“Whatever,” Alice said, dismissing my protest with a quick shrug. “We’re celebrating anyway, so suck it up.”
“管你怎么说，”爱丽丝丢了一句，耸耸肩没理我的声明：“我们还是要庆祝，所以你就任命吧。”
I sighed. There was rarely a point to arguing with Alice.
我无奈的叹气，跟爱丽丝吵架通常都不会有结果的。
“No. No way!” I shook my head fiercely and then shot a glance at the smug smile on my seventeen-year-old husband’s face. “No, this doesn’t count. I stopped aging three days ago. I am eighteen forever.”
“不。不，没门！”我拼命的摇头，飞快的瞟了一眼我那17岁的老公含笑的脸：“不，这不算数！三天前我就停止长大了。我永远都是18岁。”
Her grin got impossibly wider as she read the acquiescence in my eyes.
看见了眼里的默许，她笑的更开心了。
“Are you ready to open your present?” Alice sang.
“你准备好拆我的礼物了吗？”爱丽丝吟唱着说。
I struggled to keep from rolling my eyes. I knew immediately what this key was to — the “after car.” I wondered if I should feel excited. It seemed the vampire conversion hadn’t given me any sudden interest in sports cars.
我忍着没给他一个白眼，就知道是这个——那辆“以后的车”。我想我是不是应该表现的兴奋点呢。不过看来变成吸血鬼也没能让我一下子喜欢上运动型车。
“Mine first,” Alice said, and then stuck her tongue out, foreseeing his answer.
“先看我的，”爱丽丝说，目光接着变得呆滞，预判着他的回答。
“But look at how she’s dressed.” Alice’s words were almost a moan. “It’s been killing me all day. That is clearly the priority.”
“但看看她穿着什么，”爱丽丝几乎是悲愤的说出这句话：“它已经折磨我一整天了，这绝对是最紧迫的问题。”
“Presents,” Edward corrected, and he pulled another key — this one longer and silver with a less gaudy blue bow — from his pocket.
“我们的，”爱德华纠正道，从他口袋里掏出另外一把钥匙放到我手上一个钥匙——一个银色修长的没有那么俗气的钥匙。
“Mine is closer.”
“我的离得更近。”
Jasper chuckled and Edward sighed.
贾斯帕吃吃的笑起来，而爱德华无奈叹了口气。
“I know — I’ll play you for it,” Alice suggested. “Rock, paper, scissors.”
“好吧，我知道了——我们比赛决定，”爱丽丝建议道：“剪刀石头布？”
Alice beamed. “I do. Excellent.”
爱丽丝绽放出大大的笑容说：“我赢了，非常棒！”
My eyebrows pulled together as I wondered how a key could get me into new clothes. Had she gotten me a whole trunkful?
我皱紧了眉头思考着，一把钥匙怎么帮我换上新衣服。不会吧……难道她要送我一卡车的衣服？
“Why you don’t you just tell me who wins?” Edward said wryly.
“为什么你不干脆直接告诉我谁赢了？”爱德华挖苦道。
“It’s probably better that I wait for morning, anyway.” Edward smiled crookedly at me and then nodded toward Jacob and Seth, who looked like they were crashed for the night; I wonder how long they’d stayed up this time. “I think it might be more fun if Jacob was awake for the big reveal, don’t you agree? So that someone there is able to express the right level of enthusiasm?”
“好吧，可能等到天亮再看更好。”爱德华自我安慰着说，边朝那边点点头。雅各布和塞思，两个人都像疯玩了一个通宵一样，真不知道他们还能清醒几分钟。“我想如果最精彩的时刻雅各布还醒着会好玩多了，不是吗？那样就有人能把最狂热的兴奋表现出来。”
I grinned back. He knew me well.
我回笑着，他真的了解我。
“Yay,” Alice sang. “Bella, give Ness — Renesmee to Rosalie.”
“耶，”爱丽丝哼着歌一样：“贝拉，把内希——呃，蕾妮斯梅给罗莎莉抱。”
“Where does she usually sleep?”
“她平时都在哪睡觉？”
Alice shrugged. “In Rose’s arms. Or Jacob’s. Or Esme’s. You get the picture. She has never been set down in her entire life. She’s going to be the most spoiled half-vampire in existence.”
爱丽丝耸耸肩：“罗莎的怀里，要么就雅各布的，要不然就是埃斯梅怀里。你能明白吧，从她出生以来就没有被放下来过。她肯定是世界上最受宠爱的半吸血鬼。”
Edward laughed while Rosalie took Renesmee expertly in her arms. “She is also the most unspoiled half-vampire in existence.”
当罗莎莉熟练的结过蕾妮斯梅时爱德华嘲笑道：“她也是世界上最不受宠爱的半吸血鬼。”
Rosalie said. “The beauty of being one of a kind.”
罗莎莉说：“她值得这一切，两族的美丽混合。”
Rosalie grinned at me, and I was glad to see that the new comradeship between us was still there in her smile. I hadn’t been entirely sure it would last after Renesmee’s life was no longer tied to mine. But maybe we had fought together on the same side long enough that we would always be friends now. I’d finally made the same choice she would have if she’d been in my shoes. That seemed to have washed away her resentment for all my other choices.
