Bella’s body, streaming with red, started to twitch, jerking around in Rosalie’s arms like she was being electrocuted. All the while, her face was blank — unconscious. It was the wild thrashing from inside the center of her body that moved her. As she convulsed, sharp snaps and cracks kept time with the spasms.
贝拉的身体被红色包裹，开始在罗莎莉怀里痉挛，仿佛她在受电刑一般，她的脸始终茫然——失去知觉。她身体中野蛮的殴打带动她的身体移动。在她抽搐时，什么东西断裂的声音仍在不停响起。
“Alice — get Carlisle on the phone!” Rosalie screeched.
“爱丽丝——打电话叫卡莱尔！”罗莎莉尖叫。
Rosalie and Edward were frozen for the shortest half second, and then they broke. Rosalie whipped Bella’s body into her arms, and, shouting so fast it was hard to separate the individual words, she and Edward shot up the staircase to the second floor.
罗莎莉和爱德华愣了半秒钟，然后他们打破这僵局。罗莎莉把贝拉抱起来，飞快的喊着什么，她说的很快以致于很难吧每个词分开来。她和爱德华冲向通往第二层的楼梯。
I sprinted after them.
我紧跟在他们后面。
The room I followed them to looked like an emergency ward set up in the middle of a library. The lights were brilliant and white. Bella was on a table under the glare, skin ghostly in the spotlight. Her body flopped, a fish on the sand. Rosalie pinned Bella down, yanking and ripping her clothes out of the way, while Edward stabbed a syringe into her arm.
我随他们来的房间仿佛是一个在图书馆中建起的紧急病房。灯闪着炽白的光。贝拉躺在强光下的桌子上，皮肤在灯光下显得很可怕。她的身体滚下来，像一条在沙滩上的鱼。当爱德华把注射器插入他的胳膊时，罗莎莉固定住她，猛然扯掉她身上的衣物。
“Morphine!” Edward yelled at Rosalie.
“吗啡！”爱德华向罗莎莉喊道。
Somewhere in this, Bella came around. She responded to their words with a shriek that clawed at my eardrums.
在这样的情况下，贝拉苏醒了。她以一声尖叫回应他们的话，那尖叫撕扯着我的耳膜。
I saw the red spots pop out when her scream broke the blood vessels in her eyes.
我看到当她尖叫时，破裂的血管在她眼中形成红斑。
“He’s suffocating!”
“他窒息了！”
“What’s happening, Edward?”
“发生什么了，爱德华？”
“NO! NOW –!” Another gush of blood choked off what she was shrieking. He held her head up, desperately trying to clear her mouth so that she could breathe again.
“不！现在——！”又一些喷涌出的鲜血阻止了她的尖叫。他支撑起她的头，拼命尝试清干净她的嘴以便她能继续呼吸。
In the bright light, Bella’s skin seemed more purple and black than it was white. Deep red was seeping beneath the skin over the huge, shuddering bulge of her stomach.
在耀眼的灯光下，贝拉的皮肤变得更加的黑紫。深红色从她隆起腹部的皮肤下渗透出来。
Alice darted into the room and clipped a little blue earpiece under Rosalie’s hair. Then Alice backed away, her gold eyes wide and burning, while Rosalie hissed frantically into the phone.
爱丽丝冲进屋里，飞快地把一个小小的蓝色耳机塞在罗莎莉的头发下面。然后爱丽丝又出去了，当罗莎莉疯狂的对着电话咆哮时，她金色的眼睛燃烧着。
Rosalie’s hand came up with a scalpel.
罗莎莉的递过一把手术刀。
“The morphine –” Edward growled.
“吗啡——（就是止痛剂）”爱德华咆哮着。
How many times had I imagined her naked? Now I couldn’t look. I was afraid to have these memories in my head.
我曾多少次幻想过她的裸体？现在我不能看。我害怕这留在我脑中的记忆。
“Get him OUT!” she screamed. “He can’t BREATHE! Do it NOW!”
“把他拿出来！”她嘶喊着。“他不能呼吸了！现在就做！”
“The placenta must have detached!”
“胎盘已经分离了！”
“There’s no time,” Rosalie hissed. “He’s dying!”
