Benjamin and Tia were quick to follow after Amun and Kebi, anxious to let them know the outcome of the conflict; I was sure we would see them again — Benjamin and Tia, at least. None of the nomads lingered. Peter and Charlotte had a short conversation with Jasper, and then they were gone, too.
本杰明和蒂娅很快追随阿蒙和凯比而去，急于向他们宣布战争的结果。但是我确信，我们还能再次见到他们，至少能见到本杰明和蒂娅。所有的游猎者都离开了，彼得和夏洛特只同贾斯帕简短的交谈了几句，也走掉了。
Vladimir and Stefan had vanished before we’d stopped celebrating. They were extremely disappointed in the way things had turned out, but Edward said that they’d enjoyed the Volturi’s cowardice almost enough to make up for their frustration.
弗拉迪米尔和斯特凡在我们仍在欢呼雀跃的时候不告而别。看到事情这样结束他们倍感失望，但是爱德华说，看到沃尔图里不战而逃几乎足以让他们在未来的一千年里快慰了。
“So it was a combination of things there at the end, but what it really boiled down to was… Bella,” Edward was explaining. Our family and our two remaining guests sat in the Cullens’ great room while the forest turned black outside the tall windows.
“所以，一系列的问题在最后发生了本质的变化，但真正归结起来是因为——贝拉，”爱德华解释道。我和我们的家庭成员以及留下的部分客人正坐在卡伦家的客厅里，巨大的落地窗后面，是寂静的森林。
The reunited Amazons had been anxious to return home as well — they had a difficult time being away from their beloved rain forest — though they were more reluctant to leave than some of the others.
我们的亚马逊朋友们也急于回家——离开热带雨林让他们很不适应——尽管如此，比起其他人来他们更不情愿马上离开。
“You must bring the child to see me,” Zafrina had insisted. “Promise me, young one.” Nessie had pressed her hand to my neck, pleading as well.
“你必须带着孩子来看望我们。”查弗丽娜坚持道。“答应我，年轻人。”内希也把小手放到我的脖子上，恳求着。
“Ah, the power of wishful thinking,” she answered sarcastically, rolling her eyes. And then she was serious. “Of course, this isn’t over. The Volturi won’t forgive what happened here.”
“哈，对美好事物的向往的力量，”她嘲笑道，翻了翻眼睛。然后她的态度严肃起来。“很明显，一切并没有结束。沃尔图里是不会原谅在这里发生的一切的。”
“We shall be great friends, my Nessie,” the wild woman had declared before leaving with her sisters.
“我们会成为最好的朋友的，我的内希，”这个粗犷的女人宣称道，然后和她的姐妹一起离开了。
The Irish coven continued the exodus.
爱尔兰的客人们将继续他们的漂泊。
“Well done, Siobhan,” Carlisle complimented her as they said goodbye.
“干得好，西博汉，”卡莱尔在告别时赞叹道。
Edward was the one to answer that. “They’ve been seriously shaken; their confidence is shattered. But, yes, I’m sure they’ll recover from the blow someday. And then…” His eyes tightened. “I imagine they’ll try to pick us off separately.”
爱德华做出了回答。“他们被强烈的震撼到了，他们的信心被摧毁了。但是，是的，我确信他们会卷土重来的，那么……”他的眼神收紧了。“我想，他们会试图将我们各个击破。”
“Alice will warn us when they intend to strike,” Siobhan said in a sure voice. “And we’ll gather again. Perhaps the time will come when our world is ready to be free of the Volturi altogether.”
“当他们决定进攻时。爱丽丝会警告我们的。”西博汉肯定的说。“那么我们会再团结在一起。或许到那个时候，我们的世界就可以准备好从沃尔图里的专权下解放了。”
“Of course, Zafrina,” I’d agreed.
“当然，查弗丽娜。”我当然同意。
“Yes, my friend, we will,” Siobhan agreed. “And how can we fail, when I will it otherwise?” She let out a great peal of laughter.
“是的，我的朋友，我们会的，”西博汉赞成道。“无论如何，我们怎么会输呢？”她发出响亮的笑声。
“That time may come,” Carlisle replied. “If it does, we’ll stand together.”
“这种可能性是存在的，”卡莱尔回答。“如果那一刻到来，我们还会并肩作战。”
“Exactly,” Carlisle said. He and Siobhan embraced, and then he shook Liam’s hand. “Try to find Alistair and tell him what happened. I’d hate to think of him hiding under a rock for the next decade.”
