Cool it, guys,” Jacob said. “Stay out of this.”
“冷静点，伙计，”雅各布说：“别靠近。”
Leah hissed.
利亚不满的嘘着他。
He got close enough that I could feel the heat of his body in the air between us. My throat burned in response.
他站的这么近，我甚至可以感觉到从他身体里散发出来的热气，让我的嗓子燃烧起来。
Jacob snorted.
雅各布从鼻子嗤了口气。
There was a whine of protest behind him, and then Leah’s gray body slid out of the trees behind him. The taller, sandy-colored Seth was right behind her.
他身后传来抱怨的牢骚声，然后利亚灰色的身躯从树上滑下，紧跟着的是塞思土黄色的身影。
The wind was still now; it wouldn’t blow his scent away from me.
风静下来了，不再把他的气味吹散。
I didn’t want to breathe. It wasn’t right to take such dangerous advantage of Jacob, no matter if he was the one offering. But I couldn’t get away from the logic. How else could I be sure that I wouldn’t hurt Renesmee?
我还是不想呼吸，让雅各布身陷这样的危险中根本就是错误的，不管是不是他的提议。但如果不能通过这次挑战，我又凭什么认为自己不会伤害到蕾妮斯梅？
“Hold on to me,” I said to Edward, cringing back into his chest.
“抓着我，”我对爱德华说，脑袋埋在他胸口。
I locked my muscles in place, hoping I could keep them frozen. I resolved that I would do at least as well as I had on the hunt. Worst-case scenario, I would stop breathing and run for it. Nervously, I took a tiny breath in through my nose, braced for anything.
我绷紧肌肉，暗自期望我能控制住它们。我下定决心，至少不会比我在打猎的时候做的更差。最糟糕的情况，我也可以重新屏住呼吸然后逃离开。小心翼翼的，我小小的吸了口气，为接下来的状况做好准备。
“I’m getting older here, Bella,” Jacob taunted. “Okay, not technically, but you get the idea. Go on, take a whiff.”
“我越来越老了，贝拉”雅各布自嘲道：“好吧，理论上不是，但你应该明白，别浪费时间。开始吧，吸一口气。”
I took another breath and relaxed. “Huh. I can see what everyone’s been going on about. You stink, Jacob.”
我深吸了口气，彻底放松下来：“呼，我现在知道为什么每个人都是这个反应了，你真臭，雅各布。”
Edward burst into laughter; his hands slipped from my shoulders to wrap around my waist. Seth barked a low chortle in harmony with Edward; he came a little closer while Leah retreated several paces. And then I was aware of another audience when I heard Emmett’s low, distinct guffaw, muffled a little by the glass wall between us.
爱德华放声大笑，手从我肩膀上滑到我腰部。塞思也吃吃的笑着，他靠近了一点，利亚反而后退了几步。马上我注意到另外一个观众的存在，埃美特低哑的与众不同的笑声从树墙那边隐隐约约的传了过来。
His hands tightened on my arms.
他紧紧的锁着我的手臂。
It hurt a little, but my throat was already burning dully anyway. Jacob didn’t smell that much more human than the mountain lion. There was an animal edge to his blood that instantly repelled. Though the loud, wet sound of his heart was appealing, the scent that went with it made my nose wrinkle. It was actually easier with the smell to temper my reaction to the sound and heat of his pulsing blood.
有点痛，但我早就已经习惯了喉咙的燃烧感。雅各布闻起来并不比山狮更像人类，他血液里动物的痕迹更是让人恶心，虽然他湿热有力的心跳声倒很有吸引力，不过那气味还是让我皱起了鼻子。事实上，他难闻的气味安抚了我对心跳和血液流动的声音的反应。
“Okay, so I passed, right?” I said. “Now are you going to tell me what this big secret is?”
“好了，这是不是说明我通过考试了？”我问：“现在你们能告诉我这秘密是什么了吧？”
“Look who’s talking,” Jacob said, theatrically plugging his nose. His face didn’t pucker at all while Edward embraced me, not even when Edward composed himself and whispered “I love you” in my ear. Jacob just kept grinning. This made me feel hopeful that things were going to be right between us, the way they hadn’t been for so long now. Maybe now I could truly be his friend, since I disgusted him enough physically that he couldn’t love me the same way as before. Maybe that was all that was needed.
“看看是谁在说话，”雅各布说，夸张的捏着鼻子。当爱德华抱着我，冷静下来在我耳边悄声说：“我爱你。”时，他居然连眉头都没皱一下，还是保持着微笑。这让我满怀希望的以为我们之间的关系正朝着正确的方向前进着，跟很久以前我们刚见面时相处的方式一样。或许现在我可以做他真正的朋友了，很明显现在我身上那让他厌恶的气味，使他对我的爱不可能再继续下去了。或许这种情况对我们来说是最好的。
I heard Emmett chuckle again — a sound of anticipation.
我又听见埃美特幸灾乐祸的笑声了。
Jacob’s expression became very nervous. “It’s nothing you need to worry about this second…”
雅各布的表情变得非常紧张：“其实没什么需要你担心的……”
I would have pressed my point, but as I listened to Emmett, I heard other sounds, too. Seven people breathing. One set of lungs moving more rapidly than the others. Only one heart fluttering like a bird’s wings, light and quick.
我应该继续追问下去的，但当听到埃美特的笑声时，我又发现另外七种呼吸声。其中有一个呼吸特别快，也只有一个人的心跳声，像小鸟儿一样，轻微但快速。
I was totally diverted. My daughter was just on the other side of that thin wall of glass. I couldn’t see her — the light bounced off the reflective windows like a mirror. I could only see myself, looking very strange — so white and still — compared to Jacob. Or, compared to Edward, looking exactly right.
我完全被改变了。我的女儿就在那堵薄薄的玻璃墙的另一边。我看不见她——灯光像镜子一样从窗上反射下来。我只能看到自己，看上去很奇怪——既白又静——与雅各布相比。或者，和爱德华相比，看起来完全正确。
It was Jacob’s test?