“没时间了，”罗莎莉发出嘶嘶声。“他要死了！”
And then Rosalie lost her focus. I saw the expression on her face shift, saw her lips pull back from her teeth and her black eyes glint with thirst.
接着，罗莎莉失去了聚焦。我看到她脸上的表情变了，看到她的嘴唇翻起露出尖牙，她黑色的眼睛闪烁着饥渴。
“Let the morphine spread!” Edward shouted at her.
“让吗啡扩散！”爱德华对她喊道。
Her hand came down on Bella’s stomach, and vivid red spouted out from where she pierced the skin. It was like a bucket being turned over, a faucet twisted to full. Bella jerked, but didn’t scream. She was still choking.
她的手按在贝拉腹部，鲜艳的红色从她划破的皮肤下喷涌而出。那就像是倾倒过一个水桶，一个水龙头开到最大。贝拉猛地抽搐一下，但没有尖叫。她仍然透不过气来。
I launched myself at Rosalie, jumping across the table without bothering to phase. As I hit her stone body, knocking her toward the door, I felt the scalpel in her hand stab deep into my left arm. My right palm smashed against her face, locking her jaw and blocking her airways.
我向罗莎莉发起进攻，猛然跳过桌子。当我撞上她石头般的躯体，把她打到门上时，我感到她手上的手术刀深深刺入我的左臂。我的右手掌扇了她一巴掌，锁住她的下颌然后封锁她的空路。
I used my grip on Rosalie’s face to swing her body out so that I could land a solid kick in her gut; it was like kicking concrete. She flew into the door frame, buckling one side of it. The little speaker in her ear crackled into pieces. Then Alice was there, yanking her by the throat to get her into the hall.
我紧抓着罗莎莉的脸，甩动她的躯体，这样我就能狠狠地给她的腹部来上一击；那简直像踢在水泥上一样。她飞过门槛，抓住了一边。她耳朵里的小小耳机在地上摔得粉碎。然后，爱丽丝过来了，卡住她的喉咙把她扔向大厅。
“No, Rose!” Edward roared, but his hands were trapped, trying to prop Bella upright so she could breathe.
“不，罗莎！”爱德华大吼，但他的手占住了，试着支撑贝拉使她保持直立，以便能够呼吸。
“Get her breathing! I’ve got to get him out before –“
“让她呼吸！我要让他出来——”
“Her spine,” he choked in horror.
“她的脊椎，”他因为恐惧而呆住了。
“Alice, get her out of here!” Edward shouted. “Take her to Jasper and keep her there! Jacob, I need you!”
“爱丽丝，把他弄出去！”爱德华喊道。“把她交给贾斯帕让她留在那！雅各布，我需要你！”
“Get it out of her!” I snarled, flinging the scalpel at him. “She won’t feel anything now!”
“把那东西从她身体里拿出来！”我厉声说，把手术刀扔给他。“她现在什么也感觉不到了！”
I judged his face swiftly, looking for any sign that he was going to react like Rosalie. There was nothing but single-minded ferocity.
我很快地审视一遍他的脸，寻找哪怕一丝他会像罗莎莉一样发狂的标记。但那什么也没有，只有单纯的狂暴。
And I had to give it to Blondie — she didn’t put up an ounce of fight. She wanted us to win. She let me trash her like that, to save Bella. Well, to save the thing.
然后我把一切交给那个肤色白皙的女人——她一点没有对这场战斗插手。她希望我们赢。她默许我那样破坏罗莎莉，来拯救贝拉。好吧，来拯救形势。
“CPR?” Edward growled at me, fast and demanding.
“心脏复苏？”爱德华快速而费力的对我咆哮。
I didn’t watch Alice finish the job. I wheeled back to the operating table, where Bella was turning blue, her eyes wide and staring.
我没有去看爱丽丝完成工作。飞快地奔回手术台，贝拉已经变成蓝色，她的眼睛没有聚焦。
I ripped the blade out of my arm.
我把剑从胳膊上撕下来。
Another shattering crack inside her body, the loudest yet, so loud that we both froze in shock waiting for her answering shriek. Nothing. Her legs, which had been curled up in agony, now went limp, sprawling out in an unnatural way.
