Often, when I looked back over my first three months as an immortal, I imagined how the thread of my life might look in the Fates’ loom — who knew but that it actually existed? I was sure my thread must have changed color; I thought it had probably started out as a nice beige, something supportive and non-confrontational, something that would look good in the background. Now it felt like it must be bright crimson, or maybe glistening gold.
偶尔，当我回头再看自己刚成为吸血鬼的三个月，常常会想象着自己的人生在这神话传说中扮演的角色——谁知道它是不是真的存在。但我确信我的人生轨迹的确是变换了一种色彩；一开始它是平淡的米色，一种温和而没有对抗性的色彩，作为背景色非常适合。现在它却像是一种明艳的深绯色，或者说是一种闪耀的金色。
I took mythology a lot more seriously since I’d become a vampire.
自从自己也变成了个吸血鬼之后，我对神话故事的态度就严肃多了。
I was surprised by some of the threads I got to include in my life. The werewolves, with their deep, woodsy colors, were not something I’d expected; Jacob, of course, and Seth, too. But my old friends Quil and Embry became part of the fabric as they joined Jacob’s pack, and even Sam and Emily were cordial. The tensions between our families eased, mostly due to Renesmee. She was easy to love.
有时我也会为其中一些特别的线条而惊讶。像狼人们那属于森林的深绿色，就是我原来没想到的；其中当然有雅各布，和塞思，而当奎尔和恩布里加入了雅各布的族群后，也成为挂毯上的一部分，甚至山姆和Emily也在上面留下自己的一笔。现在，两个家族之所以关系这么好，要归功于蕾妮斯梅，她太招人喜欢了。
The tapestry of family and friends that wove together around me was a beautiful, glowing thing, full of their bright, complementary colors.
我的家人、我的朋友，纷纷以自己饱满而闪耀的颜色，在我的周围编织出一块独特而美丽的挂毯。
Sue seemed to have taken it on herself to smooth Charlie’s transition into the world of make-believe. She came with him to the Cullens’ most days, though she never seemed truly comfortable here the way her son and most of Jake’s pack did. She did not speak often; she just hovered protectively near Charlie. She was always the first person he looked to when Renesmee did something disturbingly advanced — which was often. In answer, Sue would eye Seth meaningfully as if to say, Yeah, tell me about it.
苏似乎自发的承担起了帮助查理适应这个“虚幻”世界的任务。她总是陪他来卡伦家这边，虽然自己对这儿也不太适应，不像她儿子还有杰克的那些同伴那样。她不经常讲话，只是保护性的在查理周围徘徊。当蕾妮斯梅又有了什么令人不安的成长时，查理求助的眼神总是第一个就给了她。作为回答，苏就会很意味深长的瞄着塞思，像是在说：嗯，还不告诉我。
Sue and Leah Clearwater were interlaced into our life, too — two more I had not anticipated.
苏和利亚克·利尔沃特跟我的人生也产生了交集——又是两个我从没料到的。
Leah was even less comfortable than Sue and was the only part of our recently extended family who was openly hostile to the merger. However, she and Jacob had a new camaraderie that kept her close to us all. I asked him about it once — hesitantly; I didn’t want to pry, but the relationship was so different from the way it used to be that it made me curious. He shrugged and told me it was a pack thing. She was his second-in — command now, his “beta,” as I’d called it once long ago.
但比起利亚，苏还算适应的好的了。利亚是唯一一个作为我们的新成员又反对两家合并的。但不管怎么说，她还是和雅各布发展出一种新的类似同志的感情，让她和我们亲密起来。有一次我吞吞吐吐的问他这事，不是想打探什么，但这种关系跟原来的完全不同，让我非常好奇。他只是耸耸肩告诉我，是狼群的事。现在她是他的副官了，是他的“beta”，很久以前我听说过的那种。
“I figured as long as I was going to do this Alpha thing for real,” Jacob explained, “I’d better nail down the formalities.”
“我琢磨着，只要我在阿尔法这个位置上待一天，”雅各布解释说：“最好就把这种关系正式的确定下来。”
Leah was not happy to be near us, but she was the exception. Happiness was the main component in my life now, the dominant pattern in the tapestry. So much so that my relationship with Jasper was now much closer than I’d ever dreamed it would be.
离我们很近这事儿利亚很不高兴，不过这次她才是不合群的那个。现在，幸福才是我人生的主要部分，是这幅挂毯上最显眼的图案。我是这么开心，因此和贾斯帕的关系也亲密起来，至少比我期待的要好得多。
The new responsibility made Leah feel the need to check in with him often, and since he was always with Renesmee…
新的责任让利亚觉得她有必要经常确认一下他的情况，而他又总是和蕾妮斯梅在一起……
“No one doubts you, Bella, not in the slightest,” he assured me. “You know how Jasper is — he can’t resist a good emotional climate. You’re so happy all the time, love, he gravitates toward you without thinking.”
“没有人怀疑你，贝拉，更不是看不起你，”他安慰着我：“你知道贾斯帕的能力——他没办法抵抗好心情的魅力。你一直是这么幸福快乐，亲爱的，他只是本能的跟着你，根本没多想什么。”
And then Edward hugged me tightly, because nothing pleased him more than my overwhelming ecstasy in this new life.