“不错，”卡莱尔说着，和西博汉拥抱。然后他拉起了利亚姆的手。“想办法找到阿利斯泰尔，告诉他都发生了什么。我讨厌看到他在今后十年里继续躲在某一块岩石下面。”
Siobhan laughed again. Maggie hugged both Nessie and me, and then the Irish coven was gone.
西博汉再次放声大笑。麦琪紧紧的拥抱着内希和我。然后，爱尔兰客人们回家了。
The atmosphere of celebration was too much for Tanya and Kate. They needed time to grieve for their lost sister.
对于坦尼娅和凯特来说，欢庆的气氛与她们格格不入，她们需要更长的时间为失去的姐妹哀悼。
Huilen and Nahuel were the ones who stayed, though I had expected those last two to go back with the Amazons. Carlisle was deep in fascinated conversation with Huilen; Nahuel sat close beside her, listening while Edward told the rest of us the story of the conflict as only he knew it.
休伊伦和纳乌艾留了下来，我一直以为他们会和亚马逊的朋友一起离开。卡莱尔一直在着迷的和休伊伦讨论着；纳乌艾就坐在她的旁边，倾听着爱德华讲述这场冲突中只有他知道的具体情节。
The Denalis were the last to leave, Garrett with them — as he would be from now on, I was fairly sure.
德纳利家族最后离开，加勒特会和她们在一起——从现在开始，这一点我很确定。
“Terrified?” I said skeptically. “Of me?”
“受惊过度？”我怀疑的问。“因为我？”
He smiled at me with a look I didn’t entirely recognize — it was tender, but also awed and even exasperated. “When will you ever see yourself clearly?” he said softly. Then he spoke louder, to the others as well as to me. “The Volturi haven’t fought a fair fight in about twenty-five hundred years. And they’ve never, never fought one where they were at a disadvantage. Especially since they gained Jane and Alec, they’ve only been involved with unopposed slaughterings.
他微笑着看了我一眼，我完全无法理解他目光中的含义——温柔，但又充满敬畏甚至恼怒。“你什么时候才能看清楚你自己呢？”他轻轻的说。然后他放大了音量，好让其他人听清楚。“2500年来，沃尔图里从未遭遇公平的挑战。他们从来没有，从来没有面对一个人时让自己处于下风。尤其是在他们招罗到简和亚历克之后他们所做的只是屠杀，没有任何抵抗。”
“Alice gave Aro the excuse he needed to get out of the fight. If he hadn’t been so terrified of Bella, he probably would have gone ahead with their original plan.”
“爱丽丝带给了阿罗休战的理由。但如果不是贝拉让他受惊过度，他可能仍会执行原来的计划。”
“You should have seen how we looked to them! Usually, Alec cuts off all sense and feeling from their victims while they go through the charade of a counsel. That way, no one can run when the verdict is given. But there we stood, ready, waiting, outnumbering them, with gifts of our own while their gifts were rendered useless by Bella. Aro knew that with Zafrina on our side, they would be the blind ones when the battle commenced. I’m sure our numbers would have been pretty severely decimated, but they were sure that theirs would be, too. There was even a good possibility that they would lose. They’ve never dealt with that possibility before. They didn’t deal with it well today.”
“你曾经见识过，我们在他们看来不值一提！通常，当他们玩弄着虚伪的法律文字游戏的时候，亚历克会负责让受害者失去一切知觉。这样一来，当裁决做出的时候，没有人能够逃脱。但是这一次，我们做好了准备迎接他们，当他们的守卫的天赋被贝拉屏蔽在外，那我们这边的天赋占有数量上的优势，阿罗知道查弗丽娜站在我们这边，那么当战斗真正开始，他们会全体变成瞎子。我确信，我们有足够的人手应对他们的攻击，但是对这一点他们一样清楚。他们甚至还有转圜的余地，但是他们没有利用。他们从来没有带着这种可能性做决定。今天他们本来可以做得更好。”
“Hard to feel confident when you’re surrounded by horse-sized wolves,” Emmett laughed, poking Jacob’s arm.
“当你的周围围着一圈像马一样大的巨狼时，要保持信心百倍可不容易。”埃美特大笑着，捅了捅雅各布的胳膊。
Jacob flashed a grin at him.
雅各布冲他咧嘴一笑。
“Sure was,” Jacob agreed.