这么说这是雅各布的主意咯？
“But –” Jacob began.
“但是——”雅各布狡辩着。
“But nothing,” Edward said, suddenly exasperated. “Bella needs to see our daughter. Get out of her way.”
“没什么但是，”爱德华有点恼火的说：“贝拉有权利看看我们的宝宝，从她前面滚开。”
“Come and see,” Edward murmured. “I know you can handle this.”
“过来，看看她，”爱德华小声说：“我相信你能行的。”
And then Jacob was in my way, his face a mask of worry.
但是雅各布突然间挡在路中间，看起来有点担心。
“Are you sure, bloodsucker?” he demanded of Edward, his voice almost pleading. I’d never heard him speak to Edward that way. “I don’t like this. Maybe she should wait –“
“你确定吗，恶心的寄生虫？”他犹疑的问着爱德华，我从来没见过他用这样的语气这样跟爱德华讲话：“我不想这样，可能她应该再等等——”
My yearning to see her, to understand the worship in his voice, broke my frozen pose. I took a step forward.
我相见她的渴望，我想知道爱德华声音里的崇拜的由来，让我僵住的身体动了，我向前走了一小步。
“You had your test, Jacob.”
“雅各布，你的考验她已经通过了。”
“And Emmett and Jasper — just in case?”
“那让埃美特和贾斯帕也过来——以防万一？”
“We’ll take care of you, Bella. Don’t worry, we’ll be ready. None of us would risk Renesmee. I think you’ll be surprised at how entirely she’s already wrapped us all around her little fingers. She’ll be perfectly safe, no matter what.”
“我们会小心的看着你的，贝拉。别担心，一切都已经准备好了。没有人会拿蕾妮斯梅来冒险。相反我认为，你会很惊奇的发现她是怎么让我们所有人都拜倒在她的小裙子下。无论发生什么，她都会非常安全的。”
“You’ll help me?” I whispered through motionless lips.
“你会帮我吗？”我那冰冷的嘴唇这么说着。
“Renesmee,” I whispered. Stress made me a statue again. Renesmee wasn’t going to smell like an animal. Would I put her in danger?
“蕾妮斯梅，”我轻轻的告诉自己，在巨大的压力下再次变成石头雕像。蕾妮斯梅闻起来一点都不像恶心的动物，那是不是意味着她处于巨大的危险中了？
“Of course I will.”
“当然会。”
“Shall we?” Edward said, his voice gentle again. I nodded nervously.
“可以了吗？”爱德华问，声音已经平静下来。
Jacob shot me an odd, frantic look and then turned and nearly sprinted into the house ahead of us.
雅各布深深看了我一眼，带点古怪的疯狂然后冲进我们前面的屋子里。
He took my hand tightly in his and led the way into the house.
他轻轻拉着我的手，带我朝屋子走去。
Someone very small was leaning forward out of Rosalie’s arms, peering around Jacob. Immediately, she had my absolute attention, my every thought, the way nothing else had owned them since the moment I’d opened my eyes.
一个小人儿被罗莎莉抱在怀里，正努力往前伸着身体，看着雅各布。马上，它夺去了我所有的注意力，占据了我脑海中的每处地方，甚至那些从我睁开眼就没用过的地方。
Edward growled.
爱德华生气的吼了一声。
I couldn’t make sense of their confrontation, and I couldn’t concentrate on it, either. I could only think about the blurred child in my memory and struggle against the haziness, trying to remember her face exactly.
我对他们这一系列的行为完全摸不着脑袋，而且我也没精力考虑这些。我唯一能想起的就是对宝宝最后一眼的模糊印象，努力想透过迷雾看清她的脸。
They waited for me in a smiling line that was both welcoming and defensive. Rosalie was several paces behind the rest of them, near the front door. She was alone until Jacob joined her and then stood in front of her, closer than was normal. There was no sense of comfort in that closeness; both of them seemed to cringe from the proximity.
他们全都站在门口欢迎我，可能也带点防卫的感觉。罗莎莉站在离他们几步远的后面，靠近客厅的大门。过了一会儿，雅各布也走到她身旁，他们靠得非常近，跟原来不太一样。这种亲近完全不合常理，更别说他们还那么习惯。
“I was out just two days?” I gasped, disbelieving.
“我真的只昏迷了两天吗？”我不敢相信的喘了口气。
The stranger-child in Rosalie’s arms had to be weeks, if not months, old. She was maybe twice the size of the baby in my dim memory, and she seemed to be supporting her own torso easily as she stretched toward me. Her shiny bronze-colored hair fell in ringlets past her shoulders. Her chocolate brown eyes examined me with an interest that was not at all childlike; it was adult, aware and intelligent. She raised one hand, reaching in my direction for a moment, and then reached back to touch Rosalie’s throat.
在罗莎莉臂弯中的小孩肯定有几个星期大了，要不就是几个月。现在她起码有我记忆里的孩子的两倍长，而且她似乎很轻松的就能支撑起自己的身体向我伸出双手。长着一头灿烂的金色小卷发，巧克力色的眼睛正探究的望着我，完全不是孩子的神情，像大人一样敏锐、聪明。她抬起一只手伸向我，然后收回去放在罗莎莉的喉咙上。
If her face had not been astonishing in its beauty and perfection, I wouldn’t have believed it was the same child. My child.
如果不是她的脸还是那样惊人的可爱和完美，我根本就不敢相信这是同一个小孩，我的女儿。
Seeing this unanticipated little person did not make her more real, though. It only made her more fantastic.
可在看到这出乎意料的小人儿后，她的存在并没有变得凝实反而更像是一个美丽的幻想了。
Rosalie patted the hand against her neck and murmured, “Yes, that’s her.”