接着，爱德华紧紧的抱住我，没什么比我对新生活的热爱更能让他开心的了。
“Yeesh!” I complained to Edward one night after we’d put Renesmee in her wrought — iron crib. “If I haven’t killed Charlie or Sue yet, it’s probably not going to happen. I wish Jasper would stop hovering all the time!”
“唉！”一天晚上，我们把蕾妮斯梅哄睡后放进钢筋做的儿童床时，我向爱德华抱怨道：“如果我现在都还没有杀了查理和苏，我以后就更不会了。贾斯帕能不能不要再这样在我周围转来转去了。”
At first I was really annoyed, though.
不过，一开始我还是很苦恼。
There was a flipside to the joy, though. If you turned the fabric of our lives over, I imagined the design on the backside would be woven in the bleak grays of doubt and fear.
事物总是两面的。当翻过光鲜漂亮的挂毯时，我以为另一面会是用一种寒冷灰色的怀疑和害怕编织而成。
And I was euphoric the vast majority of the time. The days were not long enough for me to get my fill of adoring my daughter; the nights did not have enough hours to satisfy my need for Edward.
这段日子，我几乎所有的时间都在愉快中度过。白天总是过的那么快，不够长来装载我对可爱的女儿的崇拜；夜晚又总是那么短暂，没有足够的时间来满足自己对爱德华的渴求。
Renesmee spoke her first word when she was exactly one week old. The word was Momma, which would have made my day, except that I was so frightened by her progress I could barely force my frozen face to smile back at her. It didn’t help that she continued from her first word to her first sentence in the same breath. “Momma, where is Grandpa?” she’d asked in a clear, high soprano, only bothering to speak aloud because I was across the room from her. She’d already asked Rosalie, using her normal (or seriously abnormal, from another point of view) means of communication. Rosalie hadn’t known the answer, so Renesmee had turned to me.
蕾妮斯梅刚满一周时，她讲了人生第一个词——妈妈，这让我一整天都合不拢嘴，除了因为对她的进步实在是太惊讶了而僵在那里，以至于忘了向她回笑。但这没有阻止她马上从第一个词发展到第一句话：“妈妈，外公在哪儿？”她用清晰的女高音般的说，只是有点太大声，因为我在房间的另一边。她甚至还问罗莎莉，用她平常的（或者从另一个角度说，非常不正常的）交流方式。不过罗莎莉并不知道答案，所以她又回过头看我。
When she walked for the first time, fewer than three weeks later, it was similar. She’d simply stared at Alice for a long moment, watching intently as her aunt arranged bouquets in the vases scattered around the room, dancing back and forth across the floor with her arms full of flowers. Renesmee got to her feet, not in the least bit shaky, and crossed the floor almost as gracefully.
两个多星期前，她第一次走路的时候，情形也非常相似。一开始她只是观察了爱丽丝好几十分钟，看着自己的阿姨忙着为房间各处的花瓶插花，捧着一堆的鲜花优雅的跑上跑下。于是蕾妮斯梅自己站起来，一点晃荡都没有，用同样优雅的步子在地板上走着。
Jacob had burst into applause, because that was clearly the response Renesmee wanted. The way he was tied to her made his own reactions secondary; his first reflex was always to give Renesmee whatever she needed. But our eyes met, and I saw all the panic in mine echoed in his. I made my hands clap together, too, trying to hide my fear from her. Edward applauded quietly at my side, and we didn’t need to speak our thoughts to know they were the same.
雅各布送上一阵热烈的掌声，很清楚的知道这是她想要的回应。跟她的联系，让他自己的行为都变得异常起来；他的第一反应永远是给她想要的任何东西，无论是什么。但当我们眼神交汇的时候，我能看见他眼里跟我一样的惊慌失措。不管怎样，我还是鼓起掌来，不想让她发现自己的害怕。爱德华安静的在我身边拍着手，不需要语言也能明白彼此想着同样的东西。
At three months, Renesmee could have been a big one-year-old, or a small two-year — old. She wasn’t shaped exactly like a toddler; she was leaner and more graceful, her proportions were more even, like an adult’s. Her bronze ringlets hung to her waist; I couldn’t bear to cut them, even if Alice would have allowed it. Renesmee could speak with flawless grammar and articulation, but she rarely bothered, preferring to simply show people what she wanted. She could not only walk but run and dance. She could even read.
三个月的时间，蕾妮斯梅就长得像一个一岁多、或者说不到两岁的孩子了。但体型并不太像刚学会走路的小孩，更苗条和优雅，反而像个成人的。褐色的卷发长到腰处，即便爱丽丝也同意把它剪了，我还是下不了手。现在蕾妮斯梅能用精准的语法和发音讲话了，却很少叽叽喳喳，她比较喜欢直接把自己想要说的东西秀给我们看。除了慢步，她还能跑能跳能舞，甚至还会看书。
Alice and Rosalie usually began our day with a fashion show. Renesmee never wore the same clothes twice, partly because she outgrew her clothes almost immediately and partly because Alice and Rosalie were trying to create a baby album that appeared to span years rather than weeks. They took thousands of pictures, documenting every phase of her accelerated childhood.