另一声爆响从她身体中传出，最响的一声，实在太响了，以至于我们都僵在原地等待她回以尖叫。什么也没有。她因为极大的痛苦而蜷曲的腿，现在毫无生气的松弛下来，以一种不自然的样子伸展开。
“Yes!”
“知道了！”
And then I bent over her head. Her mouth looked clear, so I pressed mine to hers and blew a lungful of air into it. I felt her twitching body expand, so there was nothing blocking her throat.
然后，我向着她的头弯下身子。她的嘴看起来已经畅通了，所以我把嘴贴在她的嘴唇上，吹给她一大口气。我感到她痉挛的身体伸展开来，他的喉咙里没堵着什么东西。
Her lips tasted like blood.
她的嘴唇尝起来像血。
I heard the soft, wet sound of the scalpel across her stomach. More blood dripping to the floor.
我听见手术刀划过腹部时柔弱潮湿的声音。更多的血滴在地板上。
I could hear her heart, thumping unevenly. Keep it going, I thought fiercely at her, blowing another gust of air into her body. You promised. Keep your heart beating.
我能听见她的心跳，心率极度不齐。继续跳，我想把这思想传达给她，又吹给她一大口气。你保证过的。保持心跳
The next sound jolted through me, unexpected, terrifying. Like metal being shredded apart. The sound brought back the fight in the clearing so many months ago, the tearing sound of the newborns being ripped apart. I glanced over to see Edward’s face pressed against the bulge. Vampire teeth — a surefire way to cut through vampire skin.
另一声震惊我的响动，突如其来，十分可怕。就像是金属碎成碎片。这声音带回已被遗忘的几个月前的战争，这是新生儿带来的撕裂什么东西的声音。我看到爱德华的脸贴在隆起的腹部。吸血鬼的牙——一种决不会错的切开吸血鬼皮肤的东西。
I shuddered as I blew more air into Bella.
我再次向贝拉吹气的时候哆嗦了一下。
She coughed back at me, her eyes blinking, rolling blindly.
她咳嗽了一下，眼睛闪烁，盲目的转动着。
“You stay with me now, Bella!” I yelled at her. “Do you hear me? Stay! You’re not leaving me. Keep your heart beating!”
“你现在和我在一起，贝拉！”我向她大喊。“你听见我说的了吗？坚持住！你不会离开我。保持心跳！”
And then her body was suddenly still under my hands, though her breathing picked up roughly and her heart continued to thud. I realized the stillness meant that it was over. The internal beating was over. It must be out of her.
接着，她的身体突然在我手下静止了，虽然从大致上来说她还在呼吸，心脏也还跳动。我意识到这静止意味着一切结束了。她体内的挣扎结束了。那东西一定出来了。
It was.
就是如此。
Something warm touched my arm. That right there should have caught my attention. Nothing felt warm to me.
一些温暖的东西触到我的胳膊。那理所当然地引起了我的注意。对我来说没有什么东西是温暖的。
“Let me…” she croaked in a broken whisper. “Give her to me.”
“让我……”她虚弱的低声说。“把她给我。”
So Bella’d been wrong. It wasn’t the boy she’d imagined. No big surprise there. What hadn’t she been wrong about?
贝拉错了。那不是她想象的男孩。没有什么大惊喜。她没弄错过什么呢？
But I couldn’t look away from Bella’s face. She blinked and then stared, finally seeing something. She moaned out a strange, weak croon.
但我不能从Bella脸上错开目光。她眨了眨眼睛，终于看见什么了。她发出一声模糊而微弱的低吟。
I stared into them anyway, keeping my gaze locked there.
无论怎样，我紧盯它们，固定我的目光。
I didn’t look away from her red-spotted eyes, but I felt her hands lift weakly.
我没错开注视着她布满红斑的眼睛的目光，但我感觉到她的手虚弱的抬起。
I guess I should have known that he would always give her what she wanted, no matter how stupid her request might be. But I didn’t dream he would listen to her now. So I didn’t think to stop him.
我猜到我应该知道他会给她她想要的一切，不管她的要求多么愚蠢。但我没想到他现在居然会听她的。所以我也没想到去阻止他。
Edward whispered, “Renesmee.”