罗莎莉轻轻的拍着脖子上的小手，嘟哝着：“是的，就是她。”
But Edward was there in her features, and I was there in the color of her eyes and cheeks. Even Charlie had a place in her thick curls, though their color matched Edward’s. She must be ours. Impossible, but still true.
我能在她脸上看到爱德华的影子，而她眼睛的颜色、脸颊长得跟我一样甚至Charlie那头茂密的卷发也被继承下来，不过发色是爱德华的金色。她肯定我们的孩子，不可思议，却是真实的。
Reeling inside, I took a hesitant step toward her.
我的内心顿时波涛汹涌起来，犹豫的向她迈出一小步。
Everyone moved very fast.
所有人突然都跟着动起来。
Renesmee’s eyes stayed locked on mine. Then, as she had just seconds after her violent birth, she smiled at me. A brilliant flash of tiny, perfect white teeth.
蕾妮斯梅的眼睛一直注视着我，在她充满破坏力的出生后的两天，她对我笑了，洁白的牙齿上闪烁着数不清的微小光芒。
Emmett and Jasper were right in front of me, shoulder to shoulder, hands ready. Edward gripped me from behind, fingers tight again on the tops of my arms. Even Carlisle and Esme moved to get Emmett’s and Jasper’s flanks, while Rosalie backed to the door, her arms clutching at Renesmee. Jacob moved, too, keeping his protective stance in front of them.
埃美特和贾斯帕站在我面前，肩并着肩，随时准备拦下我。爱德华在我身后伸手抓着我，就连卡莱尔和Esme都站到埃美特和贾斯帕的侧面，而罗莎莉抱着蕾妮斯梅已经退到门后，雅各布跟着她，还是保护似的站在她们前面。
Alice was right. I was in control of myself. I’d been braced for anything — for a scent as impossibly insistent as the human smell in the woods. The temptation here was really not comparable. Renesmee’s fragrance was perfectly balanced right on the line between the scent of the most beautiful perfume and the scent of the most delicious food. There was enough of the sweet vampire smell to keep the human part from being overwhelming.
爱丽丝是对的，我的身体处于完美的控制之下，我已经准备好面对任何情况了——特别是像森林里的人类一样的气味。这里的诱惑真的不太大。蕾妮斯梅的味道像是最美丽的香水和最可口的食物两者之间完美的平衡。她身上有足够多的吸血鬼的味道来掩盖人类的那部份。
Alice was the only one who held her place.
爱丽丝是唯一一个没动的人。
“Oh, give her some credit,” she chided them. “She wasn’t going to do anything. You’d want a closer look, too.”
“噢，给她点信任好不，”她责怪着：“她不会做任何事的，是人都想站近点看。”
“I’m okay,” I promised, patting Edward’s hand on my arm. Then I hesitated and added, “Keep close, though, just in case.”
“我很好，”我保证道，轻轻的拍了拍爱德华的手，但是我还是犹豫的加了句：“你们还是别走开了，以防万一。”
Jasper’s eyes were tight, focused. I knew he was taking in my emotional climate, and I worked on settling into a steady calm. I felt Edward free my arms as he read Jasper’s assessment. But, though Jasper was getting it firsthand, he didn’t seem as certain.
贾斯帕的眼睛死死的盯着我，我知道他正察看着我的情绪状况，于是我更加努力的稳定着自己。爱德华读出贾斯帕的肯定后放开了我。但即使贾斯帕完全直观的理解我的情绪，他看上去还是很去确定。
When she heard my voice, the too-aware child struggled in Rosalie’s arms, reaching toward me.
当她听到我的声音，那个受到过分保护的宝宝使劲的在Rosalie怀里挣扎，想够到我。
Somehow, her expression managed to look impatient.
不知为什么，她的表情变得不耐烦起来。
I could handle it. I was sure.
我可以控制住，我很确定。
“Jazz, Em, let us through. Bella’s got this.”
“见鬼，嗯，让我们过去。这是贝拉的权利。”
“Minimal. Listen, Jasper — on the hunt she caught the scent of some hikers who were in the wrong place at the wrong time…”
“非常小。听着，贾斯帕——在我们打猎的时候，她闻到了一些在错误的时间出现在错误的地点的徒步旅行者的味道，被迷惑……”
I heard Carlisle suck in a shocked breath. Esme’s face was suddenly full of concern mingled with compassion. Jasper’s eyes widened, but he nodded just a tiny bit, as if Edward’s words answered some question in his head. Jacob’s mouth screwed up into a disgusted grimace. Emmett shrugged. Rosalie seemed even less concerned than Emmett as she tried to hold on to the struggling child in her arms.
我听见卡莱尔倒吸了一口冷气，而Ese则既可惜又同情的看着我。贾斯帕的瞳孔突然放大，但他只是微微点了点头，好像爱德华的话正好回答了他心里的疑问似的。雅各布厌恶的撇了撇嘴，而埃美特只是耸了耸肩。罗莎莉看上去一点都不关心，只是不停的把挣扎着的宝宝重新抱好。
“Edward, the risk –” Jasper said.
“爱德华，我怕，风险——”贾斯帕说。
Alice’s expression told me that she was not fooled. Her narrowed eyes, focused with burning intensity on my borrowed shirt, seemed more worried about what I’d done to my dress than anything else.
但爱丽丝的表情告诉我她并没有被骗，眼睛眨都没眨只是焦急的看着我那可怜的裙子，似乎对只是在担心我对裙子做了些啥而不是其他的什么的东西。
“I know, Carlisle, I know. I was just plain stupid. I should have taken the time to make sure we were in a safe zone before I set her loose.”
“我知道，卡莱尔，我知道。我就是一个白痴，我本应该事先检查一下我们要打猎的地点，起码在她准备攻击之前。”
“He’s absolutely right to rebuke me, Bella,” Edward said with a grin. “I made a huge mistake. The fact that you are stronger than anyone I’ve ever known doesn’t change that.”