每天都是从爱丽丝和罗莎莉的服装秀开始，连蕾妮斯梅都从来没穿过同样的衣服。一部分是因为她长的太快，衣服都是用过就小了；另一部分更是因为爱丽丝和罗莎莉试图在这几个星期的时间里，整理出一个看上去像是几年时间的宝宝相册。她们拍了几千张相片，几乎把她加速着前进的童年的每一刻都记录下来了。
Edward and Carlisle threw themselves into research, looking for any answers, anything to expect. There was very little to be found, and none of it verifiable.
爱德华和卡莱尔用尽各种办法研究着，翻着资料，寻找任何可能的答案，任何希望的所在。但几乎什么都没发现，没有任何确实存在的证据。
“‘There is sweet music here,'” she read without hesitation, “‘that softer falls than petals from blown roses on the grass, or night-dews on still waters between walls of shadowy granite, in a gleaming pass — ‘”
“‘甜美的音乐在这儿轻轻的流淌’，”她毫不犹豫的读出来：“‘像草地上碾落的花瓣在微微的飞扬，又像背阴的岩石上露珠慢慢的酝酿——’”（注1，脑细胞死了不少在这里）
My hand was robotic as I took the book back.
我像个机器人一样呆呆的取回诗集。
“If you read, how will you fall asleep?” I asked in a voice that had barely escaped shaking.
“你怎么能一边朗读，一边又睡着了呢？”我好不容易止住惊讶的颤抖，问。
I’d been reading Tennyson to her one night, because the flow and rhythm of his poetry seemed restful. (I had to search constantly for new material; Renesmee didn’t like repetition in her bedtime stories as other children supposedly did, and she had no patience for picture books.) She reached up to touch my cheek, the image in her mind one of us, only with her holding the book. I gave it to her, smiling.
有天晚上我给她读了丁尼生的作品，他诗歌里流畅的旋律能让人舒缓情绪，放松心情。（现在，我不得不到处去找新的书，蕾妮斯梅讨厌重复一般小孩喜欢的睡前故事，而且对图画故事书一点兴趣都没有。）她伸出手放到我脸上，脑海中只出现了一幅图案——她自己拿着那本书。我把书给她，微笑着。
By Carlisle’s calculations, the growth of her body was gradually slowing; her mind continued to race on ahead. Even if the rate of decrease held steady, she’d still be an adult in no more than four years.
从卡莱尔的记录可以看出，她身体上的成长正在放慢脚步；但精神上的成熟还是赛跑般大步前进。但即使这速度在今后减慢下来，她还是会在四年内成为一个成年人。
Four years. And an old woman by fifteen. Just fifteen years of life.
四年……意味着15年后她就会变成一个老婆婆。仅仅15年的生命。
Carlisle and Edward discussed our options for the future from every angle in low voices that I tried not to hear. They never had these discussions when Jacob was around, because there was one sure way to halt aging, and that wasn’t something Jacob was likely to be excited about. I wasn’t. Too dangerous! my instincts screamed at me. Jacob and Renesmee seemed alike in so many ways, both half-and-half beings, two things at the same time. And all the werewolf lore insisted that vampire venom was a death sentence rather than a course to immortality…
卡莱尔和爱德华从各个方面考虑了我们未来可能的选择，尽管他们总是压着嗓子讨论，我还是伸长了耳朵偷听。不过他俩儿从来不在雅各布面前讨论，因为他们得出的唯一那个让她停止生长的方法，绝对不是雅各布乐意接受的。我也不，太危险了！直觉对我尖叫着，雅各布和蕾妮斯梅看上去有那么多相似的地方，两个人都是混种，同时都是两种生物。而所有的狼人的传说都告诉我，吸血鬼的毒液对于任何一个“神话生命”来说，都更像是死亡的使者而不是永生的礼物。
But she was so healthy. Vital, bright, glowing, and happy. Her conspicuous well-being made it easy for me to be happy with her in the moment and leave the future for tomorrow.
但她是那么健康，聪明，充满活力，那么开心幸福。她的不同寻常常让我为了她的此刻而高兴，把对她未来的忧虑丢到明天。
Carlisle and Edward had exhausted the research they could do from a distance, and now we were preparing to follow old legends at their source. We were going back to Brazil, starting there. The Ticunas had legends about children like Renesmee… If other children like her had ever existed, perhaps some tale of the life span of half-mortal children still lingered…
某种意义来说，卡莱尔和爱德华已经试遍了所有的方法，现在我们决定跟随古老的传说的脚印。从巴西开始，Ticuna人在那有关于类似蕾妮斯梅的孩子的传说……如果真的有像她一样的孩子存在过的话，或许就会流传出一些半人类小孩的故事。
This was the only argument that Edward and I had gotten in since I’d become a vampire. The main point of contention was the “solo’ part. But the facts were what they were, and my plan was the only one that made rational sense. I had to go see the Volturi, and I had to do it absolutely alone.