爱德华轻声低语，“蕾妮斯梅。”
Her eyes wheeled, looking for me, or him, but seeing nothing.
她的眼睛转动着，寻找我，或者他，但什么也看不见。
And then she gasped — gasped in pain.
然后她因为疼痛而不停的喘息。
“Renes… mee. So… beautiful.”
“Renes…mee。太……美了。”
By the time I looked, it was too late. Edward had snatched the warm, bloody thing out of her limp arms. My eyes flickered across her skin. It was red with blood — the blood that had flowed from her mouth, the blood smeared all over the creature, and fresh blood welling out of a tiny double-crescent bite mark just over her left breast.
直到我看见为止，一切已经太晚了。爱德华把那温暖的东西夺走了，血一样的东西留在她无力的手臂上。我的眼睛在她的肌肤上扫视。那是鲜红色的血——从她嘴中流出的血，血液沾污了她，新鲜的血液从两个极微小的小孔流出——新月形的牙印就印在她左侧的乳房上。
“No, Renesmee,” Edward murmured, like he was teaching the monster manners.
“不行，蕾妮斯梅，”爱德华呢喃着，像是他在教这个怪物礼貌。
With a last dull ga-lump, her heart faltered and went silent.
伴随着最后一下不鲜明的怦怦声，她的心脏颤抖着，归于寂静。
I didn’t look at him or it. I watched only Bella as her eyes rolled back into her head.
我没看他或者它。我只看着贝拉的眼睛慢慢合上了。
She missed maybe half of one beat, and then my hands were on her chest, doing compressions. I counted in my head, trying to keep the rhythm steady. One. Two. Three. Four.
她大概听了半拍心跳，然后我的手放在她胸上，做着按压。我默默计数，试着保持稳定的节奏。一。二。三。四。
Breaking away for a second, I blew another lungful of air into her.
等了一秒，我又吹给她一口气。
I couldn’t see anymore. My eyes were wet and blurry. But I was hyperaware of the sounds in the room. The unwilling glug-glug of her heart under my demanding hands, the pounding of my own heart, and another — a fluttering beat that was too fast, too light. I couldn’t place it.
我什么也看不见。我的眼睛湿润模糊。但我隐约意识到房间里的响声。在我不懈的努力下，不情愿的怦怦声从她心脏传出，那重重的击中了我自己的心脏。而另一个——快速的跳动，实在太快了，而且很轻。我不能确定它的位置。
“Take the baby,” Edward said urgently.
“抱着这孩子，”爱德华急切地说。
I forced more air down Bella’s throat.
我把更多的空气灌入贝拉的喉咙。
“Give her to me,” a low voice chimed from the doorway.
“把她给我，”低而悦耳的声音从门的方向传来。
“Throw it out the window.” One. Two. Three. Four.
“把它从窗户扔出去。” 一。二。三。四。
One. Two. Three. Four.
一。二。三。四。
His stone hand knocked mine out of the way. There was a tiny crunch as his blow broke my little finger. In the same second, he shoved the needle straight into her heart.
他石头般的手猛地把我的手赶开。我的小拇指被他的一击打断了。在同一秒，他把针直插入她的心脏。
“Move your hands, Jacob.”
“把你的手拿开，雅各布。”
“What’s that?”
“那是什么？”
I breathed for Bella again while the exchange took place. The fluttering thumpa — thumpa-thumpa faded away with distance.
当他把它递过去时，我再次帮贝拉呼吸。那轻快的心跳声因为距离而逐渐消失。
“I’ve got it under control,” Rosalie promised. “Give me the baby, Edward. I’ll take care of her until Bella…”
“我已经控制住了，”罗莎莉保证。“把那孩子给我，爱德华。我会照顾好她直到Bella……”
Edward and I snarled at the same time.
爱德华和我同时咆哮起来。
I looked up from Bella’s white eyes, still pumping her heart for her. Edward had a syringe in his hand — all silver, like it was made from steel.
我看着贝拉白色的眼，仍为她做着心脏复苏。爱德华手里拿着一个注射器——通体银白，看起来像是拿钢作的。
“My venom,” he answered as he pushed the plunger down.
