Coming out of the bathroom, she turned and looked at her wrinkled face in the mirror and gasped a tired answer to her long asked question, “never, you just keep driving in the sunset.”She shook her head to wing away those vicious butterflies in her mind. She knew she couldn’t join them so she didn’t want them to hang around her either.
从浴室出来后，她转过身来，看着镜子里那张布满皱纹的脸，气喘吁吁地回答了她长久以来的问题：“从来没有，你只是在夕阳下继续开车。”她摇摇头，驱散心中那些可怕的蝴蝶。她知道她不能加入他们，所以她也不想让他们围着她转。
Tanya got out of the bed while the sun was still asleep. “Would I be able to watch sunrise today?” She asked her heart. She knew the answer but was afraid to tell herself. Mike, her husband, was still in bed and so were her four kids. Even their sleep couldn’t prevent her from doing them service. She arranged her work to the microscopic details. From pressing clothes to polishing shoes, finding sports socks to putting school bags in order, fixing up breakfast to preparing snack-boxes, she wanted to make it all happen like magic, She did it all, like a magician.
当太阳还在睡觉的时候，坦尼娅就起床了。“我今天能看日出吗？”她问她的心。她知道答案，但不敢告诉自己。她的丈夫迈克还在床上，她的四个孩子也是。甚至他们的睡眠也不能阻止她为他们服务。她把她的工作安排到微观的细节上。从熨衣服到擦鞋子，从找运动袜到整理书包，从整理早餐到准备零食盒，她想让这一切像魔术一样发生，她做到了一切，就像一个魔术师。
Life ran like a wheel. The circle started every morning and ended up late in the night, and then morning appeared again. There was no pause, no rest, not even a slight change to insert the circle. She condemned herself for not experiencing even a thought of ever getting out of this circle, but she just committed herself to the orbit of life.
生活就像一个轮子。这个圈子每天早上开始，到深夜结束，然后早晨再次出现。没有停顿，没有休息，甚至连插入圆圈的细微变化都没有。她谴责自己根本没有想过要离开这个圈子，但她只是把自己献给了生活的轨道。
She never got to know when morning ran into noon: even the clock failed to tell her that. Mike left for office still screaming and shouting for his towel and the school bus only arrived after the kids had swallowed their breakfast. Their absence couldn’t cease her work for there was too much work to do. She was planning to send dirty clothes to laundry when the doorbell rang. It had been so long nobody coming to their home that she had forgotten what their doorbell sounded like. She tried to guess who could it be but not a single name appeared in her mind. She opened the door with an uncertain hope but only found the postman standing in the door to vanish that uncertainty.
她从来不知道早晨什么时候到了中午，就连钟也没有告诉她。迈克离开办公室时仍然尖叫着要他的毛巾，校车在孩子们吞下早餐后才到达。他们的缺席不能停止她的工作，因为有太多的工作要做。她正打算把脏衣服送到洗衣店去，这时门铃响了。已经很久没有人来他们家了，她都忘了他们家的门铃是怎么响的了。她试图猜测那是谁，但脑子里一个名字也没有出现。她带着一种不确定的希望打开了门，但只是发现邮递员站在门口，让那种不确定消失了。
She entered the kitchen and heard Mike yelling in his uneasy voice for the absence of his towel in the bathroom. Her youngest daughter Karen started crying that she didn’t want to go to school that day. Nicole, the eldest, couldn’t help herself but to blame Daniel for the overnight fragmentation of her dollhouse while Randal registered his protest from his bed that he was not going lo drink milk in breakfast like every day. In the kitchen, sugar had run out. So she was still looking for that magic wand.
她走进厨房，听到迈克因为浴室里没有毛巾而不安地大喊大叫。她最小的女儿凯伦哭着说她那天不想去学校。大女儿妮可忍不住责怪丹尼尔一夜之间把她的玩具屋弄得支离破碎，而兰德尔则在床上表示抗议，说他不会像往常一样在早餐时喝牛奶。在厨房里，糖已经用完了。所以她还在寻找那根魔杖。
“Hi David! Since when did you start ringing the doorbell? “Words flew out of her mouth without her own consent.
“嗨，大卫！你什么时候开始按门铃了？”她没有经过自己的同意就说出了话来。
“Ever since I was a kid. In my childhood I would ring the bell and run away. ” David was a cheerful postman.
“从我还是个孩子的时候开始。在我的童年时代，我会摇铃然后跑掉。”大卫是一个愉快的邮递员。
“But you don’t need to run away now.”
