“They’re hunting ducks,” Ali said in a hoarse voice. “They hunt ducks at night, you know. Don’t be afraid.”
“他们在猎杀野鸭。”阿里嘶哑地说，“他们在夜里猎鸭子，别害怕。”
We stayed huddled that way until the early hours of the morning. The shootings and explosions had lasted less than an hour, but they had frightened us badly, because none of us had ever heard gunshots in the streets. They were foreign sounds to us then. The generation of Afghan children whose ears would know nothing but the sounds of bombs and gunfire was not yet born. Huddled together in the dining room and waiting for the sun to rise, none of us had any notion that a way of life had ended. Our way of life. If not quite yet, then at least it was the beginning of the end. The end, the “official” end, would come first in April 1978 with the communist coup d’etat, and then in December 1979, when Russian tanks would roll into the very same streets where Hassan and I played, bringing the death of the Afghanistan I knew and marking the start of a still ongoing era of bloodletting.
我们就那样哆嗦地抱成一团，直到天快破晓。枪声和爆炸声还没一个钟头就结束，可是把我们吓坏了，因为我们从来没听过街道上会有枪响。当时这些声音对我们来说太奇怪了。那些耳朵里面除了枪响再没有其他声音的阿富汗孩子当时还没出世。在餐厅里，我们挤成一堆，等待太阳升起，没有人意识到过去的生活方式已然告终。我们的生活方式，即使尚未全然终结，那也是苟延残喘。终结，正式的终结是在1978年4月，其时政变发生，接着是1979年12月，俄国坦克在我和哈桑玩耍的街道上耀武扬威，给我的父老乡亲带来死亡，开启了如今仍未过去的、血流成河的时代。
A siren went off in the distance. Somewhere glass shattered and someone shouted. I heard people on the street, jolted from sleep and probably still in their pajamas, with ruffled hair and puffy eyes. Hassan was crying. Ali pulled him close, clutched him with tenderness. Later, I would tell myself I hadn’t felt envious of Hassan. Not at all.
远处传来警报声。不知道从什么地方传来玻璃破裂的声音，还有人高声叫嚷。我听见人们从睡梦中惊醒，跑到街道上，也许身上还穿着睡衣，披头散发，睡眼惺忪。哈桑在哭，阿里将他抱紧，轻轻地抚摸着他。后来我告诉自己，我没有妒忌哈桑，一点都没有。
“Father! What’s that sound?” Hassan yelped, his hands outstretched toward Ali. Ali wrapped his arms around us. A white light flashed, lit the sky in silver. It flashed again and was followed by a rapid staccato of gunfire.
“爸爸！那是什么声音？”哈桑大叫，伸开双臂朝阿里奔过去。阿里伸手揽住我们。一道白光闪起，夜空亮起银辉。又是一道白光，随后是暴风骤雨般的枪声。
Something roared like thunder. The earth shook a little and we heard the “rat-a-tat-tat” of gunfire. “Father!” Hassan cried. We sprung to our feet and raced out of the living room. We found Ali hobbling frantically across the foyer.
不知道什么东西发出一阵雷鸣般的声响，接着大地微微抖动，我们听见“砰——砰——砰”的枪声。“爸爸！”哈桑大声叫喊。我们拔腿跑出起居室，看见阿里跛着脚在走廊狂奔。
THEY WEREN’T SHOOTING ducks after all. As it turned out, they hadn’t shot much of anything that night of July 17, 1973. Kabul awoke the next morning to find that the monarchy was a thing of the past. The king, Zahir Shah, was away in Italy. In his absence, his cousin Daoud Khan had ended the king’s forty-year reign with a bloodless coup.
他们根本不是在猎杀野鸭。真相终于大白：1973年7月17日夜里，他们根本就没有对什么东西开枪。翌日清晨，大梦初醒的喀布尔发现君主制已然成为历史。查希尔国王远在意大利，他的堂兄达乌德汗【Mohammed Daoud Khan 1909～1978,1973年起任阿富汗共和国总统，直到1978年被刺杀】趁他不在，发动了政变，没有多加杀戮，就终结了他四十年来的统治。
Just before sunrise, Baba’s car peeled into the driveway. His door slammed shut and his running footsteps pounded the stairs. Then he appeared in the doorway and I saw something on his face. Something I didn’t recognize right away because I’d never seen it before: fear. “Amir! Hassan!” he exclaimed as he ran to us, opening his arms wide. “They blocked all the roads and the telephone didn’t work. I was so worried!”
太阳快升起的时候，爸爸的轿车驶进车道。他重重地关上车门，匆忙的脚步在台阶上发出沉重的声音。接着他在门口出现，我看见他脸色挂着某种神情，那种脸色我一时辨认不出来，因为此前从未在他身上见过：恐惧。“阿米尔！哈桑！”他大喊，张开双臂朝我们跑过来，“他们封锁了所有的道路，电话又坏了，我很担心。”
We let him wrap us in his arms and, for a brief insane moment, I was glad about whatever had happened that night.