“我的毒液，”他把活塞推下去的同时回答道。
“What are you waiting for?” I choked out breathlessly, pumping her heart again. One. Two. Three. Four.
“你到底在等什么？”我几乎说不出话来，再次按压她的心脏。一。二。三。四。
I heard the jolt in her heart, like he’d shocked her with paddles.
我听见她心脏摇动的声音，仿佛他用船桨打了她一下。
“Keep it moving,” he ordered. His voice was ice, was dead. Fierce and unthinking. Like he was a machine.
“保持它跳动，”他命令。他的声音冰冷，麻木。凶猛且没经任何考虑。就像他是一台机器。
I blew more air into her mouth, but there was nothing there. Just the lifeless rise of her chest in response. I kept pumping her heart, counting, while he worked manically over her, trying to put her back together. All the king’s horses and all the king’s men…
我往她嘴中吹入更多的气，但那儿什么都没有。只有她的胸口毫无生气的起伏作答复。当他狂躁的在她身上劳动时，我继续按压她的心脏，计着数，试着把她拼起来。国王所有的马和国王所有的士兵…
It was like he was kissing her, brushing his lips at her throat, at her wrists, into the crease at the inside of her arm. But I could hear the lush tearing of her skin as his teeth bit through, again and again, forcing venom into her system at as many points as possible. I saw his pale tongue sweep along the bleeding gashes, but before this could make me either sick or angry, I realized what he was doing. Where his tongue washed the venom over her skin, it sealed shut. Holding the poison and the blood inside her body.
那看起来就像他在吻她，把他的嘴唇扫过她的咽喉，她的手腕，她胳膊的关节内侧。但我能听见他的牙齿穿过她皮肤发出的撕裂声，一次又一次，把毒液尽可能多的注进她身体的各个部位。我看到他苍白的舌头扫过那些该死的裂伤，但在我感到厌恶和愤怒之前，我意识到他在做什么。但凡他舌头清理掉留在她皮肤上的毒液部分，伤口愈合了。把毒液和血封在她体内。
I ignored the healing ache in my finger and started pumping her heart again. It was harder, as if her blood was congealing there — thicker and slower. While I pushed the now-viscous blood through her arteries, I watched what he was doing.
我不顾手指正在愈合的疼痛，再次按压她的心脏。现在更困难了，仿佛她的血液凝固在那一样——粘稠而缓慢。当我把那已经粘稠的血液从她动脉中挤出来时，我看到了他在做什么。
Because that’s all that was left of the girl we both loved. This broken, bled-out, mangled corpse. We couldn’t put Bella together again.
因为这是我们都深爱的女孩留下的全部东西。这坏掉的，浸着鲜血的，残损的尸体。我们再不能把贝拉拼起来了。
But there was nothing there, just me, just him.
但这儿什么也没有，只有我，只有他。
He pushed her dead heart faster than I had.
他比我更快的按着她死去的心脏。
Working over a corpse.
对着一具尸体忙活。
I straightened them numbly, not minding the throb of pain.
我麻木的把它们弄直，毫不在意刺骨的疼痛。
Or maybe moved was the better word. It seemed like I felt the pull from the opposite direction now. From down the stairs, out the door. The longing to get away from here and never, ever come back.
也许感动是更好的词。现在我好像从相反的方向感觉到了拉力。从楼梯下，出了门。渴望离开这里，再也不回来。
Turning away, leaving him with his dead, I walked slowly to the door. So slowly. I couldn’t make my feet move faster.
转身，离开他的尸体，我慢慢的走向门口。非常慢，我不能使自己走的更快了。
I knew it was too late. I knew she was dead. I knew it for sure because the pull was gone. I didn’t feel any reason to be here beside her. She wasn’t here anymore. So this body had no more draw for me. The senseless need to be near her had vanished.
我知道已经太晚了。我知道她已经死了。我知道因为流血已经停止。我完全不能找到任何再呆在她身边的理由。她再也不在这儿了。所以这身体对我已经没有吸引力。这愚蠢的戴在她身边的责任已经消失。
“She’s not dead,” he growled. “She’s going to be fine.”
“她没有死，”他低声咆哮着。“她会好起来的。”
I wasn’t sure he was talking to me anymore.