罗莎莉对我笑着，我很开心的看到我们之间的友谊并没有消失。我本来还不是很确定它能不能继续，在蕾妮斯梅的生命跟我不再联系的那么紧密之后。不过或许我们一起奋斗了足够长的时间，让我们现在能一直是好朋友。最终，我的选择跟她处在我的境地是会作的一样。这似乎让她忘记了我作的其他的选择。
“Is it outside?”
“放在外面吗？”
“Sort of,” Alice said, pushing me forward.
“嗯，某种意义上是。”爱丽丝心急的说，推着我往前走。
“We’ll give you a chance to appreciate it alone,” Rosalie said. “You can tell us about it… later.”
“我们决定给你一个独自欣赏的机会，”她说：“你可以晚点……再告诉我们，你的感受。”
“Enjoy your gift,” Rosalie said. “It’s from all of us. Esme especially.”
“享受你的礼物哦，”罗莎莉说：“是我们所有人一起准备的，特别是埃斯梅。”
Alice shoved the beribboned key in my hand, then grabbed my elbow and steered me toward the back door. “Let’s go, let’s go,” she trilled.
爱丽丝推了推我的手，让我握紧那绑着蝴蝶结的钥匙，然后挽着我往后门走去。“出发，出发。”她像唱美声一样说。
“Aren’t you coming, too?” I realized that no one had moved.
“你也来吗？”我发现除了我们没有人动。
Alice tugged my elbow, and I couldn’t stop smiling as I followed her into the purple night. Only Edward came with us.
即便爱丽丝拽着我的手肘往前冲，我还是不能停止微笑着跟她走进夜色中。只有爱德华跟随我们而来。
I realized that lots of things about me — like truly hating surprises, and not liking gifts in general much more — had not changed one bit. It was a relief and revelation to discover how much of my essential core traits had come with me into this new body.
我又发现自己一样特性没变了——我还是很讨厌“惊喜”，连礼物都跟着没那么期待了。这让我的压力似乎没那么大了，发现自己还有那么多的内在本质跟着自己来到这个新的身体。
Emmett guffawed. Something about his laugh made me feel like blushing, though I wasn’t sure why.
埃美特捧腹大笑起来，虽然不知道为什么，但是他笑声中的揶揄让我有点害羞。
Alice took off with us on her heels, heading due north. It was easier to follow the sound of her feet whispering against the ground and the fresh path of her scent than it was to keep my eyes on her through the thick vegetation.
爱丽丝穿着她的高跟鞋，率领着我们直奔北方而去。跟着她的脚步声和一路留下的新鲜气味而行，要比在浓密的植被中用眼睛锁紧她的身影要简单得多。
“C’mon, Bella,” she called from the other side.
“快来，贝拉。”她从另一边喊着。
“There’s the enthusiasm I’m looking for,” Alice murmured approvingly. Then she dropped my arm, made two lithe bounds, and leaped over the river.
“就快到我们的目的地了，”爱丽丝高声说道，接着轻轻跨了了两步跳到河对岸去。
I hadn’t expected to be myself. I smiled widely.
本来我还以为自己会变成完全陌生的一个人，我开心的大笑。
Edward jumped at the same time I did; it was every bit as fun as it had been this afternoon. Maybe a little bit more fun because the night changed everything into new, rich colors.
爱德华和我一起跳过去，这还是和下午一样好玩。可能还更有趣，因为夜晚让一切都变得新鲜起来，弥漫着各种各样以前没见过的颜色。
“Alice, I –“
“爱丽丝，我——”
“You might let her cheat. Take her hand and lead her forward.”
“你会帮她骗我的。去，拉着她带她走。”
I felt the urge to throw her off, but I controlled it.
我觉得要把她赶出去，但我控制住了。
At no sign I could see, she whirled and dashed back to where I paused.
毫无征兆的，她突然转身跑回到我身边。
“I could take care of that without the theatrics,” Edward offered.
“没这可笑的姿势，我也能搞定她。”爱德华提议道。
“Making sure you can’t see.”
“确保你在那之前，不会偷看。”
“What are you doing?” I demanded, squirming as she scrambled onto my back and wrapped her hands around my face.
“你要干什么？”我质问，摇摆着身体想把她甩下来——她跳到我背上来了，两手紧紧的盖住我的眼睛。
I felt Edward’s fingers weave through mine. “Just a few seconds more, Bella. Then she’ll go annoy someone else.” He pulled me forward. I kept up easily. I wasn’t afraid of hitting a tree; the tree would be the only one getting hurt in that scenario.
我感觉到爱德华的手指缠绕着我的：“再有几秒就到了，贝拉。然后她就可以去烦其他人了。”他拉着我前进，而我轻松的跟着他。我根本没怕过会撞树什么的，就算撞了，受伤的也是那棵倒霉的树。
“Don’t attack me,” she warned, and sprang at me.
“别打我啊。”她警告着，然后向我跳过来。
“True. Thank you again, Alice.”
“那倒是，再次感谢你，爱丽丝。”
“Don’t bother, Bella. We’re doing this my way.”