“他这样责怪我是非常有道理的，贝拉，”爱德华露出不好意思的微笑说：“我犯了一个巨大的错。即便是你比我们任何人都要理智的这个事实也不能掩饰这个过失。”
“Edward!” Carlisle chastened. “How could you be so irresponsible?”
“爱德华！”卡莱尔责怪道：“你怎么能这么不负责任？”
“Edward,” I mumbled, embarrassed by the way they stared at me. It was like they were trying to see a brighter red in my eyes.
“爱德华，”我嘟哝着，对他们这样盯着我看感到有点不好意思，感觉他们好像试图在我眼睛里发现那种血腥的亮红色。
Alice rolled her eyes. “Tasteful joke, Edward.”
爱丽丝翻了个白眼说：“很好笑，爱德华。”
“Wait,” Jasper gasped. “She didn’t hunt the humans?”
“等等，”贾斯帕喘了口大气：“难道她没有伤害那些人？”
“I wasn’t making a joke. I was explaining to Jasper why I know Bella can handle this. It’s not my fault everyone jumped to conclusions.”
“我不是在开玩笑。我只是在跟贾斯帕解释为什么我觉得贝拉能行。你们所有人都这样偏见不是我的错。”
“She started to,” Edward said, clearly enjoying himself. My teeth ground together. “She was entirely focused on the hunt.”
“一开始她的确受到了诱惑，”爱德华享受的说，而我却咬紧了牙：“她整个人都处于捕猎的状态下。”
“Whoa,” Emmett murmured. “Seriously?”
“哇哦，”埃美特低叫了一声：“真的吗？”
“He’s not telling it right,” I muttered, more embarrassed than before. “He left out the part where I growled at him.”
“他没有把全部事实讲出来，”我小声的说，感到更加羞耻了：“他隐瞒了我对他嘶吼的那段。”
Edward leaned toward him, animated. “She heard me behind her and reacted defensively. As soon as my pursuit broke into her concentration, she snapped right out of it. I’ve never seen anything to equal her. She realized at once what was happening, and then… she held her breath and ran away.”
爱德华对着他，充满活力的说：“后来她听到我跟在后面，做出防卫的行为。但当我的追踪刚分散了她的注意力，她立刻就从捕猎的状态中解脱出来，我从来没见过谁能做到这样。她马上意识到发生了什么，然后……她屏住呼吸，逃开了。”
“Did you get in a couple of good swipes?” Emmett asked eagerly.
“那你狠狠的揍了他一顿吗？”埃美特热切的说。
“No! Of course not.”
“不！当然没有。”
“No, not really? You really didn’t attack him?”
“没有，真的没有？你真的没有攻击他？”
“Aw, what a waste,” Emmett groaned. “And here you’re probably the one person who could take him — since he can’t get in your head to cheat — and you had a perfect excuse, too.” He sighed. “I’ve been dying to see how he’d do without that advantage.”
“天哪，多可惜啊，”埃美特遗憾的抱怨道，“你可能是这里唯一一个能打倒他的人——要知道他完全知道你什么时候在骗他——何况你有一个完美的借口。”他长叹了口气：“看到他发现自己的优势完全没用时的反应，让我死了都行啊。”
“What happened?” Carlisle interjected. His eyes were suddenly bright, an amazed smile beginning to form on his face. It reminded me of before, when he’d wanted the details on my transformation experience. The thrill of new information.
“然后发生了什么？”卡莱尔插嘴道，眼睛突然一亮，脸上绽放出大大的笑容。这让我想起以前，当他催我告诉他我转变的细节的时候，那种为了新鲜事物而兴奋颤抖的样子。
“Emmett!” I protested.
“埃美特！”我强烈抗议。
Jasper’s frown caught my attention; he seemed even more disturbed than before.
我注意到贾斯帕在皱眉，他看上去比以前更担心了。
I glared at him frostily. “I would never.”
我冷冷的瞪了他一眼：“我永远都不会的。”
Edward touched his fist lightly to Jasper’s shoulder in a mock punch. “You see what I mean?”
爱德华轻轻的锤了一下他的肩膀：“你明白我是什么意思吧？”
“It’s not natural,” Jasper muttered.
“这完全违背了吸血鬼的天性。”贾斯帕呆呆的自语。
I wasn’t paying so much attention, now that Edward was past the punch line of his joke. I was staring at the gorgeous child by the door, who was still staring at me. Her little dimpled hands reached out toward me like she knew exactly who I was. Automatically, my hand lifted to mimic hers.
我没有太关心爱德华说什么，看来他玩笑的效果已经减退了。我一直注视着门口那个光彩夺目的孩子，她也一直回应着我的目光，小手直直的伸向我，就像她完全明白我是谁似的。不自觉的，我也伸出自己的手。
“She could have turned on you — she’s only hours old!” Esme scolded, putting her hand against her heart. “Oh, we should have gone with you.”
“她很可能会攻击你的——她才几个小时大！”埃斯梅捂着心脏说：“天哪，我们应该跟你一起去的。”
“Edward,” I said, leaning around Jasper to see her better. “Please?”
“爱德华，”我说，侧身避开贾斯帕的阻挡好看清她，“可以吗？”
Jasper’s teeth were set; he didn’t move.
贾斯帕张开嘴露出牙齿，还是不肯让开。
“Jazz, this isn’t anything you’ve seen before,” Alice said quietly. “Trust me.”
“见鬼，她跟你以前见过的新生吸血鬼完全不一样，”爱丽丝慢慢的说：“相信我。”
Their eyes met for a short second, and then Jasper nodded. He moved out of my way, but put one hand on my shoulder and moved with me as I walked slowly forward.
他们的目光交汇了几秒钟，然后贾斯帕点点头走开了，但他的一只手还是放在我的肩膀上，跟着我移动。
And then the child in Rosalie’s arms, struggling and reaching all this time while her expression got more and more irritated, let out a high, ringing wail. Everyone reacted as if — like me — they’d never heard her voice before.