我们停在他怀里，有那么一会儿，我竟然发疯似的觉得很高兴，而不管当晚究竟发生了什么事情。
I remember Hassan and I crouching that next morning outside my father’s study, as Baba and Rahim Khan sipped black tea and listened to breaking news of the coup on Radio Kabul.
我记得隔日早上，爸爸和拉辛汗喝着红茶，听着喀布尔广播电台播送的有关政变的最新消息，我跟哈桑躲在爸爸的书房外面。
“Does ‘republic’mean Father and I will have to move away?”
“‘共和‘是不是要我和爸爸离开这里？”
“What?”
“怎么啦？”
“Amir agha?”
“阿米尔少爷？”
“Do you want to go climb our tree?”
“你想去爬我们的树吗？”
“I don’t think so,” I whispered back.
“我觉得不是。”我低声回答。
“Amir agha?” Hassan whispered.
“阿米尔少爷？”哈桑低声说。
“What?”
“什么呀？”
“What?”
“怎么啦？”
“I don’t want them to send me and Father away.”
“我不想他们把我跟爸爸送走。”
My smile broadened. That was another thing about Hassan. He always knew when to say the right thing — the news on the radio was getting pretty boring. Hassan went to his shack to get ready and I ran upstairs to grab a book. Then I went to the kitchen, stuffed my pockets with handfuls of pine nuts, and ran outside to find Hassan waiting for me. We burst through the front gates and headed for the hill.
我笑得更开心了。这也是哈桑的本领，他总是懂得在恰当的时间说恰当的事情——收音机的新闻实在是太闷了。哈桑回到他那寒碜的屋子去做准备，我跑上楼抓起一本书。接着我到厨房去，往口袋里塞一把松子，然后跑出去，哈桑在外面等我。我们穿过前门，朝那座山头进发。
“What?”
“什么呀？”
We crossed the residential street and were trekking through a barren patch of rough land that led to the hill when, suddenly, a rock struck Hassan in the back. We whirled around and my heart dropped. Assef and two of his friends, Wali and Kamal, were approaching us.
我们穿过住宅区，在一片通往山丘的荒芜空地上跋涉前进。突然间，一块石头击中了哈桑的后背。我们转过身，我的心一沉。阿塞夫和他的两个狐朋狗友，瓦里和卡莫，正朝我们走过来。
I smiled. “Bas, you donkey. No one’s sending you away.”
我露出微笑：“好啦，你这头驴子，没有人会送走你们。”
“Amir agha?”
“阿米尔少爷？”
I shrugged. “I don’t know.” On Baba’s radio, they were saying that word, “republic”, over and over again.
我耸耸肩：“我不懂。”爸爸的收音机一遍又一遍地传出“共和”这个词。
“What’s a ‘republic’?”
“什么是‘共和’？”
Hassan considered this. “Amir agha?”
哈桑想了想，说：“阿米尔少爷？”
Assef was the son of one of my father’s friends, Mahmood, an airline pilot. His family lived a few streets south of our Home, in a posh, high-walled compound with palm trees. If you were a kid living in the Wazir Akbar Khan section of Kabul, you knew about Assef and his famous stainless-steel brass knuckles, hopefully not through personal experience. Born to a German mother and Afghan father, the blond, blue-eyed Assef towered over the other kids. His well-earned reputation for savagery preceded him on the streets. Flanked by his obeying friends, he walked the neighborhood like a Khan strolling through his land with his eager-to-please entourage. His word was law, and if you needed a little legal education, then those brass knuckles were just the right teaching tool. I saw him use those knuckles once on a kid from the Karteh-Char district. I will never forget how Assef’s blue eyes glinted with a light not entirely sane and how he grinned, how he “grinned”, as he pummeled that poor kid unconscious. Some of the boys in Wazir Akbar Khan had nicknamed him Assef “Goshkhor”, or Assef “the Ear Eater.” Of course, none of them dared utter it to his face unless they wished to suffer the same fate as the poor kid who had unwittingly inspired that nickname when he had fought Assef over a kite and ended up Fishing his right ear from a muddy gutter. Years later, I learned an English word for the creature that Assef was, a word for which a good Farsi equivalent does not exist: “sociopath.”