自从我成为吸血鬼以来，这是我和爱德华唯一一次争吵。主要问题就是“一个人去”这块儿。但事实就是事实，因此我的计划才是唯一有效的那个。我得去见沃尔图里，一个人。
Until the day that Aro’s present showed up, I didn’t know that Alice had sent a wedding announcement to the Volturi leaders; we’d been far away on Esme’s island when she’d seen a vision of Volturi soldiers — Jane and Alec, the devastatingly powerful twins, among them. Caius was planning to send a hunting party to see if I was still human, against their edict (because I knew about the secret vampire world, I either must join it or be silenced… permanently). So Alice had mailed the announcement, seeing that this would delay them as they deciphered the meaning behind it. But they would come eventually. That was certain.
直到阿罗的礼物送到的那天，我都不知道爱丽丝给沃尔图里的领袖们送了婚礼通知。当我们在千里之外的埃斯梅岛上，她看见了沃尔图里的士兵——简和亚历克的到来预示，那对拥有可怕力量的双胞胎。卡尤斯筹划着一场吸血盛宴，来查看我是不是还是人类，还违抗着他们的禁令（因为知道了吸血鬼世界的秘密，所以要么也变成他们的一员，要么被他们灭口……永远的）。因此爱丽丝给他们寄了那封通知，相信看到那个会推迟他们的计划。但是无论如何，最后他们还是要来的。
The only real question left was exactly when we would go.
剩下唯一一个问题就是，我们什么时候离开。
I was the holdup. A small part of it was that I wanted to stay near Forks until after the holidays, for Charlie’s sake. But more than that, there was a different journey that I knew had to come first — that was the clear priority. Also, it had to be a solo trip.
我被这难住了。一小部分是因为我想留在福克斯小镇附近直到假期结束，因为查理的缘故。但更多是因为，我清楚的知道自己必须先准备一次特别旅行——这个绝对是最先要完成的事。而且，还得我自己一个人去。
Even freed from old nightmares, from any dreams at all, it was impossible to forget the Volturi. Nor did they leave us without reminders.
尽管早不为噩梦所困，尽管早不做梦了，但要忘记沃尔图里家族还是不可能的任务。更别说他们还留下了提醒。
The present itself was not overtly threatening. Extravagant, yes, almost frightening in that very extravagance. The threat was in the parting line of Aro’s congratulatory note, written in black ink on a square of heavy, plain white paper in Aro’s own hand:
礼物本身倒不是太挑衅。奢华？是的，几乎奢华得恐怖。挑衅的地方在于阿罗亲手写的一段祝贺词，白纸上那沉重的黑色笔迹：
The necklace was simple — gold woven into a thick rope of a chain, almost scaled, like a smooth snake that would curl close around the throat. One jewel hung suspended from the rope: a white diamond the size of a golf ball.
项链只是简单的金链——编织成厚重的绳索形，甚至能看见其上的纹路，戴着它就像脖子处盘着一条光滑的蟒蛇。在它中间吊着一颗宝石——通透的无色钻石——有高尔夫球那么大。
The gift was presented in an ornately carved, ancient wooden box inlaid with gold and mother-of-pearl, ornamented with a rainbow of gemstones. Alice said the box itself was a priceless treasure, that it would have outshone just about any piece of jewelry besides the one inside it.
整个礼物被装在一个雕刻精美的、古老木盒里，木盒表面镶嵌着黄金和珍珠母，以及七彩的宝石。爱丽丝告诉我，光这个盒子就是价值连城的珍宝，可能除了盒子里装着的那件，世界上没什么珠宝能比这个盒子更值钱。
I so look forward to seeing the new Mrs. Cullen in person.
我无比期待亲自探望我们的新卡伦太太。
“I always wondered where the crown jewels disappeared to after John of England pawned them in the thirteenth century,” Carlisle said. “I suppose it doesn’t surprise me that the Volturi have their share.”
“以前我总在想，自从13世纪时英格兰国王约翰一世把它们抵押出去之后，王冠宝石就一直不知所踪，”卡莱尔说：“但如果是被沃尔图里家收藏了，我想我一定不会感到惊讶。”
“They won’t hurt me,” I’d said as soothingly as I could manage, forcing my voice to sound sure. “They have no reason to. I’m a vampire. Case closed.”
“他们不会伤害我的，”我尽量轻松的说，让自己的声音听上去非常自信：“他们没有理由那么做。我是个吸血鬼，讨论完毕。”
“You’re not going alone,” Edward had insisted through his teeth, his hands clenching into fists.
“你不能单独去，”爱德华咬着牙坚持，双手握紧拳头。
The Volturi needed to see that I was immortal, that the Cullens had been obedient to the Volturi’s orders, and they needed to see this soon. They could not be allowed near Forks. There was only one way to keep our life here safe.
沃尔图里家族要亲眼确认我已经成为黑暗世界的一员，确认卡伦家的人没有违背他们的命令，在最短时间内。他们不能接近福克斯小镇，因此只有唯一的一个方法能让我们安全的住在这儿。
The unsubtle reminder in Aro’s note interested me more than the jewel.
我对阿罗信里公然的提醒的兴趣，比对那项链的兴趣要大得多。
“No. Absolutely no.”
“不，绝对不行。”
“Edward, it’s the only way to protect her.”