“当然是这样。”雅各布得意洋洋。
“Absolutely,” Edward agreed. “That was another sight they’ve never seen. The true Children of the Moon rarely move in packs, and they are never much in control of themselves. Sixteen enormous regimented wolves was a surprise they weren’t prepared for. Caius is actually terrified of werewolves. He almost lost a fight with one a few thousand years ago and never got over it.”
“很明显，”爱德华肯定道。“这是一个他们从未见过的局面。真正的月光之子很少集结在一起，而且他们通常无法控制自己。十六个成员组成的狼人军团完全超出了他们的预料。卡尤斯确实被狼人们吓慌了。他差点就错过了一场千年难遇的战斗，并且永远都无法恢复。”
“It was the wolves that stopped them in the first place,” I said.
“一开始是狼群把他们镇住了。”我说。
Alice sighed. “Just get it off your chest, Bella.”
爱丽丝叹了一口气。“先把你的的话都咽回肚子里，贝拉。”
“Necessary!” I exploded. “You had me totally convinced that we were all going to die! I’ve been a wreck for weeks.”
“必须的！”我发起了脾气。“你让我确信我们都会没命！很长时间以来我快崩溃了。”
“You know what I mean.”
“你知道我的意思。”
“Full moon, yes,” Edward said. “Silver bullets, no — that was just another one of those myths to make humans feel like they had a sporting chance. There aren’t very many of them left. Caius has had them hunted into near extinction.”
“满月，是的，”爱德华说。“银弹，不——那只不过是神话，为了让人类觉得有机会娱乐一下。狼人很少存在，卡尤斯也认为他们已经被捕猎殆尽。”
“It never came up.”
“它从未出现过。”
I rolled my eyes, and Alice laughed, leaning forward — she was tucked under Edward’s other arm — to wink at me.
我转了转眼珠，而爱丽丝大笑起来，倾斜着身体——现在她正在爱德华的另一支臂弯下——取笑我。
“How could you do that to me, Alice?”
“你怎么能这样对我，爱丽丝？”
Jacob snorted. “Real. Does that make me imaginary?”
雅各布嗤之以鼻。“当然是真的，你以为那是幻觉？”
“It was necessary.”
“这是必须的。”
“So there are real werewolves?” I asked. “With the full moon and silver bullets and all that?”
“那么真的有狼人？”我故意问道。“还有满月，银弹之类的？”
I glared back.
我怒目而视。
I loved her insanely, of course. But now that I’d had a chance to realize that she was really home, that her defection was only a ruse because Edward had to believe that she’d abandoned us, I was beginning to feel pretty irritated with her. Alice had some explaining to do.
我深深的爱着她，我早就知道。但是现在我真正意识到她真的回家了，而她的背叛只是一个计策，因为爱德华需要认为她抛弃了我们，我又开始对她感到又爱又恨。爱丽丝必须做些解释。
“And you never mentioned this because…?”
“而你从未提起这件事，因为……？”
“This was about my acting skills?”
“你的意思是说我的演技很差？”
“It might have gone that way,” she said calmly. “In which case you needed to be prepared to save Nessie.”
“必须这样做，”她平静的说。“只有在那种情况下，你才会想办法保护内希。”
She looked at me speculatively for a moment. “I don’t think so,” she said. “You’re just not that good an actress.”
她看着我，思索了一会儿。“我不这么认为，”她说。“你可不是一个好演员。”
Instinctively, I held Nessie — asleep now on my lap — tighter in my arms.
天生的知觉，内希正在我的怀里——她睡着了——紧紧被我抱在怀里。
“But you knew there were other ways, too,” I accused. “You knew there was hope. Did it ever occur to you that you could have told me everything? I know Edward had to think we were at a dead end for Aro’s sake, but you could have told me.”
“但是你也知道还有其他的途径。”我控诉道。“你知道我们有希望。在你可以告诉我们之前你就已经发现了吗？我知道爱德华不得不认为在阿罗眼里我们只有死路一条，但是你应该早告诉我们还有希望。”
“Oh, take it down an octave, Bella. Do you have any idea how complicated this was to set up? I couldn’t even be sure that someone like Nahuel existed — all I knew was that I would be looking for something I couldn’t see! Try to imagine searching for a blind spot — not the easiest thing I’ve ever done.”