“别扫兴，贝拉。你们要按我说的做。”
“You might be a little more appreciative,” Alice chided him. “This is as much for you as it is for her.”
“你应该感谢这一切，”爱丽丝向他抱怨：“这礼物与其说是给贝拉的，不如说是给你们俩的。”
“Yeah, yeah. Okay.” Alice’s voice suddenly shot up with excitement. “Stop there. Turn her just a little to the right. Yes, like that. Okay. Are you ready?” she squeaked.
“好说，好说。”爱丽丝突然升高音调兴奋的说：“停！向右边转一点。对，就像这样。OK，你准备好了吗？”她激动的急促的问。
Alice hopped down from my back, releasing her grip on my eyes.
爱丽丝从我背上跳下来，把遮着我眼睛的手松开。
Something metallic, too. The richness of deep earth, dug up and exposed. I leaned toward the mystery.
还有一点金属的味道。浓郁的地底深处的土壤味暴露在空气中，我朝那神秘的礼物前倾着身子。
“What do you think?” Alice’s voice was soft now; it fit with the perfect quiet of the storybook scene.
“你觉得怎么样？”爱丽丝的声音变得温和起来，跟这童话般的安静的景色融合在一起。
I stared into the violet dark. There, nestled into a small clearing in the forest, was a tiny stone cottage, lavender gray in the light of the stars.
我望向这紫罗兰般的夜色深处。那里，在那块清空的森里空地上，坐落着一个小小的石头别墅，在满天繁星的照耀下呈现出一直薰衣草般的色彩。
It belonged here so absolutely that it seemed as if it must have grown from the rock, a natural formation. Honeysuckle climbed up one wall like a lattice, winding all the way up and over the thick wooden shingles. Late summer roses bloomed in a handkerchief — sized garden under the dark, deep-set windows. There was a little path of flat stones, amethyst in the night, that led up to the quaint arched wooden door.
它那么自然的坐在那里，属于着这个森林，简直像是从地上长出来的一样。金银花从地上长起来，像画着油画般爬满了整个墙面，一直延伸到房子上方的木瓦下。手帕大小的窗台上盛开着暮夏的玫瑰。奇形怪状的木门前用鹅卵石铺着一条小路，夜色之下，如同紫水晶般闪闪发亮。
I curled my hand around the key I held, shocked.
我握紧了手中的钥匙，激动得有些颤抖。
“I’m ready.” There were new scents here, piquing my interest, increasing my curiosity. Scents that didn’t belong in the deep woods. Honeysuckle. Smoke. Roses. Sawdust?
“准备好了。”这里出现了一种新的气味，引起了我的兴趣，让我的好奇心升到极点。照理来说这气味不应该出现在森林里。金银花、烟草、玫瑰、锯木屑？
“Don’t you like it?” Alice’s face fell. “I mean, I’m sure we could fix it up differently, if you want. Emmett was all for adding a few thousand square feet, a second story, columns, and a tower, but Esme thought you would like it best the way it was meant to look.” Her voice started to climb, to go faster. “If she was wrong, we can get back to work. It won’t take long to –“
“你不喜欢吗？”爱丽丝脸垮下来了：“我是说，我们能再重新装修一次，如果你希望的话。埃美特一直想把这扩大到几千平方英尺，再加盖一层楼，放上些圆柱，和一个塔楼。但埃斯梅说你会比较喜欢小屋原来的样子。”她的声音又暖和起来，语速变快：“如果她错了，我们可以马上开始重做，不会话很长时间——”
She pressed her lips together and waited. It took me a few seconds to recover.
她马上闭上嘴，等着我。我花了好久分钟才恢复过来。
I continued staring, mouth gaping like a fish.
我完全挪不开自己的眼睛，嘴巴像鱼儿一样一张一闭。
I opened my mouth but said nothing.
我张开嘴，却什么都说不出。
“Esme thought we might like a place of our own for a while, but she didn’t want us too far away,” Edward murmured. “And she loves any excuse to renovate. This little place has been crumbling away out here for at least a hundred years.”
“埃斯梅觉得我们可能会需要有点个人空间，但又不想我们去太远的地方，”爱德华在我耳边低语着：“而且她喜欢用各种借口来做各种装修、装饰这些事。这栋房子原来被废弃了至少有一百年了。”
“Us,” Edward corrected. “And it’s no more than a cottage. I think the word house implies more legroom.”
“我们，”爱德华纠正道：“就一栋乡村小屋而已。你说别墅太夸张了。”
“You’re giving me a house for my birthday?” I whispered.
“你给了我一幢别墅作为生日礼物？”我不可置信的低语。
“Shh!” I managed.
“嘘！”我制止她。
“No knocking my house,” I whispered to him.
“别贬低我的房子，”我朝他嘟哝了一句。
Alice beamed. “You like it.”
这下爱丽丝笑着肯定说：“你真的喜欢它。”
“But of course I love it. How could I not?”
“但我当然会喜欢，为什么不呢？”
“Why didn’t she come?”
“她为什么不来呢？”
Alice’s smile faded a little, twisted just off what it had been, like my question was hard to answer. “Oh, you know… they all remember how you are about presents. They didn’t want to put you under too much pressure to like it.”