阿塞夫的父亲叫马赫穆德，我爸爸的朋友，是个飞机驾驶员。他家位于一处豪华的住宅区，深院高墙，棕榈环绕，就在我们家南边，只隔了几条街。住在喀布尔瓦兹尔·阿克巴·汗区的小孩，人人都知道阿塞夫和他那臭名昭著的不锈钢拳套，谁都不愿意尝尝它的滋味。由于父亲是阿富汗人，母亲是德国人，蓝眼睛的阿塞夫头发金黄，身材比其他孩子都要高大。他凶残成性，恶名远播，人们总是避之惟恐不及。他身旁有群为虎作伥的党羽，走在附近的街道上，宛如可汗在阿谀逢迎的部属陪伴下，视察自己的领地。他说的话就是法律，如果你需要一点法律教育，那么他那不锈钢拳套无疑是最好的教具。我曾见过他用那拳套折磨一个卡德察区的小孩。我永远都不会忘记阿塞夫蓝色的眼睛中闪烁的近乎疯狂的光芒，还有他那邪恶的笑脸——那可怜的孩子被他痛击得不省人事，他竟然咧嘴而笑。瓦兹尔·阿克巴·汗区某些儿童给他起了个花名，叫“吃耳朵的阿塞夫”。当然，没有人胆敢当面这样称呼他，除非他们想亲身体会那个可怜孩子的下场：他跟阿塞夫争夺一只风筝，结果之后在路边的臭水沟打捞自己的右耳。多年以后，我学到了一个英文单词，在法尔西语找不到对应的字眼，可以用来形容阿塞夫那样的人渣：反社会分子。
“Good morning, ‘kunis’!” Assef exclaimed, waving. “Fag,” that was another of his favorite insults. Hassan retreated behind me as the three older boys closed in. They stood before us, three tall boys dressed in jeans and T-shirts. Towering over us all, Assef crossed his thick arms on his chest, a savage sort of grin on his lips. Not for the first time, it occurred to me that Assef might not be entirely sane. It also occurred to me how lucky I was to have Baba as my father, the sole reason, I believe, Assef had mostly refrained from harassing me too much.
“早上好，苦哈哈！”阿塞夫说，摆摆手。“苦哈哈”是另外一个阿塞夫喜欢用来侮辱人的词语。他们三个都比我们大，看到他们走近，哈桑躲在我后面。他们站在我们面前，三个穿着牛仔裤T恤的高大男生。阿塞夫身材最魁梧，双臂抱胸，脸上露出凶残的笑容。我已经不止一次觉得阿塞夫不太像个正常人。幸运的是，我有爸爸这样的父亲，我相信正是因为这个，阿塞夫对我不敢太过放肆造次。
Now he was walking toward us, hands on his hips, his sneakers kicking up little puffs of dust.
眼下他正双手放在背后，用那双胶底运动鞋踢起尘灰，朝我们走来。
Of all the neighborhood boys who tortured Ali, Assef was by far the most relentless. He was, in fact, the originator of the Babalu jeer, “Hey, Babalu, who did you eat today? Huh? Come on, Babalu, give us a smile!” And on days when he felt particularly inspired, he spiced up his badgering a little, “Hey, you flat-nosed Babalu, who did you eat today? Tell us, you slant-eyed donkey!”
在那些折磨阿里的男孩中，阿塞夫远比其他人来得恶毒。实际上，人们用“巴巴鲁”来嘲弄阿里，他正是始作俑者。喂，巴巴鲁，你今天吃了谁啊？哦？来吧，巴巴鲁，朝我们笑一笑。在那些他觉得特别来劲的日子，他会加油添醋：喂，你这个塌鼻子巴巴鲁，今天吃了谁啊？告诉我们，你这头细眼睛的驴子！
He tipped his chin to Hassan. “Hey, Flat-Nose,” he said. “How is Babalu?”
他朝哈桑扬起下巴。“喂，塌鼻子，”他说，“巴巴鲁可好吗？”
Hassan said nothing and crept another step behind me.
哈桑一言不发，在我身后又退了一步。
“Have you heard the news, boys?” Assef said, his grin never faltering. “The king is gone. Good riddance. Long live the president! My father knows Daoud Khan, did you know that, Amir?”
“你们听到消息了吗，小子？”阿塞夫说，脸上还是带着那副邪恶的笑容，“国王跑掉了，跑得好！总统万岁！我爸爸跟达乌德汗相熟。你认识他吗，阿米尔？”
“Do you know what I will tell Daoud Khan the next time he comes to our house for dinner?” Assef said. “I’m going to have a little chat with him, man to man, ‘mard’ to ‘mard’. Tell him what I told my mother. About Hitler. Now, there was a leader. A great leader. A man with vision. I’ll tell Daoud Khan to remember that if they had let Hitler finish what he had started, the world be a better place now.”
“你知道下次达乌德汗到我们家里吃晚饭我会对他说什么吗？”阿塞夫说，“我会跟他稍作交谈，男人和男人的交谈。将我跟妈妈说过的那些告诉他，关于希特勒的。现在我们有位伟大的领袖，伟大的领袖，一个志向远大的男人。我会告诉达乌德汗，提醒他记住，要是希特勒完成他那未竟的事业，这个世界会变得比现在更好。”
“Well, Daoud Khan dined at our house last year,” Assef went on. “How do you like that, Amir?”