接着，罗莎莉怀里的小孩拼命的挣扎起来想够到我，她的表情越来越急迫，发出一阵尖锐铃声一样的哀嚎。我们的反应都是一样——我谁都不曾听过她的声音。
I thought about every step before I took it, analyzing my mood, the burn in my throat, the position of the others around me. How strong I felt versus how well they would be able to contain me. It was a slow procession.
每走一步我都停下来思考一次，分析着自己的情绪、喉咙里燃烧的干渴、周围人的站位。他们能准备的多好，我就能有多自信。这是一个缓慢的过程。
They swarmed around her in a second, leaving me standing alone, frozen in place. The sound of Renesmee’s cry pierced right through me, spearing me to the floor. My eyes pricked in the strangest way, like they wanted to tear.
他们马上围住她，让我独自站在圈子外，僵在那里。蕾妮斯梅的声音穿透了我的灵魂，把我钉在地上，眼睛忽然一痛，像要流泪似的。
It was Jacob’s voice that was loudest, that raised anxiously above the others. I watched in shock as he reached for Renesmee, and then in utter horror as Rosalie surrendered her to him without a fight.
雅各布的声音最为明显，比其他人都要焦急。我有点惊讶的看着他把手伸向蕾妮斯梅，然后彻底的被震撼到——他从罗莎莉的手中安然的接过孩子。
It seemed like everyone had a hand on her, patting and soothing. Everyone but me.
所有人似乎都围着她，或轻拍着或安哄着，所有人——除了我。
“What’s the matter? Is she hurt? What happened?”
“到底怎么了？她受伤了吗？发生什么了？”
“No, she’s fine,” Rosalie reassured him.
“不不，她很好，”罗莎莉保证道。
Renesmee went to Jacob willingly enough, pushing her tiny hand against his cheek and then squirming around to stretch toward me again.
蕾妮斯梅似乎很乐意被雅各布抱着，小手抓着他的脸颊，接着蠕动着再次伸手要着我。
Rosalie was reassuring Jacob?
罗莎莉跟雅各布保证？
“See?” Rosalie told him. “She just wants Bella.”
“看到了吗？”罗莎莉告诉他，“她只是想要贝拉。”
We were only a few feet away from her now. Bursts of heat seemed to tremble out from her to touch me.
现在我们离她只有几英尺了，想要我的欲望从她身体里燃烧出来，让她的体温瞬间提升。
“She’s been waiting for you for almost three days,” he told me.
“她等了你将近三天了。”他告诉我。
“She wants me?” I whispered.
“她要我？”我喃喃自语。
Edward darted back to my side. He put his hands lightly on my arms and urged me forward.
爱德华重新回到我身边，轻轻的搂着我的手臂，拉着我向前。
Renesmee’s eyes — my eyes — stared impatiently at me.
蕾妮斯梅那跟我长得一模一样的眼睛正不耐烦的盯着我。
He frowned at me, eyes tight, like he was just as panicky at the thought of Renesmee in my arms.
他皱着眉头，眼睛锁的死死的，可能在他想象中蕾妮斯梅在我怀里这个情景更让他心惊肉跳。
Or maybe it was Jacob who was trembling. I saw his hands shaking as I got closer. And yet, despite his obvious anxiety, his face was more serene than I had seen it in a long time.
不过也可能只是因为雅各布抱着她的缘故。此时，我看见他的手微微颤抖着，但除了对我接近的焦虑，他的面容比原来宁静了许多。
Renesmee whimpered eagerly and stretched, her little hands grasping into fists again and again.
蕾妮斯梅呜咽的更厉害了，手伸的更长，拳头不停的握紧放松握紧。
“Jake — I’m fine,” I told him. It made me panicky to see Renesmee in his shaking hands, but I worked to keep myself in control.
“杰克——我很好，”我安慰他，虽然看到蕾妮斯梅在他颤抖的手上有点让人心惊肉跳，但我还是控制住自己。
Jacob let his long arms stretch so that I could cradle her, but he didn’t let go. He shuddered a little when our skin touched. His skin, always so warm to me before, felt like an open flame to me now. It was almost the same temperature as Renesmee’s. Perhaps one or two degrees difference.
雅各布举起手好让我抱住她，但他没有离开。当我们两手相碰的时候，他微微颤抖了一下。他的皮肤对现在的我来说是那么温暖，像燃烧着的火焰。几乎跟蕾妮斯梅体温相同，最多只有一两度的差异。
She looked up and smiled at me again, showing her square little teeth and two dimples. Then, very deliberately, she reached for my face.
接着她仰起头冲我再次笑着，秀着自己洁白整齐的小牙齿和一对可爱的小酒窝。然后，不慌不忙的伸手摸我的脸。
Something in me clicked into place at that moment. The sound of her cry, the familiarity of her eyes, the way she seemed even more impatient than I did for this reunion — all of it wove together into the most natural of patterns as she clutched the air between us.
我体内的骨头似乎咔嚓一下归位了。她的哭声，她熟悉的眼睛，她对我们团聚的渴望甚至超过我的——这一切交织在一起，描绘出人们天性中最纯朴的一面。
The moment she did this, all the hands on me tightened, anticipating my reaction. I barely noticed.
当她这么做的时候，放在我身上的所有人的手都突然绷紧，等着我激烈的反应。但我几乎没有注意到。
Renesmee seemed oblivious to the coolness of my skin, or at least very used to it.
Renesee对我冰凉的皮肤似乎很适应，至少非常习惯了。
Suddenly, she was absolutely real, and of course I knew her. It was perfectly ordinary that I should take that last easy step and reach for her, putting my hands exactly where they would fit best as I pulled her gently toward me.