爱丽丝的笑容稍稍收敛了一点，有点不自然，像这个问题对她来说很难回答一样：“噢，你知道的……他们都记得你原来是怎样讨厌礼物的，这次也不想给你太多压力逼你喜欢它似的。”
She strolled casually a few feet back. “Edward knows his way around. I’ll stop by… later. Call me if you can’t match your clothes right.” She threw me a doubtful look and then smiled. “Jazz wants to hunt. See you.”
她悠闲的退了两步：“现在轮到爱德华上了。我会进去坐坐的……以后。如果你不知道穿什么衣服就给我打电话。”她朝我诡异的挤了挤眼睛笑道：“见鬼，也想去打猎了。明天见。”
“Bella, don’t be silly. No one thinks you’re that unreasonable.”
“贝拉，别傻了。没人认为你很无礼。”
“Love it?”
“爱上它了？”
“I can’t wait to tell Esme!”
“我要马上回去告诉埃斯梅！”
“They’ll like that.” She patted my arm. “Anyhoo, your closet is stocked. Use it wisely. And… I guess that’s everything.”
“他们听到会很高兴的。”她拍拍我的手臂：“别管这些了，你的衣橱我已经准备好了。好好试试哦。还有……没了，我猜那就足够了。”
I nodded.
我点点头。
She shot off into the trees like the most graceful bullet.
她像最优雅的子弹一样冲向森林，一会儿就没影了。
I shook my head.
但我摇摇头。
“That was weird,” I said when the sound of her flight had vanished completely. “Am I really that bad? They didn’t have to stay away. Now I feel guilty. I didn’t even thank her right. We should go back, tell Esme –“
“这样很奇怪啊，”听着她的声音渐渐远去最后消失在树林里，我对自己说：“我是不是很坏？他们没必要离得远远的，让我觉得有点内疚了。我甚至都还没谢谢她。我想我们应该回去，告诉埃斯梅——”
“Aren’t you going to come inside?”
“你不进来吗？”
“Alone time is their other gift. Alice was trying to be subtle about it.”
“给我们些独自相处的时间也是他们的礼物。刚才爱丽丝暗示了的。”
“Oh.”
“哦。”
“Then what –“
“那为什么——”
That was all it took to make the house disappear. We could have been anywhere. I didn’t see the trees or the stones or the stars. It was just Edward.
这句话让我暂时忘记了房子的事，我甚至不知道它是不是还在那里。我看不见森林的大树、看不见石头的小路、看不见满天繁星，只看见爱德华。
For that matter, I ought to have been exhausted. This had been the longest day of my life.
因为太紧张太激动了，让我忘记了自己的此刻已经精疲力尽。今天真的是我人生中最漫长的一天。
“It’s not a very good one,” I told him as he led the way to the little rounded door. “I was just thinking — today is the first and last day of forever. It’s kind of hard to wrap my head around it. Even with all this extra room for wrapping.” I laughed again.
“不是很好的笑话，”当他带着我朝那椭圆形的小门走去时，我回答：“我只是在想——今天将永远都是开始的一天，同时也是结束的一天。这让我的脑袋有点转不过弯来，即使这里有那么多的房间让我‘转弯’。”我又忍不住笑出来。
I laughed out loud — just one quiet little laugh of shock — when I realized that this day would never end.
我不能自已的大笑出来——听起来声音还是很小，像被什么东西吓了一下——当我意识到这天永远都不会结束。
Once again I felt oddly off balance, waiting for reactions my body wasn’t capable of anymore. My heart should have been thundering like a steam engine about to hit us. Deafening. My cheeks should have been brilliant red.
又一次我觉得身体失去了平衡，只能干等着怕因身体完全没有了反应能力而摔倒。心脏打雷般跳动着像有辆火车要撞过来了一样，耳朵里什么都听不见，脸可能红得发亮。
“Let me show you what they’ve done,” he said, pulling my hand. Was he oblivious to the fact that an electric current was pulsing through my body like adrenaline-spiked blood?
“让我带你参观下他们都做了什么，”他拉着我的手说。难道他没有注意到有电流穿过我的身体，就像肾上腺素突然加快了血液流速吗？
“Do I get to hear the joke?”
“能让我听听这笑话吗？”
“Hey!”
“嘿！”
“You’re such a natural at this, Bella; I forget how very strange this all must be for you. I wish I could hear it.” He ducked down and yanked me up into his arms so fast that I didn’t see it coming — and that was really something.
“很熟练嘛，贝拉；我都忘了对你来说这一定是很陌生的事，真希望能听见你的想法。”他弯下身突然把我抱起来，快得让我完全看不清——这真的很神奇。
He opened the door — it fell back with a barely audible creak — and stepped through into the little stone living room.
他推开门——伴随着轻微的嘎吱声——跨进这小小的石头城堡。
He chuckled with me. He held his hand out toward the doorknob, waiting for me to do the honors. I stuck the key in the lock and turned it.
他也吃吃的笑起来，抬起手向木门做了个请的动作，等着我来完成这个光荣的仪式。我把钥匙插进锁孔中，转了两圈。
“Thresholds are part of my job description,” he reminded me. “But I’m curious. Tell me what you’re thinking about right now.”