“好吧，达乌德汗去年还在我家吃过晚饭。”阿塞夫继续说，“怎么样啊，阿米尔？”
I wondered if anyone would hear us scream in this remote patch of land. Baba’s house was a good kilometer away. I wished we’d stayed at the house.
我在想，如果我们在这片荒地高声求救，会不会有人听到？爸爸的房子距这儿足足有一公里。要是我们留在家里就好了！
“So does my father,” I said. In reality, I had no idea if that was true or not.
“我爸爸跟他也熟。”我说，实际上连我自己都不知道那是不是真的。
Assef snickered. “He sounds like my mother, and she’s German; she should know better. But then they want you to believe that, don’t they? They don’t want you to know the truth.”
阿塞夫不屑地说：“他说的跟我妈妈一样。她是德国人，她本来应该更清楚。不过他们要你这么认为，是吗？他们不想让你知道真相。”
“Baba says Hitler was crazy, that he ordered a lot of innocent people killed,” I heard myself say before I could clamp a hand on my mouth.
“我爸爸说希特勒是个疯子，他下令杀害了很多无辜的人。”我来不及用手捂住嘴巴，这话已经脱口而出。
“But you have to read books they don’t give out in school,” Assef said. “I have. And my eyes have been opened. Now I have a vision, and I’m going to share it with our new president. Do you know what it is?”
“但是你得读读那些学校里面看不到的书。”阿塞夫说，“我读了，令我茅塞顿开。现在我有个抱负，我要将它告诉我们的总统。你想知道那是什么吗？”
His blue eyes flicked to Hassan. “Afghanistan is the land of Pashtuns. It always has been, always will be. We are the true Afghans, the pure Afghans, not this Flat-Nose here. His people pollute our Homeland, our watan. They dirty our blood.” He made a sweeping, grandiose gesture with his hands. “Afghanistan for Pashtuns, I say. That’s my vision.”
他那双蓝眼睛望着哈桑：“阿富汗是普什图人的地盘，过去一直是，将来也永远是。我们是真正的阿富汗人，纯种的阿富汗人，这个塌鼻子不是。他们这种人污染了我们的土地、我们的国家，他们弄脏我们的血脉。”他挥舞双手，做了个夸张的姿势，“普什图人的阿富汗，我说，这就是我的抱负。”
I didn’t know who “they” were, or what truth they were hiding, and I didn’t want to find out. I wished I hadn’t said anything. I wished again I’d look up and see Baba coming up the hill.
我不知道“他们”是谁，也不知道他们隐瞒了什么真相，我也根本不想去知道。我希望我什么也没说，我又希望我抬起头就能看见爸爸朝山上走来。
I shook my head. He’d tell me anyway; Assef always answered his own questions.
我摇摇头。他终究还是说了，阿塞夫总是自问自答。
“Just let us go, Assef,” I said, hating the way my voice trembled. “We’re not bothering you.”
“放我们走，阿塞夫，”我说，对自己颤抖的声音感到厌恶，“我们没有碍着你。”
He reached for something from the back pocket of his jeans. “I’ll ask the president to do what the king didn’t have the quwat to do. To rid Afghanistan of all the dirty, kasseef Hazaras.”
他伸手去牛仔裤的后兜摸索某样东西，“我要恳求总统完成从前国王没做的事情，派军队清除所有这些垃圾，这些肮脏的哈扎拉人。”
Assef shifted his gaze to me again. He looked like someone coming out of a good dream. “Too late for Hitler,” he said. “But not for us.”
阿塞夫又看着我，他看起来像是刚从美梦中醒来。“希特勒生不逢时，”他说，“但我们还来得及。”
“Oh, you’re bothering me,” Assef said. And I saw with a sinking heart what he had fished out of his pocket. Of course. His stainless-steel brass knuckles sparkled in the sun. “You’re bothering me very much. In fact, you bother me more than this Hazara here. How can you talk to him, play with him, let him touch you?” he said, his voice dripping with disgust. Wali and Kamal nodded and grunted in agreement. Assef narrowed his eyes. Shook his head. When he spoke again, he sounded as baffled as he looked. “How can you call him your friend?”
“哦，你们碍着我了。”阿塞夫说。看到他从裤兜里掏出那个东西，我的心开始下沉。当然，他掏出来的是那黄铜色的不锈钢拳套，在阳光下闪闪发亮。“你们严重地碍着我。实际上，你比这个哈扎拉小子更加碍着我。你怎么可以跟他说话，跟他玩耍，让他碰你？”他的声音充满了嫌恶。瓦里和卡莫点头以示同意，随声附和。阿塞夫双眉一皱，摇摇头。他再次说话的时候，声音显得跟他的表情一样困惑。“你怎么可以当他是‘朋友’？”
“But he’s not my friend!” I almost blurted. “He’s my servant!” Had I really thought that? Of course I hadn’t. I hadn’t. I treated Hassan well, just like a friend, better even, more like a brother. But if so, then why, when Baba’s friends came to visit with their kids, didn’t I ever include Hassan in our games? Why did I play with Hassan only when no one else was around?