“爱德华，这是唯一能保护蕾妮斯梅的办法。”
Even in the short time I’d known Aro, I’d been able to see that he was a collector — and his most prized treasures were his living pieces. He coveted beauty, talent, and rarity in his immortal followers more than any jewel locked in his vaults. It was unfortunate enough that he’d begun to covet Alice’s and Edward’s abilities. I would give him no more reason to be jealous of Carlisle’s family. Renesmee was beautiful and gifted and unique — she was one of a kind. He could not be allowed to see her, not even through someone’s thoughts.
即使我对阿罗的印象只有匆匆一面，但已经足够让我明白他是怎样一个收藏家——他最珍贵的藏品不是那些珠宝，而是活着的人。他垂涎一切美丽、天才和罕见的吸血鬼，而不是那些锁在地窖里的珠宝。他对爱丽丝和爱德华能力的渴望对我们来说已经够不幸的了，我不能再给他任何嫉恨卡莱尔的家人的理由。蕾妮斯梅是那样美丽、天才，那样独特——她自成一派。他绝对不能看到她，不管是从谁的脑袋里。
And he hadn’t been able to argue with that. My logic was watertight.
这让他无话可说，我的理由天衣无缝。
Alice did not see any trouble with my trip, but she was worried by the indistinct quality of her visions. She said they were sometimes similarly hazy when there were outside decisions that might conflict but that had not been solidly resolved. This uncertainty made Edward, already hesitant, extremely opposed to what I had to do. He wanted to come with me as far as my connection in London, but I wouldn’t leave Renesmee without both her parents. Carlisle was coming instead. It made both Edward and me a little more relaxed, knowing that Carlisle would be only a few hours away from me.
爱丽丝也没看见我的旅行有任何麻烦，虽然她对自己预言的时效性表示怀疑。她说，如果有外部冲突的因素，或者当事人自己没下定决心，都会造成未来景象的模糊不清。这一点不确定已经足够让犹豫中的爱德华坚决反对我要做的事了。他想陪着我到伦敦，但我不同意我们俩同时离开蕾妮斯梅。最后的决定是让卡莱尔代替他，这让爱德华和我都松了一口气，知道我只会离开卡莱尔几个小时。
Alice kept searching for the future, but the things she found were unrelated to what she was looking for. A new trend in the stock market; a possible visit of reconciliation from Irina, though her decision was not firm; a snowstorm that wouldn’t hit for another six weeks; a call from Renee (I was practicing my “rough” voice, and getting better at it every day — to Renee’s knowledge, I was still sick, but mending).
爱丽丝一直搜索着未来信息，但她看到的东西跟我们想知道的一点关系都没有。股票市场的新趋势；伊琳娜可能过来和我们和解，虽然她还没下定决心；接下来的6个星期都不会有暴风雪的袭击；勒妮会打电话过来（让我开始练习压着嗓子的讲话，现在已经学得不错了——勒妮以为我还病着，虽然情况在好转）。
And I was the only one whose thoughts he could not hear. Of course I would go alone.
而我是他唯一不能读心的人，我当然得自己去。
We bought the tickets for Italy the day after Renesmee turned three months. I planned for it to be a very short trip, so I hadn’t told Charlie about it. Jacob knew, and he took Edward’s view on things. However, today the argument was about Brazil. Jacob was determined to come with us.
蕾妮斯梅三个月生日的那天，我们买了去意大利的机票。在计划中这会是一个短暂的旅行，所以我也没告诉查理。雅各布倒是知道，而且还站在爱德华那边。不管怎样，今天的争论是关于巴西的问题，他也想去。
Renesmee was quite clear on the whole good vs. bad as it applied to hunting humans; she just thought that donated blood made a nice compromise. Human food filled her and it seemed compatible with her system, but she reacted to all varieties of solid food with the same martyred endurance I had once given cauliflower and lima beans. Animal blood was better than that, at least. She had a competitive nature, and the challenge of beating Jacob made her excited to hunt.
蕾妮斯梅清楚知道猎食人类的好处和坏处，也明白现在这种无偿的食物是最好的妥协方案。人类的食物也能喂饱她，跟她的消化系统完全不排斥，但她的反应让我觉得像是个烈士在受刑——那次我喂她吃花椰菜和青豆。她天性热爱竞赛，打败雅各布的挑战让她对打猎无比兴奋。
The three of us, Jacob, Renesmee, and I, were hunting together. The diet of animal blood wasn’t Renesmee’s favorite thing — and that was why Jacob was allowed to come along. Jacob had made it a contest between them, and that made her more willing than anything else.
我们叁儿，雅各布、蕾妮斯梅和我，一起去过打猎。动物的血液不是蕾妮斯梅最喜欢的食物——但这也是为什么雅各布被批准和我们一起，他把打猎说成是他俩儿之间的比赛，让她变得比任何人都期待。
“Jacob,” I said, trying to reason with him again while Renesmee danced ahead of us into the long clearing, searching for a scent she liked. “You’ve got obligations here. Seth, Leah –“
“雅各布，”当蕾妮斯梅跳着舞，在前面的长块空地搜索着她喜欢的气味时，我试图说服他：“在这儿你有你自己的责任。塞思和利亚——”
He snorted. “I’m not my pack’s nanny. They’ve all got responsibilities in La Push anyway.”
他喷了下鼻子：“我又不是狼群的保姆，他们全部都对LaPush负有责任。”
As we watched, she crouched for an instant and then sprang fifteen feet up into the air. Her little hands closed around a flake, and she dropped lightly to her feet.