“但你现在不需要逃跑。”
“I am not sure. It’s someone named L. H. M. Sounds like a postgraduate degree to me.”
“我不确定。是一个叫l.h。m。的人，听起来像是研究生学位。”
“No. not until you have signed and received your letter. ” “My letter! Who could send that?”
“没有。直到你签字并收到你的信”“我的信！谁会寄这种东西呢？”
Tanya received the letter. It was a registered letter from within the town. She wondered who could that L. H. M. be. She opened the envelope and the mystery that was enclosed in it. The handwriting sparked a memory but she felt too overwhelmed to scrape her past. Her heartbeat started flying like butterfly wings.
谭雅收到了那封信。这是一封来自城里的挂号信。她不知道l.h。m。会是谁。她打开信封和里面的神秘东西。那笔迹勾起了她的回忆，但她感到不堪重负，无法回忆过去。她的心跳开始像蝴蝶的翅膀一样飞起来。
My flowered wish Tanya!
我的花愿Tanya！
“Never mind, I’ll sign it.”
“没关系，我会签的。”
I once saw my home in the streets of your palm, my destiny in the smiles of your promises, and my shelter in the shadows of your eyes. I treasured all your
我曾经在你的掌心的街道上看到我的家，在你的承诺的微笑中看到我的命运，在你眼睛的阴影中看到我的栖身之所。我珍惜你的一切
It wasn’t just a letter with ordinary words written on a piece of paper. She could feel those words blazing over her heart. They were telling her stories of her long lost love.
这不仅仅是一封写在一张纸上的普通信件。她能感觉到那些话在她心中燃烧。他们在给她讲她失散已久的爱人的故事。
The sun always rose from the sparkle of your eyes.
太阳总是从你眼睛的光芒中升起。
And then, time flew you away into someone else’s world. That sun vanished and ever since I haven’t seen a sunrise.
然后，时间把你带进了另一个人的世界。那个太阳消失了，从那以后我再也没有看到过日出。
whispers under my pillow, your fragrance in my breaths, and your name in my ears. Your face still lightens up the sky in the night, your voice still rhymes them rain fall, and your hair still soften the wind.
在我的枕头下低语，你的芳香在我的呼吸里，你的名字在我的耳边。你的脸仍然在夜晚照亮天空，你的声音仍然使雨水充满韵律，你的头发仍然使风柔和。
Life is spending me and I am aging. Days keep climbing the mountain of years. Moon disguises its face in the clouds and the night refuses to bring sleep onto my pillow. I fight your memories and defeat myself. The pain-waves of your absence storm through my stale heart and leave it in a misery.
生命在花费我，而我正在衰老。岁月不停地攀登岁月的山峰。月亮把它的脸伪装在云彩里，夜晚拒绝把睡眠带到我的枕头上。我战胜了你的记忆，击败了我自己。你不在我身边的那阵阵痛苦，如暴风雨般穿过我那颗陈旧的心，使它陷入痛苦之中。
My face has lived with me for ten cold winters, now l want to feel the warmth of your face. Bring the sunshine of your eyes to me. Meet me while the sun sets this Sunday at the river bridge. My eyes will be measuring the passage until you come.
我的脸和我一起度过了十个寒冷的冬天，现在我想感受你脸上的温暖。把你眼中的阳光带给我。这个星期天太阳落山的时候，到河边的桥上来见我。我的眼睛将测量通道，直到你来。
Larry
拉里
The letter ended and left her standing at the door of her time-faded memories. Larry was her classmate in college days. He lived in her heart and she dreamed his eyes. They had planned to get married after graduation as soon as Larry found a good job. It took him a year to find one and this expansion of time let Mike surface. Mike was an elegant and handsome man with already a good job. Larry got a first-rate job the day Tanya got married.
那封信结束了，只剩下她站在时间褪色的记忆的门口。拉里是她大学时代的同学。他活在她的心里，她梦见了他的眼睛。他们计划一旦拉里找到一份好工作，就在毕业后结婚。他花了一年的时间才找到一个，这个时间的扩展让迈克浮出水面。迈克风度翩翩，英俊潇洒，已经有了一份不错的工作。塔尼娅结婚那天，拉里找到了一份一流的工作。
In the next six months, Larry left the country and Tanya moved to Wisconsin. Mike’s love scattered into his job, kids and Tanya. She did the same to him, except for the job. Her concern was to take care of the kids and the home. “Easier said than done”, she liked this phrase ever since. Her housework imprisoned her wishes and she couldn’t even wish for her freedom.