我再也不确定他是在和我说话。
“Go, then,” he snapped, and he hit my hands out of the way again, taking my place this time. Three fingers broken, it felt like.
“那么就滚吧，”他狠狠的说，然后又一次赶开我的手，取代了我的位置。断了三根手指，我感觉。
This was it, then. The ocean of pain. The other shore so far away across the boiling water that I couldn’t imagine it, much less see it.
之后，我感到了如同海洋般巨大的痛楚。彼岸在这沸腾的水上显得如此遥远，我甚至无法想像。
I felt empty again, now that I’d lost my purpose. Saving Bella had been my fight for so long now. And she wouldn’t be saved. She’d willingly sacrificed herself to be torn apart by that monster’s young, and so the fight was lost. It was all over.
我又一次觉得自己变空了，现在我失去了我的目的。我为拯救贝拉而战斗了那么久。但她仍不能得救。她愿意牺牲自己，而被那个怪物崽子撕碎，因此所有的战斗都失败了。一切都完了。
I shuddered at the sound coming from behind me as I plodded down the stairs — the sound of a dead heart being forced to thud.
当我下楼时，我被身后死去心脏被强迫跳动的声音震住了。
I wanted to sprint away, to take the stairs ten at a time and race out the door, but my feet were heavy as iron and my body was more tired than it had ever been before. I shuffled down the stairs like a crippled old man.
我想逃跑，一次奔下十阶楼梯然后直接冲出门去，但我的腿像灌了铅一样，身体也从未有过的沉重。我拖着步子走下楼，像一个残疾的老头。
I wanted to somehow pour bleach inside my head and let it fry my brain. To burn away the images left from Bella’s final minutes. I’d take the brain damage if I could get rid of that — the screaming, the bleeding, the unbearable crunching and snapping as the newborn monster tore through her from the inside out…
现在我想往自己的脑子里倒一桶漂白剂，让它煎熬我的大脑。把贝拉临终的情形烧毁。我会毁掉我的脑子，如果我能就此解脱——那尖叫，那该死的，难以忍受的嘎吱嘎吱，还有那新生的怪物从她体内出来时的啃咬声……
Rosalie was on the clean end of the white sofa, her back to me, cooing and murmuring to the blanket-wrapped thing in her arms. She must have heard me pause, but she ignored me, caught up in her moment of stolen motherhood. Maybe she would be happy now. Rosalie had what she wanted, and Bella would never come to take the creature from her. I wondered if that’s what the poisonous blonde had been hoping for all along.
罗莎莉在白沙发干净的一端坐着，她背对着我，对着她怀里毯子包裹的东西咕咕轻语。她一定听到我停下来了，但她没理我。沉湎于她偷来的当妈妈的时光。也许他现在高兴了。罗莎莉得到了她想要的，而贝拉永远不会把那东西从她这夺走了。我想知道这恶毒的金发女人是不是早就对此期待已久了。
I rested at the bottom step, gathering my strength to get out the door.
我在最后一阶上歇了一会，积聚我的力量走出门。
My strength came back to me as I listened to the sound of the little executioner feeding.
当我听到这小小的杀人鬼吃东西的声音时，我的力量又回来了。
She held something dark in her hands, and there was a greedy sucking sound coming from the tiny murderer she held.
她手中拿着什么黑色的东西，在她的轻声嘟囔下，能听到贪婪的吸食声。
Strength and hate and heat — red heat washing through my head, burning but erasing nothing. The images in my head were fuel, building up the inferno but refusing to be consumed. I felt the tremors rock me from head to toe, and I did not try to stop them.
力量，还有憎恨与燥热——红色的高温刷洗我的大脑，灼烧着，但什么也无法抹消。脑中的印象就是燃料，它不会燃烧殆尽。我感到从头到脚的震动，而我完全没有试着制止它们。
The scent of blood in the air. Human blood. Rosalie was feeding it. Of course it would want blood. What else would you feed the kind of monster that would brutally mutilate its own mother? It might as well have been drinking Bella’s blood. Maybe it was.
血的味道弥漫在空气中。人类的血。罗莎莉在喂那东西。当然它想要血。你还能喂那种残忍的伤害自己母亲的怪物什么呢？也许它已经喝过贝拉的血了。也许就是如此。
Sam had been right. The thing was an aberration — its existence went against nature. A black, soulless demon. Something that had no right to be.