当我们望着她的时候，她突然蹲下身然后向上跃起15英尺高，捉住一片小小的雪花轻轻的落地。
“Sort of like you? Are you officially dropping out of high school, then? If you’re going to keep up with Renesmee, you’re going to have to study a lot harder.”
“那跟你是一样的吗？那你正式退学了吗？如果你想赶上蕾妮斯梅的进度，你最好勤奋一点。”
“It’s just a sabbatical. I’ll get back to school when things… slow down.”
“不就当放了个假嘛。等……慢下来，我会回学校的。”
I lost my concentration on my side of the disagreement when he said that, and we both automatically looked at Renesmee.
当他说完这句话后，我的注意力被转移了，接着我们同时不自觉的望向蕾妮斯梅。
She was staring at the snowflakes fluttering high above her head, melting before they could stick to the yellowed grass in the long arrowhead-shaped meadow that we were standing in. Her ruffled ivory dress was just a shade darker than the snow, and her reddish-brown curls managed to shimmer, though the sun was buried deeply behind the clouds.
她正凝视着头顶上飘落的雪花，它们被枯黄的草丛刺穿前纷纷融化了，在我们站着的这块箭头形的空地上。身上乳白色的百褶裙只比雪花的颜色深一点点，在这太阳也深藏在云层后的天气里，她红棕色的卷发还是点点闪烁。
Renesmee touched his face, scowling adorably as we all listened to the sound of a small herd of elk moving farther into the wood.
蕾妮斯梅摸着他的脸，严肃的皱着眉头——我们都听到一小群麋鹿在森林里远去的声音。
“Pretty,” Jacob called to her appreciatively. “But I think you’re stalling, Nessie.”
“很可爱，”雅各布赞赏的说：“但我怎么觉得你在拖延时间啊，内希。”
She turned to us with her shocking smile — truly, it wasn’t something you could get used to — and opened her hands to show us the perfectly formed eight-pointed ice star in her palm before it melted.
她开心的笑着向我们跑来——真的，那种笑容你永远都不会厌倦——打开双手，趁还没融化给我们秀着自己的战利品，完美的八角冰星静静的卧在她手心。
“Suuuure you’re not thirsty, Nessie,” Jacob answered a little sarcastically, but more indulgently than anything else. “You’re just afraid I’ll catch the biggest one again!”
“你肯定不渴，对吗内希，”雅各布带点嘲笑的说，不过听得出来还是比任何人都要宠她：“只是怕再看到像上次那头那么大的？”
She flipped backward out of Jacob’s arms, landing lightly on her feet, and rolled her eyes — she looked so much like Edward when she did that. Then she darted off toward the trees.
她从雅各布的怀抱中挣脱出来，轻轻的落地，然后翻了个白眼——当她这么做的时候，特别的像爱德华。接着向森林深处进发。
“Got it,” Jacob said when I leaned as if to follow. He yanked his t-shirt off as he charged after her into the forest, already trembling. “It doesn’t count if you cheat,” he called to Renesmee.
“明白。”当我正准备跟上去的时候，雅各布喊道。他把自己T恤猛地扯下来跟了上去，已经变身了：“作弊的话，就不算数。”他朝蕾妮斯梅吼了句。
She bounded back to Jacob; he held his arms out at exactly the moment she leaped into them. They had the move perfectly synchronized. She did this when she had something to say. She still preferred not to speak aloud.
她扑向雅各布，就在她动起来那刻他抓着她的双手举起她，两人的动作完全是同时的。每当她想说什么的时候就会这么做，她还是不太喜欢大声讲出来。
I paused, giving my hunters a few minutes’ head start. It would be beyond simple to track them, and Renesmee would love to surprise me with the size of her prey. I smiled again.
我等了一会儿，打算给我的小猎手一点领先的时间。毕竟要追上他们太简单了，而且每次蕾妮斯梅都喜欢猎点什么体形巨大的猎物让我惊讶一下。想到这儿，我又笑出来了。
I smiled at the leaves they left fluttering behind them, shaking my head. Jacob was more a child than Renesmee sometimes.
我微笑着看着他们的离去后留下的飞舞落叶，叹息的摇摇头。有时，雅各布比蕾妮斯梅还像小孩。
The narrow meadow was very still, very empty. The fluttering snow was thinning above me, almost gone. Alice had seen that it wouldn’t stick for many weeks.
狭长的草场安静下来，身上飞扬的雪花也慢慢融化，几乎不见踪影了。爱丽丝告诉我们这场暴风雪不会持续很多个星期。
Usually Edward and I came together on these hunting trips. But Edward was with Carlisle today, planning the trip to Rio, talking behind Jacob’s back… I frowned. When I returned, I would take Jacob’s side. He should come with us. He had as big a stake in this as any of us — his entire life was at stake, just like mine.
平时爱德华会和我们一起来，但今天他要跟卡莱尔讨论下去意大利的行程，背着雅各布……我皱着眉头想。看来回去后，我得站在雅各布那边才行。他应该和我们一起去，对他来说这场赌博的赌注跟我的一样大——他的整个人生。
While my thoughts were lost in the near future, my eyes swept the mountainside routinely, searching for prey, searching for danger. I didn’t think about it; the urge was an automatic thing.