在接下来的六个月里，拉里离开了这个国家，坦尼娅搬到了威斯康星州。迈克的爱分散在他的工作、孩子和坦尼娅身上。她对他做了同样的事，除了那份工作。她关心的是照顾孩子和家庭。“说起来容易做起来难”，她从那时起就喜欢这个短语。她的家务活束缚了她的意愿，她甚至不能要求自由。
And today, after more than ten years, a letter came into her life like a butterfly carrying on its wings, words written in rainbow colors. It was Wednesday and she wished to jump over those three days into the Sunday sunset.
十多年后的今天，一封信进入了她的生活，就像一只蝴蝶展开翅膀，用彩虹的颜色书写文字。那是星期三，她希望跳过这三天，直到星期天的日落。
She never got to know when the kids came back from the school and how she spent the rest of the day. The days had started flying with her. In the night she would read that letter to the moon, the stars and the breeze. She would tell them stories of her love; the first time she met Larry, her first words and her first kiss. Every inch of her memory had a bond to a whole new memory. Now she remembered everything; every ray the sun ever endowed on her love. She could feel a powerful freedom that was removing those tedious thoughts from her mind and thrusting life into her veins. Life was wearing hope now.
她从来不知道孩子们什么时候从学校回来，也不知道她是如何度过剩下的一天的。日子一天天过去了。在夜晚，她会读那封写给月亮，星星和微风的信。她会告诉他们她的爱情故事；她第一次见到拉里，她的第一句话和她的初吻。她的每一寸记忆都与一个全新的记忆联系在一起。现在她记起了一切，记起了太阳赋予她爱情的每一道光芒。她可以感受到一种强大的自由，这种自由把那些乏味的想法从她的头脑中清除出去，把生命注入她的血管中。生活现在充满了希望。
No one in the family felt any change in her. Mike had to go to meet a client and was quite busy looking at himself and the kids were too involved in watching the TV. It was an hour to sunset and she was ready, wearing her best dress and wrapped in her favorite fragrance. She looked several years younger and brought back a charming smile onto her lips.
家里没有人觉得她有什么变化。迈克要去见一个客户，他正忙着看自己，孩子们都在看电视。离日落还有一个小时，她已经准备好了，穿着她最好的衣服，裹着她最喜欢的香水。她看起来年轻了几岁，嘴角带回一丝迷人的微笑。
The time from Sunday morning to evening was hard to spend. Time clock was snailing Out of the day and the sun got hung up in mid air. Wind stopped on the surface of water and the shadows declined to shrink. She wished time was a horse with a tail on the forehead and she would pull it from its tail. She wished time was a dry leaf and she would blow it in the windstorm of her heart. She wished time was a boat and she would sail it in the river of her eyes. But today, time had turn into a teaser. She wanted the time to fly and it was crawling. She tried to make her self busy in house chores but her eyes quit supporting her hands as they were still looking at the sun. And the sun also kept glaring at her all the day. Finally the sun lost the battle and started going down. From the rim of the roof, it skidded to the window.
从星期天早上到晚上的时间很难度过。时钟蜿蜒地走出白天，太阳悬挂在半空中。风停在水面上，影子也渐渐缩小。她希望时间是一匹前额有尾巴的马，她会把它从尾巴上拉下来。她希望时间是一片干枯的叶子，她会在她心中的风暴中把它吹走。她希望时间是一艘小船，她会在她眼中的河流中航行。但是今天，时间变成了预告片。她想要时间飞行，而它正在爬行。她试图让自己忙于家务，但她的眼睛停止支持她的手，因为他们仍然在看着太阳。太阳也一整天都在瞪着她。最后太阳输了这场战斗，开始下山。它从屋顶的边缘滑向窗户。
“Aa, well, actually I thought L would go for some shopping”, she hardly uttered.
“啊，嗯，实际上我想我要去买点东西”，她几乎没有说出口。
“Where are you going, dear?” Her preparation couldn’t wage enough resistance against Mike’s curiosity.
“你要去哪儿，亲爱的？”她的准备工作无法抵挡迈克的好奇心。
视上转移开了.其余的人全神贯注,甚至没有听到对话.
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“Yeah dear, why don’t you take Nicole with you, she could be helpful.”
“是的，亲爱的，你为什么不带上妮可呢，她可能会对你有帮助。”
“Mom! I would go with you.” Nicole yelled as the idea of going out had removed her attention from the TV. The rest were so absorbed that they didn’t even hear the conversation.