“哦，声音别这么尖，贝拉。你知道这有多么复杂吗？我甚至不能确信像纳乌艾这样的人真的存在——我唯一知道的是，我必须去寻找一种我根本看不见的东西！试着想像在自己的视觉盲点上寻找东西——那可一点也不容易，虽然我就是那么做的。”
“Plus we had to send back the key witnesses, like we weren’t in enough of a hurry. And then keeping my eyes open all the time in case you decided to throw me any more instructions. At some point you’re going to have to tell me what exactly is in Rio. Before any of that, I had to try to see every trick the Volturi might come in with and give you what few clues I could so you would be ready for their strategy, and I only had just a few hours to trace out all the possibilities. Most of all, I had to make sure you’d all believe that I was ditching out on you, because Aro had to be positive that you had nothing left up your sleeves or he never would have committed to an out the way he did. And if you think I didn’t feel like a schmuck –“
“此外，我们不得不将关键证人带回来，就好像我们并没有足够忙乱一样。然后，我必须全天候的睁大眼睛，等着你决定给我更多的指示。在某种情况下，你可能会对我解释什么在里约热内卢。在此之前，我必须优先考虑沃尔图里可能玩弄的任何一个把戏，这样你们才可以事先商量对策，而我只有短短几小时去谋划这一切。最糟糕的是，我必须让你相信我抛弃了你们，这样才会让阿罗确信，你们已经一无所有，除了投靠他没有其他选择。如果你没有觉得我是一个笨蛋——
Alice’s trilling laugh rang through the room, and we all smiled to hear that music once more. “I missed you, too, Bella. So forgive me, and try to be satisfied with being the superhero of the day.”
爱丽丝银铃般的笑声响彻房间，再次听到美妙的音乐，让我们都很欣慰的笑了。“我也想念你，贝拉。所以请原谅我，然后试着对你自己在今天超人的表现表示出一点点满意吧。”
“Okay, okay!” I interrupted. “Sorry! I know it was rough for you, too. It’s just that… well, I missed you like crazy, Alice. Don’t do that to me again.”
“好啦，好啦！”我打断了她。“对不起！我知道现实对你也很残酷，只不过……好吧，我猜你可能像是疯了，爱丽丝。别再这样对我了。”
Everyone else laughed now, and I ducked my face into Nessie’s hair, embarrassed.
现在所有的人大笑起来，而我则窘迫的把我的脸埋进内希的头发中。
Edward went back to analyzing every shift of intention and control that had happened in the meadow today, declaring that it was my shield that had made the Volturi run away with their tails between their legs. The way everyone looked at me made me uncomfortable. Even Edward. It was like I had grown a hundred feet during the course of the morning. I tried to ignore the impressed looks, mostly keeping my eyes on Nessie’s sleeping face and Jacob’s unchanged expression. I would always be just Bella to him, and that was a relief.
爱德华接着继续分析今天在草地上控制局势的每一个变化万端的意图，并且宣称是我的守护盾让沃尔图里夹着尾巴逃走的。这让我很不舒服，因为所有的人都在盯着我看。爱德华尤甚。看上去好像我一早晨的时间里就长出了100只脚。我试着对他们的目光置之不理，大部分注意力放在正在沉睡的内希的头发上和雅各布没有任何改变的表情上，对他来说，我永远是贝拉，这让我稍微不那么尴尬。
The hardest stare to ignore was also the most confusing one.
最难忽视的的凝视也是目光最复杂的那一个。
It wasn’t like this half-human, half-vampire Nahuel was used to thinking of me in a certain way. For all he knew, I went around routing attacking vampires every day and the scene in the meadow had been nothing unusual at all. But the boy never took his eyes off me. Or maybe he was looking at Nessie. That made me uncomfortable, too.
没人像这个半人半吸血鬼的纳乌艾这样用力的盯着我看。现在他已经知道了，对我可以阻挡吸血鬼的攻击以及草地上的那个场面应该已经感到毫不稀奇了，但是这个男孩从未把视线从我身上移开。或者他盯着的是内希。这更让我不舒服。
He couldn’t be oblivious to the fact that Nessie was the only female of his kind that wasn’t his half-sister.
他不会没有注意到这个事实，内希他的同类中的女性，而不是他同父异母的姐妹。
I didn’t think this idea had occurred to Jacob yet. I kind of hoped it wouldn’t soon. I’d had enough fighting to last me for a while.
我认为雅各布最好还没有发现他的这个念头。希望这不要来的那么快。我经历过足够的类似的打击了。
I felt oddly tired. Not sleepy, of course, but just like the day had been long enough. I wanted some peace, some normality. I wanted Nessie in her own bed; I wanted the walls of my own little home around me.