突然间，她的存在变得真实起来，当然我现在也更了解她了。她的手握着我们之间的空气，催促着我踏出最后那完美又平凡的一步，然后拥抱她。于是我温柔的接过她。
Renesmee’s hand dropped from my cheek. She smiled wider, dimpling again.
蕾妮斯梅的手从我脸上放下，再次露出开心的小酒窝。
Besides being shocking and unfamiliar, the image was also wrong somehow — I almost recognized my own face in it, my old face, but it was off, backward. I grasped quickly that I was seeing my face as others saw it, rather than flipped in a reflection.
但除了惊讶和陌生，这幅图像好像有点不对劲的地方——我似乎能认出自己的脸，原来的脸，但却是从一个倒转的角度。恍然间，我明白自己是通过第三者的视角在看，而不是亲身的经历。
I was gasping, stunned and frightened by the strange, alarming image that filled my mind. It felt like a very strong memory — I could still see through my eyes while I watched it in my head — but it was completely unfamiliar. I stared through it to Renesmee’s expectant expression, trying to understand what was happening, struggling desperately to hold on to my calm.
我被脑海中出现的奇怪的、惊人的图像所吓到，狠狠的喘着气。那似乎是一个非常深刻的记忆——我现在还时常想起——但这次的这个记忆却是陌生的。我盯着蕾妮斯梅期待的表情，试图搞清楚发生了什么，努力挣扎着保持冷静。
It was totally silent in the room but for the heartbeats. No one but Jacob and Renesmee was so much as breathing. The silence stretched on; it seemed like they were waiting for me to say something.
房子里一片寂静，除了心跳声什么都听不见，只有雅各布和蕾妮斯梅急促的呼吸着。寂静进一步扩大了，他们像是都在等着我说话。
My memory face was twisted, ravaged, covered in sweat and blood. Despite this, my expression in the vision became an adoring smile; my brown eyes glowed over their deep circles. The image enlarged, my face came closer to the unseen vantage point, and then abruptly vanished.
我那记忆中的脸现在呈现出一种扭曲、毁坏的样子，被汗水和鲜血所覆盖。除此之外，我的表情却展现出迷人的微笑，被青紫色所覆盖的眼睛里焕发出炫目的光彩。图像慢慢放大，我的脸变得越来越清晰，然后，突然消失了。
“She showed me that?” I whispered.
“她给我看的？”我喃喃问着。
“She’s gifted.”
“她只是有这天赋而已。”
“What was it?” Jacob asked.
“是什么？”雅各布问。
“What did you see?” Rosalie asked curiously, leaning around Jacob, who seemed very much in the way and out of place at the moment. “What did she show you?”
“你看见了什么？”罗莎莉好奇的问，雅各布站在她旁边够着头：“她给你看了什么？”
“What… was… that?” I managed to choke out.
“那……是……什么？”我艰难的发出声音。
“How do I hear thoughts? How does Alice see the future?” Edward asked rhetorically, and then shrugged.
“那我是怎么听见别人的思想的？爱丽丝是怎样看到未来的？”爱德华反问，然后耸耸肩。
“But how did she do that?”
“但她怎么做到的？”
“It’s an interesting twist,” Carlisle said to Edward. “Like she’s doing the exact opposite of what you can.”
“很有趣的突变，”卡莱尔对爱德华说：“她的天赋似乎跟你完全相反。”
Renesmee seemed unconcerned with my boggling eyes. She was smiling slightly and pulling on a lock of my hair.
蕾妮斯梅好像没注意到我疑惑的眼神，只是望着我的头发微笑。
I blinked quickly several times. “Um. Me. I think. But I looked terrible.”
我飞快的眨了几下眼睛：“呃，是我自己，我想。但看上去非常糟糕。”
“I told you it was hard to explain,” Edward murmured in my ear. “But effective as means of communications go.”
“我告诉过你这很难解释的吧，”Edward对着我的耳朵说：“但跟对话一样有效，不是吗？”
“It was the only memory she had of you,” Edward explained. It was obvious he’d seen what she was showing me as she thought of it. He was still cringing, his voice rough from reliving the memory. “She’s letting you know that she’s made the connection, that she knows who you are.”
“这是她对你唯一的印象，”爱德华解释道。非常明显，他也读到了她给我看的图像，有点畏缩，再次经历这恐怖的记忆让他的声音变得有点哽咽；“她想告诉你，是她发起这次交流，她知道你是谁。”
Nothing strong enough to pull me through the crushing darkness. The moment when I’d thought of Renesmee and found something I would never let go of.
什么东西都不足以让我战胜那黑暗。在那刻我想起蕾妮斯梅，然后终于发现生命中绝对不能放弃的东西。
I knew they were speculating away, but I didn’t care. I was staring at the most beautiful face in the world. She was hot in my arms, reminding me of the moment when the blackness had almost won, when there was nothing in the world left to hold on to.
我知道他们越扯越远了，但是我不在乎。我一直凝视着这世界上最可爱的小脸，在我怀里她显得非常温暖，让我想起那黑暗几乎战胜我的时刻，当我以为世界上没有什么东西能让我坚持下去。
“Interesting,” Edward agreed. “I wonder…”
“非常有趣，”爱德华同意道：“我想知道……”
I’d been right all along. She was worth the fight.
我一直是对的，她值得我经历的所有痛苦折磨。
“I remember you, too,” I told her quietly.
“我也记得你。”我轻轻的对她说。
It seemed very natural to lean in and press my lips to her forehead. She smelled wonderful. The scent of her skin set my throat burning, but it was easy to ignore. It didn’t strip the joy from the moment. Renesmee was real and I knew her. She was the same one I’d fought for from the beginning. My little nudger, the one who loved me from the inside, too. Half Edward, perfect and lovely. And half me — which, surprisingly, made her better rather than detracting.