当我的思绪沉浸在不远的未来的时候，眼睛不自觉的来回扫视着山脉，寻找着猎物的踪迹，和任何危险的迹象。没有特意的进行，这完全是本能的行为。
Or perhaps there was a reason for my scanning, some tiny trigger that my razor-sharp senses had caught before I realized it consciously.
但或许还是有原因的，远在我真正意识到之前，自己那手术刀般敏锐的触觉就感觉到一些细微的迹象。
She stared back.
她也盯着我。
She was a stranger to me. I was absolutely certain I’d never seen her before, even as a human. None of the faces in my muddy memory were the same as this one. But I knew her at once from her dark golden eyes.
她比我强壮，毋庸置疑。但我很确定自己从来就没有见过她，甚至是人类的时候。模糊的回忆里没有一张脸跟眼前的一样，但看见她的暗金色的双眸我想我知道她是谁了。
That she was a vampire was obvious. Her skin was marble white, the texture a million times smoother than human skin. Even under the clouds, she glistened ever so slightly. If her skin had not given her away, her stillness would have. Only vampires and statues could be so perfectly motionless.
很明显她也是个吸血鬼。皮肤如大理石般洁白，肌肤的纹理比人类的要光滑一百万倍，即使在乌云的笼罩下，还是微微的泛着闪光。就算她的皮肤没有出卖她，她一直静止的动作也会，只有吸血鬼才能如此完美的无感情肃立。
As my eyes flitted across the edge of a distant cliff, standing out starkly blue-gray against the green-black forest, a glint of silver — or was it gold? — gripped my attention.
当目光掠过远处一个悬崖的边缘时，好像看到那里站着一个僵硬的蓝灰色身影，在深绿色的森林背景的衬托下发出一点银色的闪光点——还是金色？牢牢的抓住了我的注意力。
Her hair was pale, pale blond, almost silver. This was the gleam that had caught my eye. It hung straight as a ruler to a blunt edge at her chin, parted evenly down the center.
她的头发是苍白的淡金，近乎银色了，相信这就是让我注意到她的闪光点所在。头发顺直的垂落着，少许微弯的发尖碰到了下巴。
My gaze zeroed in on the color that shouldn’t have been there, so far away in the haze that an eagle wouldn’t have been able to make it out. I stared.
我调整着，眼睛聚焦到那不应该出现在这里的颜色身上，那么远的距离应该不是老鹰能做到的。我盯着它。
For one moment I stared at her, and she stared back. I wondered if she would guess immediately who I was as well. I half-raised my hand, about to wave, but her lip twisted the tiniest bit, making her face suddenly hostile.
有那么一刻我俩对望的时候，我在想她是否也马上猜到我是谁。我半举起手，正准备打个招呼，她的嘴唇突然诡异的扯起，表情变得充满敌意。
Her face spasmed in pain.
她的脸痛苦的扭曲着。
I heard Renesmee’s cry of victory from the forest, heard Jacob’s echoing howl, and saw Irina’s face jerk reflexively to the sound when it echoed to her a few seconds later. Her gaze cut slightly to the right, and I knew what she was seeing. An enormous russet werewolf, perhaps the very one who had killed her Laurent. How long had she been watching us? Long enough to see our affectionate exchange before, I was sure.
我听见了森林里传来的蕾妮斯梅胜利的欢呼和雅各布不甘的吼叫声，过了一下当声音传到伊琳娜那边后，她的脸不由自主的抽搐起来。她的目光向右方扫去，我知道她在看什么。一个巨大的赤褐色狼人从林中出来，或许就是杀了她的Laurent的那个。她观察了我们多久了？至少看见了我们刚才温馨的玩闹，我敢肯定。
Irina had decided to come after all.
要知道伊琳娜是决定过来拜访了的。
“Crap!” I groaned.
“狗屎！”我叹息着。
I sprinted into the forest after Renesmee and Jacob, unwilling to have them out of my sight. I didn’t know which direction Irina had taken, or exactly how furious she was right now. Vengeance was a common obsession for vampires, one that was not easy to suppress.
跟着蕾妮斯梅和雅各布我冲进森林，不想让他们跑出我视线范围以外。我并不清楚伊琳娜朝哪个方向跑去，或者她此刻有多愤怒。复仇对于吸血鬼来说是一个永恒的困扰，很难压抑平服。
When the faint sound reached me, she had already turned and disappeared into the forest.
当痛苦的吼声传到我这边的时候，她已经转身消失在森林中了。
Instinctually, I opened my hands in front of me in an apologetic gesture. She turned back to me, and her lip curled back over her teeth. Her jaw unlocked as she growled.
不自觉的，我向她打了个抱歉的手势。她回过头看着我，咬着自己的下唇，嘶吼出来。
“Mine is bigger,” I heard Renesmee insist as I burst through the thick thornbushes to the small open space where they stood.
“我的更大，”听见蕾妮斯梅耍赖的声音，我穿过厚厚的荆棘丛来到他们身处的小空地。
Jacob’s ears flattened as he took in my expression; he crouched forward, baring his teeth — his muzzle was streaked with blood from his kill. His eyes raked the forest. I could hear the growl building in his throat.