我感到古怪的疲惫。当然不是睡意，但是好像是觉得今天实在太长了。我需要一份平静，属于我自己的空间。我希望内希睡在她自己的床上；我希望我呆在自己的小家里。
I looked at Edward and felt for a moment like I could read his mind. I could see he felt exactly the same way. Ready for some peace.
我看了爱德华一小会儿，就像是可以读懂他的思想。我感觉他的想法和我一样，需要一些私人空间。
Eventually, the others ran out of questions for Edward, and the discussion dissolved into a bunch of smaller conversations.
终于，其他人不再讨论爱德华提出的问题，大讨论变成了小范围的互相交谈。
“That’s probably a good idea,” he agreed quickly. “I’m sure she didn’t sleep soundly last night, what with all the snoring.”
“这大概是个好主意，”他立即同意了。“我确信她昨夜没有睡足，因为到处都是震耳欲聋的鼾声”
“Should we take Nessie…”
“该带内希……”
He grinned at Jacob.
他冲着雅各布咧嘴一笑。
Jacob rolled his eyes and then yawned. “It’s been a while since I slept in a bed. I bet my dad would get a kick out of having me under his roof again.”
雅各布翻了翻白眼然后打了个哈欠。“我必须回到我自己的床上去睡觉了，我想我父亲马上就要把我扫地出门了。”
I touched his cheek. “Thank you, Jacob.”
我碰了碰他的脸颊。“谢谢你，雅各布。”
“Anytime, Bella. But you already know that.”
“随时为您效劳，贝拉。但是你早就该知道。”
He got up, stretched, kissed the top of Nessie’s head, and then the top of mine. Finally, he punched Edward’s shoulder. “See you guys tomorrow. I guess things are going to be kind of boring now, aren’t they?”
他站起来，伸了个懒腰，轻轻的亲了亲的内希额头，然后又亲了亲我的。最后，他把手搭载了的肩爱德华膀上。“明天见，伙计。我想从现在起生活有将变得乏味了，不是吗？”
“I fervently hope so,” Edward said.
“我衷心的希望会是这样。”爱德华说。
The idea of peace and security reminded me of someone who didn’t have those feelings all the time.
关于安全感的思考然我想起了一个一直没有拥有安全的的人。
We got up when he was gone; I shifted my weight carefully so that Nessie was never jostled. I was deeply grateful to see her getting a sound sleep. So much weight had been on her tiny shoulders. It was time she got to be a child again — protected and secure. A few more years of childhood.
他走出去的时候我们也站了起来；我小心的变化着重心的位置，这样就不会挤着内希了。我满怀感激的看着她酣睡着。今天有太多的东西要她承受了。是时候让她做回孩子了——被细心呵护，充满安全感。仅仅几年的孩提时代。
“Oh, Jasper?” I asked as we turned for the door.
“哦，贾斯帕？”我从门口转身问道。
I frowned, promising myself that I would take over that working relationship from now on and spare J the heart attack that was surely on the way.
我皱起了眉头，希望这自己可以从现在起接手这个关系，这可能让J在心脏病的路上不用走得太远。
Jasper was sandwiched tight in between Alice and Esme, somehow seeming more central to the family picture than usual. “Yes, Bella?”
贾斯帕整晚都被爱丽丝和埃斯梅夹在中间，他看上去比以往更像这个家庭的中心。“怎么，贝拉？”
“I’m curious — why is J. Jenks scared stiff by just the sound of your name?”
“我很好奇—为什么J·詹克斯只是听到你的名字就惊呆了？”
Once we were across the river, we walked barely faster than human speed, in no hurry, holding hands. I was sick of being under a deadline, and I just wanted to take my time. Edward must have felt the same.
过河之后，我们的速度就只比正常人类的速度快一点了，我们不慌不忙的拉着手。我在死亡的阴影下挣扎了太久，我现在只想拥有属于自己的时间。爱德华的感觉想必和我一样。
Jasper chuckled. “It’s just been my experience that some kinds of working relationships are better motivated by fear than by monetary gain.”
贾斯帕轻声的笑了。“这只是我经营这种交易的一种策略而已，有时候适度的恐惧比金钱刺激更有用。”
We were kissed and hugged and wished a good night to our family. The only off note was Nahuel again, who looked intently after us, as if he wished he could follow.