山姆是对的。这东西是个错误——它的存在违背了自然。一个黑色的，没有灵魂的恶魔。一个根本就不该存在的东西。
Rosalie was totally absorbed in the creature, paying no attention to me at all. She wouldn’t be quick enough to stop me, distracted as she was.
罗莎莉的全部注意都集中在那东西上，完全没在意我。她不会有时间阻止我，像她现在这样分心。
Something that had to be destroyed.
一个应该被毁掉的东西。
It seemed like the pull had not been leading to the door after all. I could feel it now, encouraging me, tugging me forward. Pushing me to finish this, to cleanse the world of this abomination.
现在那召唤已经不从门的方向传来。我能感觉到它，鼓励我，向前猛拉着我。推着我让我去了结这一切，清除这世界上的祸害。
If Bella’d survived, she would have hated me for this. She would have wanted to kill me personally.
如果贝拉幸存，她会因此而憎恨我的。她自己就会想要杀死我。
Rosalie would try to kill me when the creature was dead, and I would fight back. I wasn’t sure if I would have time to finish her before the others came to help. Maybe, maybe not. I didn’t much care either way.
罗莎莉在这东西濒死的时候尝试杀死我，而我反击了。我不确定能在其他人赶来帮忙之前了结她。也许能，也许不能。反正我都不在乎。
I didn’t care if the wolves, either set, avenged me or called the Cullens’ justice fair. None of that mattered. All I cared about was my own justice. My revenge. The thing that had killed Bella would not live another minute longer.
我不在乎如果狼群，两边中的任何一边，找我报仇或者叫卡伦家进行公平的审判。怎样都没关系。我所在乎的一切不过是我自己的正义。我的报仇。这杀死贝拉的东西不能再活一秒。
And then there was Edward. He must be too busy now — too far gone in his insane denial, trying to reanimate a corpse — to listen to my plans.
还有爱德华。他现在一定已经非常忙——他深陷入自己精神病一样的否定中，试着去复活一具尸体——去听我的计划。
So I wouldn’t get the chance to keep my promise to him, unless — and it was not a wager I’d put money on — I managed to win the fight against Rosalie, Jasper, and Alice, three on one. But even if I did win, I didn’t think I had it in me to kill Edward.
我没有机会继续遵守对他的承诺了，至少——而这也不是一次我该打的赌——我得设法赢过和罗莎莉，贾斯帕还有爱丽丝，三对一。但即使我赢了，我也不认为我能杀掉爱德华。
But I didn’t care. She didn’t care what she had done to me — letting herself be slaughtered like an animal. Why should I take her feelings into account?
但我不在乎，她不在乎她曾对我作的——让她像动物一般屠杀。为什么我要在乎她的感觉呢？
Because I didn’t have enough compassion for that. Why should I let him get away from what he’d done? Wouldn’t it be more fair — more satisfying — to let him live with nothing, nothing at all?
因为我没有足够的怜悯。为什么我要让他从他的所作所为中解脱出来呢？是不是让他就这样一无所有的活着，什么都没有的活着更加公平些——更加令人满意一些？
It made me almost smile, as filled with hate as I was, to imagine it. No Bella. No killer spawn. And also missing as many members of his family as I was able to take down. Of course, he could probably put those back together, since I wouldn’t be around to burn them. Unlike Bella, who would never be whole again.
那是我几乎微笑了，去想象这一切就已经使我的体内满是憎恨。没有贝拉。没有那个小杀人鬼。而且在我的能力范围内尽可能多的弄死他的家庭成员。当然，也许我不在的时候他还能再把他们拼起来。不像贝拉，她再无法恢复原来的样子了。
The trembling was getting tighter and faster. I coiled myself, preparing to spring at the blond vampire and rip the murderous thing from her arms with my teeth.
我抖得更厉害了。我绷紧肌肉，准备一跃而起，直击那个金发白皙的吸血鬼，然后用我的牙齿撕裂她怀中的杀人鬼。
I wondered if the creature could be put back together. I doubted it. It was part Bella, too — so it must have inherited some of her vulnerability. I could hear that in the tiny, thrumming beat of its heart.