可是他并非我的朋友！我几乎冲口说出。我真的想过这个问题吗？当然没有，我没有想过。我对哈桑很好，就像对待朋友，甚至还要更好，像是兄弟。但如果这样的话，那么何以每逢爸爸的朋友带着他们的孩子来拜访，我玩游戏的时候从来没喊上哈桑？为什么我只有在身边没有其他人的时候才和哈桑玩耍？
Assef slipped on the brass knuckles. Gave me an icy look. “You’re part of the problem, Amir. If idiots like you and your father didn’t take these people in, we’d be rid of them by now. They’d all just go rot in Hazarajat where they belong. You’re a disgrace to Afghanistan.”
阿塞夫戴上他的不锈钢拳套，冷冷瞟了我一眼。“你也是个问题，阿米尔。如果没有你和你父亲这样的白痴，收容这些哈扎拉人，我们早就可以清除他们了。他们全都应该去哈扎拉贾特Hazarajat，阿富汗中部山区，为哈扎拉人聚居地。，在那个属于他们的地方烂掉。你是个阿富汗败类。”
There was a flurry of rapid movement behind me. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Hassan bend down and stand up quickly. Assef’s eyes flicked to something behind me and widened with surprise. I saw that same look ol astonishment on Kamal and Wali’s faces as they too saw what had happened behind me.
我背后传来一阵急遽的活动声音。我眼角一瞄，看见哈桑弯下腰，迅速地站起来。阿塞夫朝我身后望去，吃惊地瞪大了眼睛。我看见瓦里和卡莫也看着我身后，眼里同样带着震惊的神色。
I looked in his crazy eyes and saw that he meant it. He really meant to hurt me. Assef raised his fist and came for me.
我看着他那狂妄的眼睛，看懂了他的眼色，他是真的要伤害我。阿塞夫举起拳头，向我走来。
I turned and came face to face with Hassan’s slingshot. Hassan had pulled the wide elastic band all the way back. In the cup was a rock the size of a walnut. Hassan held the slingshot pointed directly at Assef’s face. His hand trembled with the strain of the pulled elastic band and beads of sweat had erupted on his brow.
我转过身，正好看到哈桑的弹弓。哈桑把那根橡皮带满满拉开，弓上是一块核桃大小的石头。哈桑用弹弓对着阿塞夫的脸，他用尽力气拉着弹弓，双手颤抖，汗珠在额头上渗出来。
“Please leave us alone, Agha,” Hassan said in a flat tone. He’d referred to Assef as “Agha”, and I wondered briefly what it must be like to live with such an ingrained sense of one’s place in a hierarchy.
“请让我们走，少爷。”哈桑语气平静地说。他称呼阿塞夫为少爷，有个念头在我脑里一闪而过：带着这种根深蒂固的意识，生活在一个等级分明的地方，究竟是什么滋味？
Hassan shrugged. To an outsider, he didn’t look scared. But Hassan’s face was my earliest memory and I knew all of its subtle nuances, knew each and every twitch and flicker that ever rippled across it. And I saw that he was scared. He was scared plenty.
哈桑耸耸肩。在外人看来，他镇定自若，但哈桑的脸是我从小就看惯了的，我清楚它所有细微的变化，他脸上任何一丝颤动都躲不过我的眼睛。我看得出他很害怕，非常害怕。
“Please leave us be, Agha,” Hassan said.
“请放过我们，少爷。”哈桑说。
Assef gritted his teeth. “Put it down, you motherless Hazara.”
阿塞夫咬牙切齿：“放下来，你这个没有老娘的哈扎拉小子。”
Assef’s mouth twitched. Wali and Kamal watched this exchange with something akin to fascination. Someone had challenged their god. Humiliated him. And, worst of all, that someone was a skinny Hazara. Assef looked from the rock to Hassan. He searched Hassan’s face intently. What he found in it must have convinced him of the seriousness of Hassan’s intentions, because he lowered his fist.
阿塞夫的嘴巴抽搐了一下。瓦里和卡莫看到强弱易势，简直无法置信，有人在挑战他们的神，羞辱他。更糟糕的是，这个家伙居然是个瘦小的哈扎拉人。阿塞夫看看那块石头，又看看哈桑。他仔细看着哈桑的脸，他所看到的，一定让他相信哈桑并非妄言恫吓，因为他放下了拳头。
“You are right, Agha. But perhaps you didn’t notice that I’m the one holding the slingshot. If you make a move, they’ll have to change your nickname from Assef ‘the Ear Eater’ to ‘One-Eyed Assef’, because I have this rock pointed at your left eye.” He said this so flatly that even I had to strain to hear the fear that I knew hid under that calm voice.