我们亲吻拥抱，互道晚安。唯一的问题还是纳乌艾，他那样热切的盯着我们的背影，好像希望自己可以跟来。
“I have to say, I’m thoroughly impressed with Jacob right now,” Edward told me.
“我必须说，现在我对雅各布铭感在心。”爱德华告诉我。
“The wolves make quite an impact, don’t they?”
“狼人起了很大的作用，对吗？”
I frowned. “I’m not going to think about that for approximately six and a half more years.”
我皱起眉头。“在她六岁之前我不会考虑这个问题。”
My frown deepened. “I noticed. I’m grateful to Nahuel for today, but all the staring was a little weird. I don’t care if she is the only half-vampire he’s not related to.”
我的眉头皱的更紧了。“我注意到了。今天我很感激纳乌艾，但是事情开始变得有点古怪。我不介意她是唯一的另一个半吸血鬼，而且和他没有任何血缘关系。”
“I know. Like I said, impressive. It goes against the grain to say so, but she could do worse.”
“我知道，就像我说过的，这令我印象深刻。这样说可能令你难以接受，但是，她可能会变得很糟。”
I considered that for a minute. “He doesn’t see her that way. He’s not in a hurry for her to grow up. He just wants her to be happy.”
我思索了片刻。“他从没有用那种眼光看她。他根本不急着让她长大。他只是希望她快乐。”
“You lost me.”
“我不明白。”
Edward laughed and then sighed. “Of course, it looks like he’ll have some competition to worry about when the time comes.”
爱德华大笑起来，然后又叹了口气。“当然，看上去到时候他会有不少竞争者需要担心。”
“Because you’re alive,” he said quietly.
“因为你仍然活着，”他平静的说。
“That’s not what I mean. Not once today did he think about the fact that, according to Nahuel, Nessie will be fully matured in just six and a half years.”
“我不是指这个。今天他一次也没想过的现实是，就像纳乌艾一样，内希会在6年左右就完全长成。”
“All his life,” he explained, ” — and he’s fifty years older than I am –“
“他的一生”他解释道。“”——他比我老50岁——
“Oh, he wasn’t staring at her — he was staring at you.”
“哦，他看的不是她——他一直盯着的是你。”
That’s what it had seemed like… but that didn’t make any sense. “Why would he do that?”
这就是为什么他看上去像——但是这似乎没有任何意义。“他为什么这样做？”
“That’s so sad,” I murmured.
“这太不幸了。”我喃喃自语。
He ignored me. “He’s always thought of himself as an evil creation, a murderer by nature. His sisters all killed their mothers as well, but they thought nothing of it. Joham raised them to think of the humans as animals, while they were gods. But Nahuel was taught by Huilen, and Huilen loved her sister more than anyone else. It shaped his whole perspective. And, in some ways, he truly hated himself.”
他没有理会我。“他总是认为自己是邪恶的化身，天生的凶手。他的姐妹们也都杀死了她们的母亲，但是她们毫不在意。乔厄姆引导她们将人类视为动物，而他们自己是上帝。但是纳乌艾是休伊伦教养长的的，而休伊伦比任何人都爱他的妹妹。她塑造了他整个的人生观。而且，在某种程度上，他憎恨他自己。”
“And then he saw the three of us — and realized for the first time that just because he is half immortal, it doesn’t mean he is inherently evil. He looks at me and sees… what his father should have been.”
“而现在他见到了我们一家三口——这让他第一次意识到他的另一面，他并非自己所想的那个天生的恶魔。他看着我想象着……他的父亲就应该像我一样。”
He snorted and then was serious again. “He looks at you and sees the life his mother should have had.”
他不以为然的哼了一声，然后又严肃起来。“他看着你，想象着他的母亲也应该拥有的生命。”
“Decrepit,” I interjected.
“老气横秋。”我插嘴道。
“You are fairly ideal in every way,” I agreed.
“从哪个方面来看你都是完美的。”我赞叹道。
“Poor Nahuel,” I murmured, and then sighed because I knew I would never be able to think badly of him after this, no matter how uncomfortable his stare made me.
“可怜的纳乌艾，”我轻声说道，然后轻轻的叹了口气，因为我知道我今后不会再反感他了，他的注视也不会再令我不安。
“Don’t be sad for him. He’s happy now. Today, he’s finally begun to forgive himself.” I smiled for Nahuel’s happiness and then thought that today belonged to happiness.