非常自然的，我俯下身轻轻的吻着她的额头。她闻起来非常舒服，但她的味道再次让我的喉咙燃烧起来，然而这无关大局，完全不能影响我这一刻的幸福。蕾妮斯梅终于是真实的，我终于接触到她了。她就是最初我为之努力奋斗的人儿。我的动力之源，我的宝贝，一个也从心底爱着我的宝贝。一半像爱德华，完美可爱；一般像我，出乎意料的让她变得更好而不是起反作用。
“She’s fine,” Alice murmured, probably to Jasper. I could feel them hovering, not trusting me.
“她很好，”爱丽丝小声说，很可能是对贾斯帕。我能感觉得到他们在犹豫，不太相信我。
“Haven’t we experimented enough for one day?” Jacob asked, his voice a slightly higher pitch with stress. “Okay, Bella’s doing great, but let’s not push it.”
“我们今天经历的还不够多吗？”雅各布高声问，声音里流露出一丝压力的痕迹：“不错，贝拉目前为止做的还不错，但我们也不要一次进行的太多吧。”
I glared at him with real irritation. Jasper shuffled uneasily next to me. We were all crowded so close that every tiny movement seemed very big.
我真的生气了，瞪着他。贾斯帕在我身边不自在的徘徊着。我们全部靠的太近，让任何动作都非常明显。
“What is your problem, Jacob?” I demanded. I tugged lightly against his hold on Renesmee, and he just stepped closer to me. He was pressed right up to me, Renesmee touching both of our chests.
“你的问题又是什么，雅各布？”我质问，不想让他抱回蕾妮斯梅，而他还是向我靠近，来到我右边，现在蕾妮斯梅能同时摸到我们俩。
Edward hissed at him. “Just because I understand, it doesn’t mean I won’t throw you out, Jacob. Bella’s doing extraordinarily well. Don’t ruin the moment for her.”
爱德华冲他嘘了一声：“我能理解，不代表我不会把你扔出去，雅各布。贝拉表现的非常完美，不要毁了她美好的回忆。”
“I’ll help him toss you, dog,” Rosalie promised, her voice seething. “I owe you a good kick in the gut.” Obviously, there was no change in that relationship, unless it had gotten worse.
“我会帮他把你扔出去的，狗狗，”罗莎莉威胁道：“我还欠你狠狠的一脚。”显而易见，他们的关系并没有改善，可能还变得更差。
I glared at Jacob’s anxious half-angry expression. His eyes were locked on Renesmee’s face. With everyone pressed together, he had to be touching at least six different vampires at the moment, and it didn’t even seem to bug him.
我盯着雅各布半是焦虑半是愤怒的表情，他的眼睛死死的注视着蕾妮斯梅的脸。由于我们全部围在一起，他至少碰到了六个吸血鬼，但这似乎对他毫无影响。
He deliberated, and then let me go.
他松开手，放开我。
Jasper’s teeth came together and Edward’s arms wrapped around my chest like constricting boas. Jacob had Renesmee out of my arms in the same second, and I did not try to hold on to her. Because I felt it coming — the snap that they’d all been waiting for.
贾斯帕咬紧牙，而爱德华像蟒蛇一样缠绕着紧紧的抱着我。雅各布马上从我怀中抢过蕾妮斯梅，我根本没想拦住他。因为我觉得崩溃正在发生——那个他们一直等着的东西。
Rosalie held her hands out, and Jacob handed my daughter to her at once. Both of them backed away from me.
罗莎莉伸出手，雅各布马上把我的女儿递给她。他们俩同时远离我走开。
“Edward, I don’t want to hurt you, so please let go of me.”
“爱德华，我不想伤害你，所以你放手。”
“Go stand in front of Renesmee,” I suggested.
“到蕾妮斯梅前面去，”我命令着。
I puzzled over it, watching him stare at my daughter. Staring at her like… like he was a blind man seeing the sun for the very first time.
我对此完全摸不着脑袋，只能看着他望着自己的女儿，就像望着……像一个盲人第一次看到生命里的太阳。
He hesitated.
他犹豫了。
I leaned into my hunting crouch and took two slow steps forward toward Jacob.
我伏下身，摆出攻击的形态，朝雅各布缓慢的迈出两步。
Would he really go through all this just to protect me from myself? What could have happened during my transformation — my alteration into something he hated — that would soften him so much toward the reason for its necessity?
他真的为了保护我而习惯了所有的这一切？我转变的时候到底发生了什么——变成一个他憎恨的东西——这反而让他软化下来？
“Rose,” I said through my teeth, very slowly and precisely. “Take Renesmee.”
“罗莎，”我从牙缝中挤出一句话，非常缓慢一个字一个字的：“照顾好蕾妮斯梅。”
“No!” I gasped.
“不！”我狠狠的喘着气。
“I’ve held her all of one time, and already you think you have some moronic wolfy claim to her? She’s mine.”
“我只不过才抱了她一次，你就想告诉我你对她有什么浪漫的狼族宣誓？她是我的！”
“Pay up,” I heard Emmett say behind me. A small part of my brain wondered who had bet against this outcome. I didn’t waste much attention on it. I was too furious.
“快付钱，”我听见埃美特在我背后说。我有一小部分思维在想是不是有谁拿这打赌了来着？不过没把大部分的注意浪费在这上面。我已经彻底的被激怒了。
“You didn’t,” I snarled at him.
“告诉我你没有，”我冲他咆哮道。
Leah snapped at me.
利亚朝我嗤了一声，一动不动。
“I can share,” he said pleadingly as he retreated across the lawn.
“我能分享的，”他辩护道，退到草坪上。
He backed out the front door now as I stalked him, half-running backward down the stairs. “It wasn’t my idea, Bella!”
现在他退到前门外了，由于我一直紧逼着他，半跑着下楼：“这不是我的主意，贝拉。”
He backed away, palms up, trying to reason with me. “You know it’s not something I can control.”
他退了几步，双手举起投降状，想跟我解释：“你知道这不是我能控制的。”
“How dare you imprint on my baby? Have you lost your mind?”