“是的，少爷。但也许你没有看到，拉着弹弓的人是我。如果你敢动一动，他们会改掉你的花名，不再叫你‘吃耳朵的阿塞夫‘，而是叫你‘独眼龙阿塞夫‘。因为我这块石头对准你的左眼。”他泰然自若地说着，就算是我，也要费尽力气才能听得出他平静的声音下面的恐惧。
Assef smiled. “Maybe you didn’t notice, but there are three of us and two of you.”
阿塞夫笑起来：“难道你没有看到吗？我们有三个人，你们只有两个。”
“You should know something about me, Hazara,” Assef said gravely. “I’m a very patient person. This doesn’t end today, believe me.” He turned to me. “This isn’t the end for you either, Amir. Someday, I’ll make you face me one on one.” Assef retreated a step. His disciples followed.
“你应该对我有所了解，哈扎拉人。”阿塞夫阴沉着脸说，“我是个非常有耐心的人。今天这事可没完，相信我。”他转向我，“我跟你也没完，阿米尔。总有一天，我会亲自让你尝尝我的厉害。”阿塞夫退了一步，他的跟班也是。
FOR THE NEXT COUPLE of years, the words “economic development” and “reform” danced on a lot of lips in Kabul. The constitutional monarchy had been abolished, replaced by a republic, led by a president of the republic. For a while, a sense of rejuvenation and purpose swept across the land. People spoke of women’s rights and modern technology.
在随后几年，喀布尔的人们不时将“经济发展”、“改革”之类的词挂在嘴边。君主立宪制被废弃了，取而代之的是在共和国总统领导下的共和制。有那么一阵，这个国家焕发出勃勃生机，也有各种远大目标，人们谈论着妇女权利和现代科技。
“Your Hazara made a big mistake today, Amir,” he said. They then turned around, walked away. I watched them walk down the hill and disappear behind a wall.
“你的哈扎拉人今天犯了大错，阿米尔。”他说，然后转身离开。我看着他们走下山，消失在一堵墙壁之后。
Hassan was trying to tuck the slingshot in his waist with a pair of trembling hands. His mouth curled up into something that was supposed to be a reassuring smile. It took him five tries to tie the string of his trousers. Neither one of us said much of anything as we walked Home in trepidation, certain that Assef and his friends would ambush us every time we turned a corner. They didn’t and that should have comforted us a little. But it didn’t. Not at all.
哈桑双手颤抖，努力把弹弓插回腰间。他的双唇弯起，或是想露出一个安心的微笑吧。他试了五次，才把弹弓系在裤子上。我们脚步沉重地走回家，深知阿塞夫和他的朋友很可能在某个拐角处等着收拾我们，没有人开口说话。他们没有，那应该让我们松一口气。但是我们没有，根本就没有。
And for the most part, even though a new leader lived in “Arg” — the royal palace in Kabul-life went on as before. People went to work Saturday through Thursday and gathered for picnics on Fridays in parks, on the banks of Ghargha Lake, in the gardens of Paghman. Multicolored buses and lorries filled with passengers rolled through the narrow streets of Kabul, led by the constant shouts of the driver assistants who straddled the vehicles’rear bumpers and yelped directions to the driver in their thick Kabuli accent. On “Eid”, the three days of celebration after the holy month of Ramadan, Kabulis dressed in their best and newest clothes and visited their families. People hugged and kissed and greeted each other with “Eid Mubarak.” Happy Eid. Children opened gifts and played with dyed hard-boiled eggs.
对于大多数人来说，尽管喀布尔的皇宫换了新主人，生活仍和过去并无二致。人们依旧从周六到周四上班，依旧每逢周五聚集在公园、喀尔卡湖边或者帕格曼公园野餐。五颜六色的公共汽车和货车载满乘客，在喀布尔狭窄的街道上川流不息，司机的助手跨坐在后面的保险杠上，用口音浓重的喀布尔方言大声叫嚷，替司机指引方向。到了为期三天的开斋节，斋戒月回历的第九个月为斋戒月。之后的节日，喀布尔人穿上他们最新、最好的衣服，相互拜访。人们拥抱，亲吻，互祝“开斋节快乐”。儿童拆开礼物，玩着染色的水煮蛋。
Early that following winter of 1974, Hassan and I were playing in the yard one day, building a snow fort, when Ali called him in. “Hassan, Agha sahib wants to talk to you!” He was standing by the front door, dressed in white, hands tucked under his armpits, breath puffing from his mouth.
1974年初冬，有一天哈桑和我在院子里嬉闹，用雪堆一座城堡。这时阿里唤他进屋：“哈桑，老爷想跟你说话！”他身穿白色衣服，站在门口，双手缩在腋下，嘴里呼出白气。
“Come on, Ali, tell us,” I pressed. “Is it a drawing book? Maybe a new pistol?”