“不必为他难过。他现在很幸福。今天，他终于决定原谅自己了。”我为纳乌艾的幸福感到欣慰。然后，我思索着属于今天的幸福元素。
But most significant in this tidal wave of happiness was the surest fact of all: I was with Edward. Forever.
但是在这潮水般的幸福中我能最深刻的感受到的是：我和爱德华在一起。直到永远。
Not that I’d want to repeat the last several weeks, but I had to admit they’d made me appreciate what I had more than ever.
我不想回顾这可怕的最后几周，但是它们却让我更深切的体会到永远的价值。
Though Irina’s sacrifice was a dark shadow against the white light, keeping the moment from perfection, the joy was impossible to deny. The life I’d fought for was safe again. My family was reunited. My daughter had a beautiful future stretching out endlessly in front of her. Tomorrow I would go see my father; he would see that the fear in my eyes had been replaced with joy, and he would be happy, too. Suddenly, I was sure that I wouldn’t find him there alone. I hadn’t been as observant as I might have been in the last few weeks, but in this moment it was like I’d known all along. Sue would be with Charlie — the werewolves’ mom with the vampire’s dad — and he wouldn’t be alone anymore. I smiled widely at this new insight.
虽然伊琳娜的牺牲是一层阴影，让一切变得不那么完美，但是快乐还是令人难以抗拒。我为之奋战的生命再次得到保全。我的家庭团圆了。在我女儿面前的是一条永无止境的幸福大道。明天，我会去探望我的父亲；他不会再看到我眼中那遮蔽了幸福的恐惧的阴云，他一定会很高兴的。突然，我确信我不会见到他单独在一起，在过去的几周里我并没有密切注意过，但是此刻我的感觉却像是已经了解内情很久了一样。苏和查理在一起——狼人的母亲和吸血鬼的父亲——他不用孤独终老了。我为自己的新发现笑了。
The cottage was a place of perfect peace in the silver-blue night. We carried Nessie to her bed and gently tucked her in. She smiled as she slept.
我们的小屋安静的矗立在银蓝色的夜幕下。我们轻轻的把内希安放到她自己的床上。她沉睡的脸上带着天使般的微笑。
Edward and I walked slowly to our room, swinging our arms between us.
爱德华和我挽着手，慢慢的走回我们的房间。
I took Aro’s gift from around my neck and tossed it lightly into the corner of her room. She could play with it if she wished; she liked sparkly things.
我把阿罗的礼物从脖子上摘下来，随手扔在了她房间的一个角落里。如果她喜欢，可以把它当做一个小玩具；她喜欢闪闪发亮的东西。
“I want to try something,” I informed him, smiling slightly at his bewildered expression.
“我想做一些尝试，”我提示他，他困惑的表情让我忍不住笑了。
“A night for celebrations,” he murmured, and he put his hand under my chin to lift my lips to his.
“今晚应该庆祝一下，”他喃喃的说道，用手挑起我的下巴，寻找我的唇。
He looked at me in confusion. As a general rule, I didn’t pull away. Okay, it was more than a general rule. This was a first.
他困惑的望着我。一般情况下，我从不会挣脱他的怀抱。好吧，现在我要打破常规。这可是第一次。
I put my hands on both sides of his face and closed my eyes in concentration.
我用双手捧住他的脸庞，让我眼睛集中精神靠近他的。
I hadn’t done very well with this when Zafrina had tried to teach me before, but I knew my shield better now. I understood the part that fought against separation from me, the automatic instinct to preserve self above all else.
查弗丽娜以前曾经教过我这个，但是我做的不是很好，但是我知道我现在能更好的控制我的守护盾了。我知道我的守护盾的一部分拒绝离开我的思想，它将保护我作为一种本能的反应。
“Wait,” I hesitated, pulling away.
“等一下，”我犹豫的挣脱了。
It still wasn’t anywhere near as easy as shielding other people along with myself. I felt the elastic recoil again as my shield fought to protect me. I had to strain to push it entirely away from me; it took all of my focus.
这里没有什么需要我的守护盾去保护。我能感觉到正在我的体内，我不得不集中所有的注意力使它从我的体内扩展开去。
I knew it was working then, so I concentrated even harder, dredging up the specific memories I’d saved for this moment, letting them flood my mind, and hopefully his as well.