“你竟然敢妄想我的宝贝？你傻了吗？”
“You stupid mutt! How could you? My baby!”
“你这愚蠢的笨狗！你怎么能？那是我女儿！”
“Bella, would you try to listen for just a second? Please?” Jacob begged. “Leah, back off,” he added.
“贝拉，你能听一下吗？”请？”雅各伯恳求道。“利亚，退后，”他补充道。
Then he wasn’t alone. The two huge wolves reappeared, flanking him on either side.
接着他的同伴出现了。两只巨大的狼回来了，分别站在他两侧，戒备着。
A fearsome snarl ripped through my teeth back at her. The sound disturbed me, but not enough to stop my advance.
一个可怕的咆哮撕裂了我的牙齿在她背后。这声音使我不安，但不足以阻止我前进。
“It was involuntary!” he insisted, backing into the trees.
“这完全是不受控制的！”他强调道，一直退到森林边上。
“That’s my point!” I yelled.
“那正我想说明的。”我大叫。
“You know I don’t think of her that way! Do you think Edward would have let me live this long if I did? All I want is for her to be safe and happy — is that so bad? So different from what you want?” He was shouting right back at me.
“你知道我不是这样想的！你觉得如果我这么做了爱德华还会让我好好的活在世上吗？我所有的愿望只是让她安全、开心和幸福——这真的那么不能原谅吗？跟你所想的那么不同？”他冲我回喊。
“No!” Jacob was insisting at the same time. “How can you even look at it that way? She’s just a baby, for crying out loud!”
“不！”与此同时，雅各布吼道：“你怎么能这样看我？她只是个孩子，一个还只会大哭的婴儿。”
But I felt no pursuit behind me.
但我没发现爱德华有所行动。
Leah curled her lip at me and didn’t move.
利亚向我噘起嘴唇，一动不动。
Emmett laughed.
埃美特狂笑。
“Why should I listen?” I hissed. Fury reigned in my head. It clouded everything else out.
“我为什么要听你的解释？”我吼道，愤怒支配了我整个脑袋，一下子就把其他所有东西踢走。
“Stop her, Edward,” Esme murmured. “She’ll be unhappy if she hurts him.”
“让她冷静下来，爱德华，”埃斯梅低喊：“如果现在她伤害了雅各布，她以后会后悔的。”
“You think you’ll be part of my family as my son-in-law!” I screeched. My bell voice ripped through two octaves and still came out sounding like music.
“你想成为我的家人，我女婿？”我尖叫道，铃铛般的声音陡然升高两个八度，但还是像旋律一样。
“Because you’re the one who told me this. Do you remember? You said we belonged in each other’s lives, right? That we were family. You said that was how you and I were supposed to be. So… now we are. It’s what you wanted.”
“因为是你告诉我这一切的，你记得吗？你说过我们的生命彼此属于对方，不是吗？你说过我们是一家人，你说过我们应该是什么。那么……现在我们不就是了，是你想的那样。”
I glared ferociously. I did dimly remember those words. But my new quick brain was two steps ahead of his nonsense.
我凶狠的瞪着他，朦朦胧胧的记得这些话。但我新生的大脑跑的比他的废话快多了。
“C’mon, Bells! Nessie likes me, too,” he insisted.
“别这样，贝儿！更何况内希（尼斯湖水怪）喜欢我。”他强调。
“It’s not possible. Do you remember how much you wanted me around three days ago? How hard it was to be apart from each other? That’s gone for you now, isn’t it?”
“这不可能。你记得你自己三天前有多想要我陪在身边吗？跟彼此分开有多困难，你不知道吗？只不过现在你已经不想了，不是吗？”
“Fine, you win this one,” Emmett said grudgingly.
“好吧，这次你赢了。”埃美特不情不愿的说。
I glared, not sure what he was implying.
我还是没有移开目光，不确定他想暗示些什么。
“I can’t do that!”
“我做不到！”
“Amazing, isn’t she?” I heard Edward murmur.
“不可思议，不是吗？”我听见爱德华突然自言自语。
Beyond words, I shrieked a growl at him.
完全说不出话来，我朝他嘶吼了一声。
Through my teeth: “Try. Starting now.”
我从牙缝挤了一句：“那你从现在开始尝试吧。”
“You’re going to stay away from her,” I hissed up at Jacob.
“你必须跟她保持距离。”我指示他。
I remembered, and then I understood; a tiny part of me was relieved to have the madness explained. But that relief somehow only made me angrier. Was he expecting that to be enough for me? That one little clarification would make me okay with this?
我记起来了，然后明白了；被这看似疯狂的解释安抚了一点。但接着，我却变得更加愤怒。他以为这样就够了吗？这样一个小小的解释就能让我赞成这事？
“That was her,” he told me. “From the very beginning. We had to be together, even then.”
“就是她，”他告诉我：“从一开始，我们就必须在一起，即使是那时。”
“Run away while you still can,” I threatened.
“在你还能跑的时候，给我滚开！”我威胁。
“She hasn’t gone for his throat even once,” Carlisle agreed, sounding stunned.
“她到现在都没朝他的喉咙咬过去。”卡莱尔惊讶的同意道。
I froze. My breathing stopped. Behind me, I heard the lack of sound that was their anxious reaction.
我僵住了，呼吸都停住了。在我身后，众人都因忧虑而闭嘴了。
“What… did you call her?”
“你……你叫她什么？”
Jacob took a step farther back, managing to look sheepish. “Well,” he mumbled, “that name you came up with is kind of a mouthful and –“
雅各布大退了一步，试图让自己的表情看起来无辜一些：“那个……”他诺诺的说：“那只是口误，口误。而且——”
And then I lunged for his throat.
接着，我就朝他的喉咙攻去。
“You nicknamed my daughter after the Loch Ness Monster?” I screeched.
“你居然随便给我女儿起爱称，还根据那恶心的尼斯湖水怪？”我尖叫。
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