“别这样嘛，阿里，跟我们说说。”我催他，“一本图画册吗？还是一把新手枪？”
Ali shrugged. “Agha sahib hasn’t discussed it with me.”
阿里耸耸肩：“老爷没有告诉我。”
Hassan and I exchanged a smile. We’d been waiting for his call all day: It was Hassan’s birthday. “What is it, Father, do you know? Will you tell us?” Hassan said. His eyes were gleaming.
哈桑和我相视而笑。我们整天都在等他的传唤：那天是哈桑的生日。“那是什么，爸爸？你知道吗？可以告诉我们吗？”哈桑说，眼里洋溢着快乐。
Like Hassan, Ali was incapable of lying. Every year, he pretended not to know what Baba had bought Hassan or me for our birthdays. And every year, his eyes betrayed him and we coaxed the goods out of him. This time, though, it seemed he was telling the truth.
跟哈桑一样，阿里也不善说谎。每年我们生日，他都假装不知道爸爸买了什么礼物。每年他的眼神都出卖他，我们都能从他口里将礼物套出来。不过这次他看来似乎真的不知道。
Baba never missed Hassan’s birthday. For a while, he used to ask Hassan what he wanted, but he gave up doing that because Hassan was always too modest to actually suggest a present. So every winter Baba picked something out himself. He bought him a Japanese toy truck one year, an electric locomotive and train track set another year. The previous year, Baba had surprised Hassan with a leather cowboy hat just like the one Clint Eastwood wore in “The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly” — which had unseated “The Magnificent Seven” as our favorite Western. That whole winter, Hassan and I took turns wearing the hat, and belted out the film’s famous music as we climbed mounds of snow and shot each other dead.
爸爸从来不会忘记哈桑的生日。曾经，他经常问哈桑想要什么，但后来他就不问了，因为哈桑要的东西太过细微，简直不能被称之为礼物，所以每年冬天爸爸自行挑选些东西。有一年他给买了一套日本的玩具车。上一年，爸爸让哈桑喜出望外，给他买了一顶毛皮牛仔帽，克林特·伊斯伍德带着这种帽子演出了《黄金三镖客》——这部电影取代了《七侠荡寇志》，成为我们最喜爱的西部片。整整一个冬天，哈桑和我轮流戴那顶帽子，唱着那首著名的电影主题曲，爬上雪堆，打雪仗。
We took off our gloves and removed our snow-laden boots at the front door. When we stepped into the foyer, we found Baba sitting by the wood-burning cast-iron stove with a short, balding Indian man dressed in a brown suit and red tie.
我们在前门脱掉手套，擦掉靴子上的雪。我们走进门廊，看到爸爸坐在炭火熊熊的铁炉前面，旁边坐着一个矮小的秃头印度人，他穿着棕色西装，系着红领带。
Hassan and I traded blank looks. There was no gift-wrapped box in sight. No bag. No toy. Just Ali standing behind us, and Baba with this slight Indian fellow who looked a little like a mathematics teacher.
哈桑和我茫然对视。那儿没有见到任何包着礼物的盒子，没有袋子，没有玩具，只有站在我们后面的阿里，还有爸爸，和那个看上去像数学老师的印度人。
“Salaam alaykum,” Hassan said uncertainly. He gave a polite tip of the head, but his eyes sought his father behind him. Ali moved closer and set his hand on Hassan’s shoulder.
“你好。”哈桑惴惴说。他礼貌地点点头，但眼睛却望向站在他后面的父亲。阿里上前一步，把手放在哈桑肩膀上。
“Hassan,” Baba said, smiling coyly, “meet your birthday present.”
“哈桑，”爸爸说，脸上带着不好意思的微笑，“来见见你的生日礼物。”
Baba met Hassan’s wary and puzzled-eyes. “I have summoned Dr. Kumar from New Delhi. Dr. Kumar is a plastic surgeon.”
爸爸望着哈桑迷惑不解的眼睛：“我从新德里请来库玛大夫，库玛大夫是名整容外科医生。”
The Indian man in the brown suit smiled and offered Hassan his hand. “I am Dr. Kumar,” he said. “It’s a pleasure to meet you.” He spoke Farsi with a thick, rolling Hindi accent.
身穿棕色西装的印度人微笑着，朝哈桑伸出手。“我是库玛大夫，”他说，“很高兴见到你。”他的法尔西语带着浓厚的印度卷舌音。
“Do you know what that is?” the Indian man — Dr. Kumar said.
“你知道那是什么吗？”那个印度人——库玛大夫说。
“Oh,” Hassan said. He looked from Dr. Kumar to Baba to Ali. His hand touched his upper lip. “Oh,” he said again.
“噢，”哈桑说，他看看库玛大夫，看看爸爸，又看看阿里，伸手遮住上唇。“噢。”他又说。
“Well,” Dr. Kumar said, “my job is to fix things on people’s bodies. Sometimes their faces.”