我知道我的努力起作用了，所以我更加集中精神，将我为此刻准备好的记忆释放出来，浮出我的脑海，希望他能清楚地看到。
Some of the memories were not clear — dim human memories, seen through weak eyes and heard through weak ears: the first time I’d seen his face… the way it felt when he’d held me in the meadow… the sound of his voice through the darkness of my faltering consciousness when he’d saved me from James… his face as he waited under a canopy of flowers to marry me… every precious moment from the island… his cold hands touching our baby through my skin…
有一部分记忆已经模糊不清了——昏暗的人类记忆，来自于并不发达的视觉和听觉器官：我第一次看到他的脸……他领着我穿过小路走向草地……他穿越黑暗唤醒我知觉的声音，那时他已经从James手中将我救出来……婚礼那天他在花架下等我时的面容……每一个珍贵的记忆都像岛屿一样浮出水面……他冰冷的手指透过我的皮肤碰触着我们的孩子……
His lips, suddenly fierce against mine, broke my concentration.
他的唇突然猛烈的攫住我的，打断了我的回忆。
“Bella!” Edward whispered in shock.
“贝拉！”爱德华震惊的低语。
And the sharp memories, perfectly recalled: his face when I’d opened my eyes to my new life, to the endless dawn of immortality… that first kiss… that first night…
而那些清晰地记忆，被完美的呈现出来：在我的新生中当我第一次睁开眼睛看到的他的脸庞，在那个永无止境的拂晓……第一个吻……第一个夜晚……
With a gasp, I lost my grip on the struggling weight I was holding away from myself. It snapped back like stressed elastic, protecting my thoughts once again.
伴随着我急促的喘息，我的守护盾挣脱了我的控制，飞快的反弹回来，再次屏蔽了我的思想。
“I’ll be good,” he promised.
“我会老老实实的。”他向我保证。
“Now you know,” I said lightly, and shrugged. “No one’s ever loved anyone as much as I love you.”
“现在你知道了”我轻轻的说道，耸了耸肩。“没有人像我爱你这样爱一个人。”
I grimaced. “It’s very difficult.”
我做了个生气的鬼脸。“这太困难了。”
“You’re almost right.” He smiled, his eyes still a little wider than usual. “I know of just one exception.”
“你几乎说对了。”他笑了，眼睛仍然比平常睁得更大。“我知道只有有一个例外。”
“We have plenty of time to work on it,” I reminded him.
“我们有的是时间进行尝试，”我提醒他。
“I can’t keep it up if I’m even the slightest bit distracted,” I warned him.
“我做不到，即使我只有那么一丁点的心烦意乱。（心猿意马应该用在这里更合适一些）”我警告他。
“Liar.”
“你骗人。”
“I heard you,” he breathed. “How? How did you do that?”
“我听见你了，”他喘息道。“怎么回事？你是怎么做到的？”
“That sounds exactly right to me.”
“对我而言这么说很准确。”
“Forever and forever and forever,” he murmured.
“永远，永远，永远。”他喃喃道。
He waited, his expression eager.
他等待着，带着热切的表情。
He started to kiss me again, but then stopped abruptly.
他再次开始吻我，但是突然又停住了。
“Oops, lost it!” I sighed.
“哦不，它不见了”我叹息道。
I laughed breathlessly when his urgent kiss interrupted my efforts again.
我喘息着大笑起来，又一次，他突如其来的热吻将我尝试打断。
I pressed my hands to his face again, hefted the shield right out of my mind, and then started in where I’d left off — with the crystal-clear memory of the first night of my new life… lingering on the details.
我再次捧起她的脸，把守护盾从我的大脑中推出去，然后从刚才结束的记忆开始——我新生的第一夜的鲜明的记忆……然后一直停留在那里。
I pursed my lips, my eyes narrowing. Then I smiled.
我撅起嘴巴，眯起了眼睛。然后我笑了。（狡猾）
“Damn it,” he growled, kissing hungrily down the edge of my jaw.
“该死，”他咆哮着，他的吻急切的移到我的下巴上。
He was dazed. He blinked twice and shook his head.
他看上去有点头晕眼花了。他连眨了两次眼睛，摇了摇头。
“Can you do it again?” he wondered.
“你还能再试一次吗？”他质疑道。
“Zafrina’s idea. We practiced with it a few times.”
“查弗丽娜的点子。我们练过一段时间。”
And then we continued blissfully into this small but perfect piece of our forever.
然后，我们坠入永恒的……幸福。
THE END.
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