当雅各布看到我焦虑的表情的时候，耳朵马上竖起来，朝前方蹲伏下来露出牙齿——脸上满是猎物鲜血的痕迹，眼睛来回扫视着前方树林，我能看出他喉咙里随时准备着的威胁咆哮。
Running at full speed, it only took me two seconds to reach them.
全速奔跑，两秒后我追上了他们。
Renesmee was every bit as alert as Jacob. Abandoning the dead stag at her feet, she leaped into my waiting arms, pressing her curious hands against my cheeks.
蕾妮斯梅的警觉心并不比雅各布低，她马上丢下雄鹿的尸体，蹦到我怀里，伸出手碰着我的脸问。
“I’m overreacting,” I assured them quickly. “It’s okay, I think. Hold on.”
“我有点反应过度了。”我迅速安慰他们说：“没什么事，我想。先别急。”
I pulled out my cell phone and hit the speed dial. Edward answered on the first ring. Jacob and Renesmee listened intently to my side as I filled Edward in.
拿出手机飞快的拨了一串号码，刚响了一声爱德华就听了。雅各布和蕾妮斯梅在我身边安静的听着我们的对话。
“Come, bring Carlisle,” I trilled so fast I wondered if Jacob could keep up. “I saw Irina, and she saw me, but then she saw Jacob and she got mad and ran away, I think. She hasn’t shown up here — yet, anyway — but she looked pretty upset so maybe she will. If she doesn’t, you and Carlisle have to go after her and talk to her. I feel so bad.”
“快点过来，带上卡莱尔，”语速快得连雅各布都不一定听的清：“我刚看见伊琳娜，她肯定也看到我了。可是接着她发现雅各布，然后像疯子一样跑开。都现在都还没再出现——暂时——但是她看上去很不高兴，所以可能……就算不是，你跟卡莱尔最好还是跟她谈谈。我的预感很不好。”
“She was up on that ridge,” I told them at once, pointing out the spot. If Irina was fleeing, she already had quite a head start. Would she stop and listen to Carlisle? Her expression before made me think not.
“她刚才在那边的山脊上，”我马上告诉他们，指着那个悬崖。如果伊琳娜真的打算逃跑，那可不是个好的开始。她会停下来跟卡莱尔谈谈吗？她之前的表情让我给出了否定的回答。
We darted back to the long meadow and then waited silently as Jacob and I listened carefully for the sound of an approach we did not recognize.
我们回到草场那边静静的等待着，边搜索着任何不受欢迎的访客出现的声音。
“We’ll be there in half a minute,” Edward assured me, and I could hear the whoosh of the wind his running made.
“我们半分钟内到你们那儿，”爱德华安慰道，话筒里传出奔跑时风吹的声音。
When the sound came, though, it was very familiar. And then Edward was at my side, Carlisle a few seconds behind. I was surprised to hear the heavy pad of big paws following behind Carlisle. I supposed I shouldn’t have been shocked. With Renesmee in even a hint of danger, of course Jacob would call in reinforcements.
最后，一个熟悉的声音传过来了。接着爱德华出现在我身旁，卡莱尔在不远的后面，身后还跟着一串沉重的脚步声。我想自己不应该对此感到惊讶，毕竟只要有任何可能威胁到蕾妮斯梅安全的东西，雅各布都会马上召集援军。
Jacob rumbled.
雅各布在旁边咆哮着。
“Maybe you should call Emmett and Jasper and have them come with you. She looked… really upset. She growled at me.”
“或许我们应该叫上埃美特和贾斯帕，她看上去真的……非常愤怒。还对我嘶吼。”
“What?” Edward said angrily.
“什么？”爱德华生气的问。
“I’m coming with you,” Edward insisted.
“我跟你一起去。”爱德华固执的坚持。
Carlisle put a hand on his arm. “She’s grieving. I’ll go after her.”
卡莱尔双手按了按爱德华的肩膀说：“她很伤心，我会追上她的。”
Jacob huffed impatiently and poked my back with his nose. He must want Renesmee back at the safety of the house, just in case. I agreed with him on that, and we hurried home with Seth and Leah running at our flanks.
雅各布不耐烦的用鼻子顶了顶我，他肯定是想让蕾妮斯梅尽快回到安全的住所，以防万一。我非常同意这点，于是在塞思和利亚的保护下我们朝房子赶去。
They exchanged a long glance — perhaps Carlisle was measuring Edward’s irritation with Irina against his helpfulness as a mind reader. Finally, Carlisle nodded, and they took off to find the trail without calling for Jasper or Emmett.
他们相互打量了对方好一会儿——可能卡莱尔正在衡量着伊琳娜对爱德华的愤怒和爱德华读心的能力之间的分量。最终，卡莱尔点了点头，决定由他们俩去寻找她，而不叫上埃美特和贾斯帕。
Renesmee was complacent in my arms, one hand still resting on my face. Since the hunting trip had been aborted, she would just have to make do with donated blood. Her thoughts were a little smug.
蕾妮斯梅舒服的躺在我怀里，一只手还是放在我脸上。既然捕猎计划流产了，她也只好继续喝血库的捐赠血了，她自以为是的俏皮说。
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