“门槛也是我要介绍的一部分，”他提醒道：“但我好奇的是另一件事。告诉我，你现在在想什么。”
The cottage room was something from a fairy tale. The floor was a crazy quilt of smooth, flat stones. The low ceiling had long exposed beams that someone as tall as Jacob would surely knock his head on. The walls were warm wood in some places, stone mosaics in others. The beehive fireplace in the corner held the remains of a slow flickering fire. It was driftwood burning there — the low flames were blue and green from the salt.
这小城堡像从童话中蹦出来的一样。地板铺着一层像棉被一样光滑的扁平石头，矮矮的天花露出几根巨大的横梁，如果像Jacob那样的高个儿来肯定会碰到头。墙上半露出一部分让人感觉温暖的木头，其他地方则贴上了马赛克。蜂窝一样的壁橱里未燃尽的木炭还散发着余热，那是流木在燃烧的味道——因为含盐，发出蓝绿色的低矮火焰。
“Everything,” I told him. “All at the same time, you know. Good things and things to worry about and things that are new. How I keep using too many superlatives in my head. Right now, I’m thinking that Esme is an artist. It’s so perfect!”
“所有事，”我告诉他：“一下子想起太多东西，你明白的。好事、要担心的事、新鲜的事。我怎么能一直让脑子转个不停呢？现在，我在想埃斯梅真是个艺术家。太漂亮了！”
Edward had always thought that he belonged to the world of horror stories. Of course, I’d known he was dead wrong. It was obvious that he belonged here. In a fairy tale.
爱德华一直觉得他是那些恐怖故事书里的人物，但他绝对是错的，因为很明显他属于这里，属于这个童话世界。
And now I was in the story with him.
而现在，我跟他一样身处于童话之中了。
It was furnished in eclectic pieces, not one of them matching another, but harmonious just the same. One chair seemed vaguely medieval, while a low ottoman by the fire was more contemporary and the stocked bookshelf against the far window reminded me of movies set in Italy. Somehow each piece fit together with the others like a big three — dimensional puzzle. There were a few paintings on the walls that I recognized — some of my very favorites from the big house. Priceless originals, no doubt, but they seemed to belong here, too, like all the rest.
家具都是一件一件不成套的，任何两件互相都不太搭，但当它们全摆在一起却显得非常和谐。有中世纪风的奢华的椅子，壁橱前也有些现代的软椅；窗边的木书架则让我想起意大利的电影。不知道为什么，这些家具搭配在一起就像是个巨大的三维迷宫。我能认出一些墙上挂着的油画——有几幅从大房子里带来的。都是些无价之宝的真迹，毫无疑问，但他们看起来就像天生属于这里，跟那些‘乱七八糟’的家具一样。
It was a place where anyone could believe magic existed. A place where you just expected Snow White to walk right in with her apple in hand, or a unicorn to stop and nibble at the rosebushes.
这是个让人相信魔法的地方，一个你以为白雪公主也会拿着她的苹果走进的地方，一个独角兽都会停下来享受它的玫瑰花丛的地方。
I was about to take advantage of the fact that he hadn’t gotten around to setting me back on my feet and that his wits-scramblingly beautiful face was only inches away when he said, “We’re lucky Esme thought to add an extra room. No one was planning for Ness — Renesmee.”
他还没把我放下来，因此那智慧美丽的脸离我只有几英寸，当我正要利用这个机会做点什么的时候，他忽然说：“幸好埃斯梅想着要加一个客房，当初没人会想到内希——呃，蕾妮斯梅的出生。”
The bed was huge and white, with clouds of gossamer floating down from the canopy to the floor. The pale wood floor matched the other room, and now I grasped that it was precisely the color of a pristine beach. The walls were that almost-white-blue of a brilliant sunny day, and the back wall had big glass doors that opened into a little hidden garden. Climbing roses and a small round pond, smooth as a mirror and edged with shiny stones. A tiny, calm ocean for us.
床非常大，是纯白的，从屋顶垂落下一层层的细纱像云朵一般。浅色的木地板跟其他房间一样，现在我终于明白地板为什么是这个颜色了——原来是古老海滩的颜色。墙壁则是阳光灿烂的天气里的那种近乎苍白的蓝色，后面那面墙上有一个巨大的玻璃门，打开它可以走进一个迷你的神秘花园。种满了玫瑰，还有一个小小的圆形池塘，水面像镜子一样光滑而池边则砌满闪烁的小石子。这是属于我们的宁静海洋。
“That will be Renesmee’s room,” he said, nodding to an empty room with a pale wooden floor. “They didn’t have time to do much with it, what with the angry werewolves…”
“那会是蕾妮斯梅的房间，”他说，向一个空着的浅色木地板房间示意了一下：“他们没有太多时间来装修，特别是跟愤怒的狼人在一起。”
I sighed. My baby, the sea serpent. Maybe there was no help for it. Well, I wasn’t giving in.
我叹了口气。我的宝贝，海蛇。也许没有帮助。嗯，我没有屈服。
Drat Jacob for making everything perfect this way.