我想知道那个东西能不能再被拼起来。我很怀疑。它也曾是贝拉的一部分——所以它也一定继承了她的弱点。我能听见那极微小的，飞快的心跳声。
Its heart was beating. Hers wasn’t.
它的心跳还在。她的再不会了。
Perfect. The new position was perfect for my strike. I leaned forward and felt the heat begin to change me while the pull toward the killer grew — it was stronger than I’d ever felt it before, so strong it reminded me of an Alpha’s command, like it would crush me if I didn’t obey.
非常好。这个新动作非常有利于我的进攻。我向前倾斜身体，感受那即将改变我的高温，它推动我向那杀人鬼扑过去——这比我以前搞到的任何一次都更加强大，那样的强大，让我想起了阿尔法的支配，仿佛如果我不去遵守就会被消灭一样。
Only a second had passed as I made these easy decisions.
我做出这简单决定只用了一秒钟。
Rosalie cooed at the creature again, setting the empty metal bottle-thing aside and lifting the creature into the air to nuzzle her face against its cheek.
罗莎莉又一次咕咕的逗弄那个东西，她把空了的金属瓶放在一边，抱起那个东西，用鼻子爱抚它的脸颊。
The murderer stared past Rosalie’s shoulder at me, its gaze more focused than any newborn creature’s gaze should be.
那杀人犯越过罗莎莉的肩膀看着我，它眼睛的聚焦更过于一个新生物应该有的。
This time I wanted to obey.
这次我想去遵守。
My shaking jerked to a stop; heat flooded through me, stronger than before, but it was a new kind of heat — not a burning.
我的颤抖停止了；热浪淹没了我，比以前都强，但这是一种新的高温——并非灼烧。
Warm brown eyes, the color of milk chocolate — the exact same color that Bella’s had been.
温暖的棕色眼睛，是巧克力牛奶的颜色——和贝拉着时眼睛的颜色一模一样。
Everything inside me came undone as I stared at the tiny porcelain face of the half — vampire, half-human baby. All the lines that held me to my life were sliced apart in swift cuts, like clipping the strings to a bunch of balloons. Everything that made me who I was — my love for the dead girl upstairs, my love for my father, my loyalty to my new pack, the love for my other brothers, my hatred for my enemies, my home, my name, my self — disconnected from me in that second — snip, snip, snip — and floated up into space.
当我注视着那半吸血鬼，半人类婴儿小小的，白瓷板的脸颊时，我体内的一切都复原了。所有把我与命运束缚在一起的线瞬间被斩断，像是剪断一大捆气球的线一样。一切使我是我的东西——我对楼上那死去女孩的爱，我对我父亲的爱，我对我新部落的忠诚，我对我其他兄弟的爱，我对我敌人的憎恨，我的家，我的名字，我自己——一瞬间与我断开了联系——剪，剪，剪——而且慢慢地与我产生距离。
It was a glowing.
那是热情。
I was not left drifting. A new string held me where I was.
但我并没有漂走，一根新的线把我与我所在之处联结起来。
Not one string, but a million. Not strings, but steel cables. A million steel cables all tying me to one thing — to the very center of the universe.
不止一根，而是无数根。不是绳子，而是钢缆。无数的钢缆把我拴在一个东西上——整个宇宙的正中央。
I could see that now — how the universe swirled around this one point. I’d never seen the symmetry of the universe before, but now it was plain.
我现在能看到了——整个宇宙是怎样围着那一点转动。我从未看到过如此匀称的宇宙，但现在那是如此清晰。
Renesmee.
蕾妮斯梅。
The gravity of the earth no longer tied me to the place where I stood.
地球的引力已经不能使我固定在我所站的地方。
From upstairs, there was a new sound. The only sound that could touch me in this endless instant.
楼上，一种新的响声出现了。在这永恒的瞬间唯一能触及我的声音。
It was the baby girl in the blond vampire’s arms that held me here now.
那个在金发吸血鬼怀中的女婴现在如此的吸引我。
A frantic pounding, a racing beat…
一种发狂的重击声，快速的跳动……
A changing heart.
一颗正在变化的心脏。
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