“妈妈！我愿意和你一起去。”妮可大叫起来，因为出去的想法把她的注意力从电
The sun was hurrying down now. She was afraid of getting late so she speeded up a little.
现在太阳正急速下山。她怕迟到，所以加快了一点速度。
Tanya didn’t feel comfortable having a company at that time but she didn’t want to change Mike’s curiosity into suspicion so she said OK.
当时坦尼娅不喜欢有人陪伴，但是她不想让迈克的好奇心变成怀疑，所以她答应了。
All the way to the City Center, Nicole kept telling her of all the stuff her friends had and what she wanted to buy in response. Tanya wasn’t listening. She was just nodding her head in approval of whatever Nicole said. She couldn’t possibly have said a word. Her heart was rumbling like a volcano, hitting the rib cage trying to get out to take a look at its long lost love.
一路走到市中心，妮可不停地告诉她朋友们都有些什么东西，她想买什么作为回应。坦尼娅没在听。她只是点点头，表示赞同妮可所说的一切。她不可能说出一个字。她的心像火山一样隆隆作响，撞击着胸腔试图出去看看它失去已久的爱情。
“All right.” It was OK for Nicole as long as it didn’t alter their shopping plan.
“好吧。”对妮可来说，只要不改变他们的购物计划就可以了。
“Mom! Aren’t we supposed to go to the City Center?” Nicole asked seeing her turning to a different street.
“妈妈！我们不是应该去市中心吗？”看到她转向另一条街，妮可问道。
“Yes dear but I have to take care of something important before we go shopping, all right?” She said.
“是的，亲爱的，但是在我们去购物之前，我必须处理一些重要的事情，好吗？”她说。
The bridge was getting closer and so was logic. Sanity had started penetrating her enthusiasm. The question of “how should I do it?” turned into “why should I do it?” The eclipse of her memories had started declining. She could see the bridge now. She stopped the car a hundred yards away from the bridge.
桥越来越近了，逻辑也越来越近了。理智开始渗透她的热情。问题是“我应该怎么做？”变成了”我为什么要这么做？”她的记忆力开始衰退。她现在可以看到桥了。她把车停在离桥一百码远的地方。
Larry was standing on the corner of the bridge, with his back to her. He was looking down the bridge into the running water. She walked for a few yards and then stopped.
拉里背对着她站在桥的拐角处。他正从桥上往下看流水。她走了几码，然后停了下来。
“Honey! You stay in the car, I’ll be back in a few minutes.” She said to Nicole without a slight touch of emotions. She didn’t wait for her answer, stepped out of the car in a mechanical way and started walking towards the bridge.
“亲爱的！你呆在车里，我几分钟后就回来。”她毫无感情地对妮可说。她没有等她的回答，机械地从车里走出来，朝着桥走去。
Larry turned his face towards her. Age seemed to have worn him out. He looked tired as if he had traveled a huge span of years. His presence sent no waves of fresh air to clean her heart from the mist of dissatisfaction. He disappointed her again. She hoped to find a ray of hope and he damped down her hope. She looked back towards the car and her daughter. “I have lost too much. I don’t want to lose my ten years.” She decided and turned back. Larry ran after her but she had reached her car. Larry
拉里把脸转向她。年龄似乎使他精疲力竭了。他看上去很疲惫，好像走了很长一段时间。他的出现并没有给她带来一阵清新的空气，使她的心从不满的迷雾中得到净化。他又使她失望了。她希望能找到一线希望，而他挫伤了她的希望。她回头看了看汽车和她的女儿。“我失去的太多了。我不想失去我的十年。”她决定转身回去。拉里在后面追她，但是她已经到了她的车那里。拉里
called her with a passionate cry, “Tanya!” She opened the door and sat in. Larry stopped abruptly with shock in his eyes. Tanya turned the ear back.
她激动地叫道：“坦尼娅！”她打开门坐了进去。拉里眼睛里充满了震惊，突然停了下来。坦尼娅把耳朵转了回去。
“Who was he, mommy?”Nicole couldn’t catch any idea out of it.
“他是谁，妈妈？”妮可一点也不明白。
Tanya kept driving into the sunset.
坦尼娅一直开车驶向夕阳。
“You are my wish, Tanya!” Larry murmured. She stepped on the car. Larry saw her going into the sunset.
“你就是我的愿望，坦尼娅！”拉里低声说。她踩上了汽车。拉里看见她走向夕阳。
“He was a nobody, my dear.”
“他是个无名小卒，亲爱的。”
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