如果没有雅各布的话，那一切就完美了。
I laughed quietly, amazed at how quickly everything had turned right when it had all had looked so nightmarish just a week ago.
我会心一笑，为他们的速度感到惊奇，要知道几乎所有东西都被考虑到了，而仅仅一个星期以前这里还是个恐怖的百年老屋。
“Terrified.”
“简直恐怖。”
“Sorry, love. I hear it in their thoughts all the time, you know. It’s rubbing off on me.”
“不好意思，亲爱的。对我的宝宝——可爱的小海蛇，可能帮助不大，但是我并没打算让步。”
He carried me down a narrow stone hallway with tiny arches in the ceiling, like it was our own miniature castle.
他带着我走下一个狭窄的天花处装饰有拱顶的石头走廊，这里真的很像是属于我们的一个小城堡。
“Should I be afraid?”
“我应该害怕吗？”
“Not you, too,” I complained.
“你不要也……”我抱怨道。
“Here’s our room. Esme tried to bring some of her island back here for us. She guessed that we would get attached.”
“这是我们的房间。埃斯梅试着把她自己那个岛上的一些东西带来这里，她说那样会让我们有亲切感。”
I frowned at him, my thoughts channeled down a less pleasant path.
我皱着眉头看他，像被浇了盆冷水。
“I’m sure you’re dying to see the closet. Or, at least I’ll tell Alice that you were, to make her feel good.”
“我敢肯定你很想看看那衣柜。至少，我会跟爱丽丝说你很想，让她觉得好受些。”
“I know,” he whispered.
“我知道。”他轻声说。
“Oh” was all I could say.
“哇”这是我唯一能发出的声音。
He smiled a wide, gleaming smile and then laughed. “The closet is through those double doors. I should warn you — it’s bigger than this room.”
他咧大嘴灿烂的微笑，最后笑出声来：“衣柜就在那个门后面。事先提醒你下——它比这间房还大。”
We stood there for a minute, remembering. Though the memories were human and clouded, they took over my mind completely.
我们静静的站了一会，回忆着。虽然是属于人类的朦胧记忆，但它们还是一下子占满了我的脑袋。
I didn’t even glance at the doors. There was nothing else in the world but him again — his arms curled under me, his sweet breath on my face, his lips just inches from mine — and there was nothing that could distract me now, newborn vampire or not.
我根本看都懒得看一眼。在这个世界上我只能看到爱德华——他的手环着我，甜美的呼吸喷到我的脸上，嘴唇离我只有几寸远——在这个时刻，没有任何东西能让我分心，不管我是不是一个新生吸血鬼。
He caught up to my mood in an instant, or maybe he’d already been there, and he was just trying to let me fully appreciate my birthday present, like a gentleman. He pulled my face to his with a sudden fierceness, a low moan in his throat. The sound sent the electric current running through my body into a near-frenzy, like I couldn’t get close enough to him fast enough.
爱德华马上和我进入同样的气氛中，或许他早就在那儿了但还是先让我好好的欣赏了下自己的生日礼物，像个真正的绅士。他突然猛地把我的脸压向他，喉咙里发出一阵声音。这声音给我的身体带来一阵ciji的电流，几乎让我疯狂，觉得自己跟他怎么都还离得不够近，靠近的还不够快。
“We’re going to tell Alice that I ran right to the clothes,” I whispered, twisting my fingers into his hair and pulling my face closer to his. “We’re going to tell her I spent hours in there playing dress-up. We’re going to lie.”
“我们回去后跟爱丽丝说，我一进门就直奔那些衣服而去，”我在他耳边低声说，双手插到他的头发里，让自己的脸离他更近了：“我们要跟她说，我花了好几个小时在那里试衣服。我们得撒谎。”
Our time on the island had been the epitome of my human life. The very best of it. I’d been so ready to string along my human time, just to hold on to what I had with him for a little while longer. Because the physical part wasn’t going to be the same ever again.
在岛上的日子就像是对我最后的人类生活的祭奠一样。还好，我那时就已经准备好要结束它了，只是因为我们的孩子的原因还等待了一段时间。如果不是这样的话，我们身体上的差异永远都弥补不了。
I should have guessed, after a day like today, that it would be better.
我早就应该想到，在今天之后，所有事都会变好。
This second honeymoon wasn’t like our first.
第二次的蜜月跟我们的第一次有点不一样。
I heard the fabric tearing under our hands, and I was glad my clothes, at least, were already destroyed. It was too late for his. It felt almost rude to ignore the pretty white bed, but we just weren’t going to make it that far.
我能听见在他手下布料的撕破声，暗自庆幸好在自己的衣服已经是破的了。但他等不及了，虽然无视那张可爱的白床有点粗鲁，但是我们还是嫌它太远了。
I could really appreciate him now — could properly see every beautiful line of his perfect face, of his long, flawless body with my strong new eyes, every angle and every plane of him. I could taste his pure, vivid scent on my tongue and feel the unbelievable silkiness of his marble skin under my sensitive fingertips.