“这么说吧，”库玛大夫说，“我的工作是修理人们的身体，有时是人们的脸庞。”
“It’s an unusual present, I know,” Baba said. “And probably not what you had in mind, but this present will last you forever.”
“这不是份寻常的礼物，我知道。”爸爸说，“也许不是你想要的，但这份礼物会陪伴你终生。”
Hassan shook his head. He looked to me for help but I shrugged. All I knew was that you went to a surgeon to fix you when you had appendicitis. I knew this because one of my classmates had died of it the year before and the teacher had told us they had waited too long to take him to a surgeon. We both looked to Ali, but of course with him you could never tell. His face was impassive as ever, though something sober had melted into his eyes.
哈桑摇摇头。他带着询问的眼色望向我，但我耸耸肩。我只知道，人们要是得了阑尾炎，就得去找外科医生医治。我之所以知道，是因为此前一年，有个同学死于阑尾炎，我们老师说他拖了太久才去找外科医生。我们两个齐齐望向阿里，但从他那里当然也得不到答案。跟过去一样，他仍是木无表情，但眼神变得严肃一些。
“Oh,” Hassan said. He licked his lips. Cleared his throat. “Agha sahib, will it… will it –“
“噢，”哈桑说，他舔舔嘴唇，清清喉咙，说：“老爷，这…这会不会…”
“Nothing doing,” Dr. Kumar intervened, smiling kindly. “It will not hurt you one bit. In fact, I will give you a Medicine and you will not remember a thing.”
“别担心，”库玛大夫插嘴说，脸上带着微笑，“不会让你觉得很痛的。实际上，我会给你用一种药，你什么都不会记得。”
“Oh,” Hassan said. He smiled back with relief. A little relief anyway. “I wasn’t scared, Agha sahib, I just…” Hassan might have been fooled, but I wasn’t. I knew that when doctors said it wouldn’t hurt, that’s when you knew you were in trouble. With dread, I remembered my circumcision the year prior. The doctor had given me the same line, reassured me it wouldn’t hurt one bit. But when the numbing Medicine wore off later that night, it felt like someone had pressed a red hot coal to my loins. Why Baba waited until I was ten to have me circumcised was beyond me and one of the things I will never forgive him for.
“噢。”哈桑说。他松了一口气，微笑着，但也只是松了一口气。“我不是害怕，老爷，我只是…”哈桑也许是个傻瓜，我可不是。我知道要是医生跟你说不会痛的时候，你的麻烦就大了。我心悸地想起去年割包皮的情形，医生也是这么对我说，安慰说那不会很痛。但那天深夜，麻醉药的药性消退之后，感觉像有人拿着又红又热的木炭在烫我的下阴。爸爸为什么要等到我十岁才让我割包皮呢？我百思不得其解，这也是我永远无法原谅他的事情之一。
I wished I too had some kind of scar that would beget Baba’s sympathy. It wasn’t fair. Hassan hadn’t done anything to earn Baba’s affections; he’d just been born with that stupid harelip.
我希望自己身上也有类似的残疾，可以乞换来爸爸的怜悯。太不公平了，哈桑什么都没干，就得到爸爸的爱护，他不就是生了那个愚蠢的兔唇吗？
The surgery went well. We were all a little shocked when they first removed the bandages, but kept our smiles on just as Dr. Kumar had instructed us. It wasn’t easy, because Hassan’s upper lip was a grotesque mesh of swollen, raw tissue. I expected Hassan to cry with horror when the nurse handed him the mirror. Ali held his hand as Hassan took a long, thoughtful look into it. He muttered something I didn’t understand. I put my ear to his mouth. He whispered it again.
手术很成功。他们刚解掉绷带的时候，我们多少都有点吃惊，但还是像库玛大夫先前交代的那样保持微笑。但那并不容易，因为哈桑的上唇看起来又肿又怪，没有表皮。护士递给哈桑镜子的时候，我希望他哭起来。哈桑深深地看着镜子，若有所思，阿里则紧紧握住他的手。他咕哝了几句，我没听清楚。我把耳朵凑到他唇边，他又低声说了一遍。
Then his lips twisted, and, that time, I knew just what he was doing. He was smiling. Just as he had, emerging from his mother’s womb.
接着他的嘴唇扭曲了，当时，我完全知道他在干什么。他在微笑。就像他从母亲子宫里出来时那样微笑着。
“Tashakor.” Thank you.
“谢谢。”
The swelling subsided, and the wound healed with time. Soon, it was just a pink jagged line running up from his lip. By the following winter, it was only a faint scar. Which was ironic. Because that was the winter that Hassan stopped smiling.
随着时间的过去，肿胀消退，伤口弥合。不久，他的嘴唇上就只剩下一道弯弯曲曲的缝合线。到下一个冬天，它变成淡淡的伤痕。说来讽刺，正是从那个冬天之后，哈桑便不再微笑了。
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