现在我能好好的欣赏下他了——我可以看见每一条漂亮的线条，从他完美的脸上，从他修长无暇的身体上——用自己那强悍的新眼睛，观察着他每一个棱角每一片肌肤；用自己的舌头，品尝着他纯净的鲜活的气味；用自己的指尖，感觉着他那不可思议的丝滑肌肤。
My skin was so sensitive under his hands, too.
在他的手下，我的皮肤更是无比敏感。
He was all new, a different person as our bodies tangled gracefully into one on the sand — pale floor. No caution, no restraint. No fear — especially not that. We could love together — both active participants now. Finally equals.
当我们的身体优雅的缠绕到一起时，他就像是一个完全不同的崭新的人，在这银沙般的地板上。再没有小心翼翼，再没有压抑克制，再没有恐惧害怕，我们终于能好好的相爱了——双方都能是积极的参与者，最终平等起来。
Like our kisses before, every touch was more than I was used to. So much of himself he’d been holding back. Necessary at the time, but I couldn’t believe how much I’d been missing.
就拿我们原来平常的亲吻来说，现在每一次的感触都比我熟悉的要多得多。以前，他到底藏起来多少本性。虽然那时来说是必须的，但我还是不能相信以前自己错过了多少东西。
It didn’t bother me at all that I had no answer.
不过这问题没能困扰我多长时间，因为完全没有答案。
I tried to keep in mind that I was stronger than he was, but it was hard to focus on anything with sensations so intense, pulling my attention to a million different places in my body every second; if I hurt him, he didn’t complain.
我试图提醒自己现在比他要强壮，但是根本没法记起任何事。所有的感觉都是那么强烈，每一秒都让我的注意力飞到身体不知哪个部分去；相信如果我现在要咬他，他也不会介意。
A very, very small part of my head considered the interesting conundrum presented in this situation. I was never going to get tired, and neither was he. We didn’t have to catch our breath or rest or eat or even use the bathroom; we had no more mundane human needs.
忽然我脑袋里的一个非常非常小的角落，注意到在这情况下的一个有趣的谜题。首先我永远都不会感到疲倦，他也是。我们不需要呼吸，不需要休息，不需要吃饭，甚至不需要洗澡；我们没有任何平常的人类需求。
He had the most beautiful, perfect body in the world and I had him all to myself, and it didn’t feel like I was ever going to find a point where I would think, Now I’ve had enough for one day. I was always going to want more. And the day was never going to end. So, in such a situation, how did we ever stop?
然后他有着世界上最漂亮最完美的身体，而我则让他完全沉醉其中不可自拔，现在的我根本不能停下来思考，即使过了这么精疲力尽的一天。我想要的只会越来越多，加上对我们来说今天永远不会结束。那么，在这种情况下，我们怎样停下来啊？
“Do you miss it?” I asked him when her song was done.
“你怀念那些吗？”当她唱完我问他。
I sort of noticed when the sky began to lighten. The tiny ocean outside turned from black to gray, and a lark started to sing somewhere very close by — maybe she had a nest in the roses.
当天渐渐亮起来时，我似乎察觉到一点。外面的迷你海洋从黑色变成了灰色，一只百灵鸟在附近唱起歌来——可能她在那玫瑰从中安家了吧。
It wasn’t the first time we’d spoken, but we weren’t exactly keeping up a conversation, either.
这已经不是我们第一次试图停下来说话了，但是这次还是不能好好的继续这场讨论。
“Miss what?” he murmured.
“怀念什么？”他嘟囔着。
“All of it — the warmth, the soft skin, the tasty smell… I’m not losing anything at all, and I just wondered if it was a little bit sad for you that you were.”
“一切——我原来的体温，柔软的皮肤，可口的香味……我不是说自己失去了什么，而只是疑惑比起原来，你现在是不是有点遗憾？”
“Are you avoiding the question?”
“你在逃避我的问题吗？”
It was true, in a sense. To me, his hand was warm. It wasn’t the same as touching Jacob’s flame-hot skin, but it was more comfortable. More natural.
这倒是真的，某种意义上。对我来说，他的手也是温暖的。跟Jacob的‘火焰’不一样——火热的皮肤。但要让人舒服一些，更自然一些。
He pressed his hand against my face. “You are warm,” he told me.
他捧着我的脸。“你现在是温暖的。”他告诉我说。
He laughed, low and gentle. “It would be hard to find someone less sad than I am now. Impossible, I’d venture. Not many people get every single thing they want, plus all the things they didn’t think to ask for, in the same day.”
他低声温和的笑起来：“你知道要想找到谁比我现在更伤心，挺难的——不可能，别开玩笑，我已经做了选择。不是很多人都能像我一样得到自己想要的所有东西，甚至还有原来没想到的惊喜，在一天之内。”
Then he pulled his fingers very slowly down my face, lightly tracing from my jaw to my throat and then all the way down to my waist. My eyes rolled back into my head a little.
接着他的手指缓慢的划过我的脸，轻轻的从下巴移动到喉咙，接着一路来到腰际。我回过神看着他。
“That’s difficult to say. Everyone is different and, well, so far you’re the very most different of all. The average young vampire is too obsessed with thirst to notice much else for a while. That doesn’t seem to apply to you. With the average vampire, though, after that first year, other needs make themselves known. Neither thirst nor any other desire really ever fades. It’s simply a matter of learning to balance them, learning to prioritize and manage…”
“这很难说，每个人都不一样。嗯，目前为止，你是最特别的一个。普通的新生吸血鬼一般都只能注意到自己的干渴，很难想到其他问题。不过这跟你的情况不太一样。还是说一般的吸血鬼吧，虽然在头一年后，他们会清醒过来，但不管是干渴还是其他欲望基本上都不会消退。只不过要学习如果平衡它们，学习如何控制。”
“And as for the scent, well, I couldn’t say I missed that. Do you remember the scent of those hikers on our hunt?”
“至于气味，嗯，我不能说自己怀念它。你还记得那些徒步旅行者的气味吧？”
“I’ve been trying very hard not to.”
“我在很努力的忘记它。”
“How long does this go on? I mean, Carlisle and Esme, Em and Rose, Alice and Jasper — they don’t spend all day locked in their rooms. They’re out in public, fully clothed, all the time. Does this… craving ever let up?” I twisted myself closer into him — quite an accomplishment, actually — to make it clear what I was talking about.
“还要继续多长时间？我是说，卡莱尔和埃斯梅，埃美特和罗莎，爱丽丝和贾斯帕——他们从来没花一整天的时间待在自己的房间里不出来。他们总是在外面，衣着完整。这种渴望……永远不会停止吗？”我让自己跟他靠得更近——事实上，这很了不起——记得自己要问什么。
His fingers were like satin against my skin, so I could see what he meant.
他的手指像丝绸一样拂过我的皮肤，这样我就能明白他什么意思。
“Imagine kissing that.”
“想象一下，亲吻它。”
“Precisely. So the answer is no. I am purely full of joy, because I am missing nothing. No one has more than I do now.”
“非常准确，所以答案是，不。我现在只能感觉到快乐，因为我什么都不怀念。没有人比我拥有的更多了。”
I was about to inform him of the one exception to his statement, but my lips were suddenly very busy.
我刚要提醒他，他的陈述里面的一个例外，但我的嘴唇突然变得忙起来。
“Oh.”
“噢。”
When the little pool turned pearl-colored with the sunrise, I thought of another question for him.
当太阳升起，小池塘变成珍珠般的颜色时，我想起另外一个问题。
“You are soft.”
“你是柔软的。”
My throat ripped into flames like pulling the cord on a hot-air balloon.
我的喉咙马上燃起一股火焰，像被绑在上升的热气球上。
“So, after ten years, then?” I was pretty sure that Rosalie and Emmett had nothing on us, but it might sound cocky if I went higher than a decade. “Everybody is normal again? Like they are now?”
“那么，十年后呢？”我很确定罗莎莉和埃美特的故事跟我们没什么关系，但是如果我们需要比十年更长的时间，我会有点小骄傲的：“所有人都正常了？跟他们现在一样？”
He smiled, wrinkling his nose a little. “Rosalie and Emmett were the worst. It took a solid decade before I could stand to be within a five-mile radius of them. Even Carlisle and Esme had a difficult time stomaching it. They kicked the happy couple out eventually. Esme built them a house, too. It was grander than this one, but then, Esme knows what Rose likes, and she knows what you like.”
他微笑，皱了下鼻子：“罗莎莉和埃美特是最严重的，花了整整十年我才能出现在他们五里范围内。即使是卡莱尔和埃斯梅也花了很长时间来适应。最后他们还是把这对‘幸福’的夫妻赶了出去。埃斯梅给他们也建了一栋房子，比这栋要显赫得多。但接着，埃斯梅就发现罗莎喜欢什么，她也知道你喜欢什么。”
“How long?”
“到底多久？”
Edward smiled again. “Well, I’m not sure what you mean by normal. You’ve seen my family going about life in a fairly human way, but you’ve been sleeping nights.” He winked at me. “There’s a tremendous amount of time left over when you don’t have to sleep. It makes balancing your… interests quite easy. There’s a reason why I’m the best musician in the family, why — besides Carlisle — I’ve read the most books, studied the most sciences, become fluent in the most languages… Emmett would have you believe that I’m such a know-it-all because of the mind reading, but the truth is that I’ve just had a lot of free time.”
爱德华又笑起来：“嗯，我不知道你说的正常具体是什么意思。你原来已经见过我的家人是怎么过正常的人类日子的，但是你晚上都在睡觉。”他朝我眨了眨眼：“如果你不需要睡觉的话，那你就要挨过一段长的恐怖的无聊时间。它很容易就会改变你的……兴趣。这也是为什么我是家里最好的音乐家，为什么除了卡莱尔，我读了最多的书，学了最多的知识，能流利的讲最多国的语言……埃美特肯定会告诉你，我之所以这么‘无所不知’是因为我心灵感应的能力，但是事实是，我只是有太多空闲时间了。”
We laughed together, and the motion of our laughter did interesting things to the way our bodies were connected, effectively ending that conversation.
我们不约而同的笑起来，这个动作让我们紧贴在一起的身体又起反应了，很有效的打断了这场谈论。
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